Feeling Nostalgic

[Kira Kira~sama]

No one is gonna see this.

I was chatting with friends on Discord and realized that as much as I love the friends I made on Gaia, being capt of this place was some of the most stressful moments of my life. At times I felt like a mother to children who were not my own, children who would not listen to a simple rule like "play nice with others", and took advantage of innocent people with the promise of things like items and gold.

And I tried my hardest to keep this place active with little to no participation.
Maybe some of you hated me for being your online parent or maybe you were just going through tough times no one knew. But I always wanted this place to be a safe haven, a fun spot to just talk about nonsense or anime or movies. It didn't matter.

The fake suicides, the pointless arguments, the sexual harassment... None of that belonged here.

If I could do it over again with the knowledge I have now, I wouldn't have said yes to being captain. I was going through my own problems that I'm now seeing a therapist about. I was not mentally or emotionally stable to take the helm. I should've jumped ship with the few of you who are still my dear friends a long LONG time before this place really became a mausoleum.

So to anyone who sees this, just know I tried my best.

 

[Spider the bounty hunter]

I'm not very good with emotionally situations and trying to cheer people up and seeing as this is 3 months after you posted this, so if you see this the best I can say really is...

*pats you on the back* I believe you did well and all you could do and that's all that really matters in the end (well to me at least) there was a lot of fun times and a lot of stuff I hold dearly to me to this day, in fact it was some of the best times of my early internet life I would say. Yes the petty arguments was just that, the sexual harassment to me seem more like people playing their wanna be anime characters (I'm looking at you Unspoken), and the fake suicides....sorry I got nothing for that, BUT if I recall you at the time were a mother to 2 children and thou I am not a father I have help raise 7 nieces and 2 nephews (although I will admit it is nowhere being the same as an uncle compared to an parent) which is a lot to take in with life.

As I said earlier I'm not good at these things, and although I barely keep in touch with anyone on here real life/other social media I consider you a friend and hope you, D, and your children and continue to live happily and healthy lives and it's okay to be talking to a therapist (I also am doing that myself for other reasons) we all need to get our mental and emotional help together especially in this time.


TLDR;
In short I think you did well and that's all I could ask for  

[Skull Panda]

I miss you hermana.

I miss you, brother.