i threw out my cutting items along with old drugs from those days, and i felt sooo free, but now i haven't had the urge to CUT!!! Whats up with that!!! so you think that would be a good thing, right? NO it's not!! Some really shity things have happened since i threw my stuff out and in a normal mindset, cutting would be the first thing i would think to do...but after that sunday (march 10th) i haven't wanted to cut!!! and now i want to just for the sake of doing it (but i have no urges, i just WANT to).
Am i totally crazy?? Would you want to be in my shoes (no urge, just want)?
grrr...idk just ranting
_Sarah_
p.s even though i feel all this, throwing out my stuff was the best thing i've done in a while. And no i didn't do it by myself, i had a very close friend help push me along. And we, i mean I threw the stuff away in a church bathroom (bathrooms are a very happy/life changing place to me, on account of i came to Christ in a bathroom)
Thanks for listening
Am i totally crazy?? Would you want to be in my shoes (no urge, just want)?
grrr...idk just ranting
_Sarah_
p.s even though i feel all this, throwing out my stuff was the best thing i've done in a while. And no i didn't do it by myself, i had a very close friend help push me along. And we, i mean I threw the stuff away in a church bathroom (bathrooms are a very happy/life changing place to me, on account of i came to Christ in a bathroom)
Thanks for listening