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 Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2008 9:36 pm
Complaining? No, no. Complaining was the last thing on her mind. Not even a thought to complain. Or... there would not be if there was a thought beyond the kiss to be had.
Her soft sound of mild disappointment that the kiss was over was not quite a sigh though they would be alike in how breath is lightly exhaled. This was an odd almost pout... for it was hard to pout or truly be disappointed when lost to bliss. It was hard for Relm to return from whence she came, mind wading groggily though sensations and revelations in which the kiss still left her reeling. Her eyelids felt so heavy, but the pictomancer struggled to open them so she could see Elijah when he spoke. Though she started trying at the first word Relm had only halfway succeeded by the time the words trailed off. Large mint green ears that had turned to better hear Elijah's moan easily picked up the murmur even though Relm felt lost in a thick, pleasant fog.
His words made her smile, and perhaps for the first time Relm was not at all ready with a response. Some tumbled in her mind... but none seemed fitting.
Not that with as heavily as she was breathing speaking was going to be easy soon. Her green eyes were bright as Relm smiled and leaned lightly into the hand on her cheek. "mmm... and that's... bad?" She asked playfully at last, her alto voice groggy with blissful drunkenness on kisses and feelings.
Then a little bit more seriously. "I've never envisioned... anything like this. Not for me. Never..." It was more of a happy flush than embarrassed blushing that warmed the skin of her cheeks. "Experienced or wanted to before."
oh boy. She was not making as much sense as Relm would have liked. Seemed her ability to speak had not yet overcome the 'wow!' factor of that kiss.
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Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2008 10:26 pm
"Bad...? No.... Far from bad. The opposite actually." He chuckled. "Just want to save some things for later..."This was the first time he had ever heard Relm jumble up what she was saying if he remembered correctly. It sounded so, so... cute!
He smiled happily and stroked her cheek with his hand. "Never huh? I'm just that good you're saying? Able to change your mind just by kissing....?" He leaned his head in, but this time just to rest his forehead on hers. Another happy chuckle came from him. "...And I've seemed to make you lost for words too." He said all this teasingly even though he did like hearing all this. His hand slid from her cheek so he could wrap that around her waist as well and hold her a bit more closely to him.
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Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2008 10:49 pm
Her heart leapt happily. Something for later...! Only her eyes dancing with their joy answered that, for Relm neither knew what to say nor trusted herself to say it if she could.
oh Espers... Her eyes threatened to flutter closed and in fact seemed to be about to do so as she leaned a bit more into the stroking of her cheek. How could such a simple touch be so wonderful -even after a kiss such as they had shared?
"Oh you!" Relm managed in what was supposed to be retaliation, and one could almost imagine how her hand was supposed to accompany the words and playfully swat or push at his chest. Though her voice held some of the pretend offense it was otherwise soft and far, far too tender to carry much weight. Especially as Relm was smiling, her whole essence into it even as she tried to pout that it had not been her point... though she agreed that he was. That good. She liked that he was teasing her. It made her feel warm, because of how he kindled her feelings for him. How he must be comfortable enough in his feelings to do so. It did bother her that Elijah had caught her inability to speak. More that she still could not than that he had caught it to tell the truth.
"Before that, duh. Think I'd let just anyone kiss me, Musician?" The slight barrier because in his arms & being held even closer... Relm had to keep something from seeking his lips with hers once more. And she needed to try to speak with him. She felt so much, and was showing so much of it too... she had to make sure Elijah knew this -what she felt for him & shared- was not an act.
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 1:38 pm
"No.... Of course not," Elijah replied to her question while still smiling happily. Hearing that comforted him. He was special to her just like she was to him. Sure, he pretty much figured he got the picture with how she felt about him through all the kisses, but he hadn't heard her say she liked him yet... Or at least not directly. Still, he wasn't going to rush her. He knew better than that. Elijah knew Relm wasn't likely to trick him in such a way as to lead him on about her liking him so rushing her for no reason would be foolish, but still... still... Even though he was hiding it very well he still felt anxious about hearing it come from her. Just a bit more reassurance would make things all the more better... He hugged her to him gently as he thought over what she just said. "No just anyone, huh...?" The smile on his face grew.
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 6:27 pm
Her eyes relayed her joy at the confirmation Elijah's words gave her. Relm had not thought he might suspect her of something -and truthfully she hoped he never liked that sort of girl purely on that she thought hjim far too sweet for one- but it was nice to be certain. An odd nice, for Relm usually was certain all on her own. Whether she was right or not. On this... she particularly had wanted to be right.
"Mmm-mm." Relm agreed softly into the hug while returning it, then pulling back enough to see his face and notice the growing smile. She half wanted to pick on him... but the truth came out instead. "Not anyone else."
And then just because she felt laid bare with the truth Relm added, "Dork." Her tone bore no anger however, just some mild frustration (at herself), a little bit of fear (uncharted waters), and far too much tenderness for what she had intended the term.
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 8:34 pm
Those darn "butterflies" were fluttering around in Elijah's stomach again. He finally got that reassurance he wanted. "Good..." He murmured and shut his eyes for a moment to just enjoy her being able to hold her like this. Yes. It was true. It was really true. Him and only him. Of course he could tell before, but it just felt all the more real now. If someone ever did get near Relm's heart like he had he would surely be devastated and jealous all at once. Holding Relm like this was an experience he wanted to have and him alone.
His eyes opened up slowly after realizing what he had just been called. "Dork...?" He raised an eyebrow. There was no real offense taken by him, this was obvious, but there was just curiosity to where that came from since he was oblivious to this apparently "dorkyness" he seemed to have. "Now how am I a dork?"
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 8:59 pm
Her frown was more of a pout. Here was her own nature, biting her in the butt. Maybe though, it would segway into getting her able to tell him what she wanted Elijah to know and understand about her. The sooner she did, the sooner she would feel free to kiss him once more -something that even now Relm yearned for again. "You're not."
The pout became more pronounced, and even more of a frown. Relm really... was not certain how to go about this but stubbornly jutted her little chin out while looking at Elijah green to green. "I could've been a lot more colorful..."
She huffed sharply, her gaze letting his go for a moment to glance with a flick to her right at nothing then back again -confidence apparently bolstered. A little. The strength of her voice was lacking and trembled faintly with something like fear. Not terror... simply that with all her adventures Relm felt herself woefully unprepared. "It's that you unsettle me, okay? I'm completely thrown off."
Though there was the tone of accusation it was good blame somehow for there was still a tenderness to her tone that could not be removed when alone with Elijah. Besides that, her actions indicated that whoever's fault for whatever she was talking about she still wanted to be right there. The fingers of her right hand moved across his neck and scalp while her left pressed surely upon his back -still beneath his coat. It was hard to get much closer and still keep up a face-to-face conversation. At least not without increasing temptation of distraction.
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 9:52 pm
"I know what you meant. Don't worry. Was just curious... and stupid. Sorry... " He reassured. His smile dropped a little. Maybe HE was the one who messed up. He stared directly back into her eyes as she stared into his as he listened to her.
"Unsettle you...?" He tilted his head to the side. His smile dropped more. Now he was beginning to worry if he really had moved a little too fast with this new relationship they had just made together. Then again... It sounded like a normal thing to happen at the same time. Relationships always made someone feel nervous he figured. Except he felt more joyful from being with Relm right now than nervous currently. "Yeah, I think I get what you're talking about...." The way she said it seemed positive. "It's a good kind of unsettling.... right?"
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 10:10 pm
His falling smile caused her heart to lurch and drop somewhere into Relm's stomach. nononono! She did not want to upset or hurt him!
Despite her better judgment Relm slipped up and forward for a brief moment and sweetly kissed his lips before returning to where she was with a wavering -but unknowingly loving- smile. "It a good reason." Relm agreed, her eyes seeming somehow to say the reason was him -maybe even them, together.
"See I..." Her green eyes were welling & filled with tears of frustration that clung but did not fall. Why did it have to be so hard to tell him? Couldn't she just somehow keep on kissing Elijah and avoid all this? But somehow... it did not feel right. It set her heart in mind of the secrets her father kept from them: secrets that led to him deserting them. No. She wanted Elijah to know her. To understand her. And to not worry in her affection for him. "I don’t show weakness, unless I want to show weakness and then it’s an act. If I feel weak I don’t show it, don’t you get it? I’ve had to be strong. Always strong. I couldn’t show anything else or I know they would have tried to send me home –because I was just a kid. Not that I had a home…” Relm frowned, starting to turn her face away. She was getting off topic. Rambling.
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Posted: Fri Nov 28, 2008 9:33 pm
Elijah's face fell more, no hint of smile there what so ever. As wonderful as the kiss that he had just received had been, it didn't make the situation much better either. He didn't know Relm was so afraid of such a thing. He didn't want her to be afraid for reasons like that. Especially ones involving him. "You don't have to be strong around me," He said seriously. His hand moved up to her cheek again, ready to wipe away the tears that seemed to be coming and he wanted to rid from her face. He gently moved her head over so she would be looking at him again. "What kind of person would I be if I only liked you because of the strong you...? That’d be wrong! No! Relm, I'm never going to want you to go away. Never. I want you to be here.... With me. It's okay if you don't want to hold something in. I... I want to help. You can lean on me. I don't care. I... I want to be there for you.... With you. You don't have to act... I want the real you. Every part of it."
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Posted: Fri Nov 28, 2008 10:04 pm
Relm... deflated softly. Not in a bad way -it was more she was so relaxed, so relieved and stunned that she sank further into him. Softly she leaned into Elijah's touch, feeling the comfort upon her cheek as she moved it very slightly back and forth. A few tears actually slipped through but they had already changed to ones of happy relief. Not yet joy -Relm was still too close to having been on edge for that- but very close.
Why... why was she surprised at his reaction? She should have known he would not get angry with her. She should have known Elijah would not turn it around and accuse her of the kisses or anything else that had been between them having been an act. She should have known... Elijah was not like that. Relm knew fear could irrationally blind... but that was always hardest to see when one was the blinded one.
Now she was drowning, adrift in the unexpected boon of what Elijah was saying. Slowly Relm had permitted him to turn her head back but it took a little longer to be able to meet the dog anthro's brilliant green eyes. When she could speak her voice was soft and shaking with emotion. "That's just it... Somehow, it’s okay to show you when I’m weak or vulnerable. Somehow I want to &… damn it, Musician! That’s not like me and it frightens me! Can you get that?!?” The exclamation could be felt rather than heard in volume for the artist's voice did not raise. Her small petite body was shaking but this time Relm did not look away. Tenderly she caressed Elijah's neck and face with her right hand, a look of awe and wonder in her face. "Something about you... and the best my practiced skills were able to do was withhold a little. And that... that was only as long as I was keeping stuff from myself..."
Her voice trailed off but her touch did not. Bright and intelligent eyes were focused as if captivated and held in thrall, the eyes themselves caressing Elijah's face. "I've just never done it before." She said in a voice so small, so very small. It. Trust. She trusted Elijah. But it was so new... it frightened her that she did. Trust.
And... more. But that could wait.
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Posted: Fri Nov 28, 2008 10:54 pm
How... How could he make this better for her? It pained him to see her like this. He was pretty sure he understood why, it was just he didn't know how to fix this. All he knew was that he cared about her so much and just wanted to help her somehow. Maybe all he could do was be patient.
"It's okay, Relm... There’s nothing wrong with it...." He said quietly. He stroked her cheek with his thumb and leaned in to give her a gentle kiss on her forehead before speaking again. "This will go at our own pace. There’s no rushing anything, if you feel... uncomfortable. You don't have to spill everything to me, especially not all at once if you don't want to... And definitely not if you're uncomfortable with it. I just... Want to be there for you and want to be someone you want to tell things to. I'd like to know about you..."He smiled gently. "Everyone starts somewhere... It's a normal thing to happen. It will be alright. I promise." He leaned in again to press a gentle kiss to her lips.
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Posted: Sat Nov 29, 2008 1:35 am
She needed to hear him. So the rather outspoken girl was silent as she soaked in Elijah's response. He calmed her so, her eyes fluttering shut for the kiss to her forehead then directly back open again the same way in reverse.
It did not matter if he understood. Not yet. Relm felt a huge weight had lifted from her simply in telling. That was the important part: she had to make sure Elijah was not kept in the dark. He had to know. Had to have the information on hand at least. He could do with it what he wanted now but at least he had been informed. Or warned. It depended on one's point of view.
Eyes closing, Relm sighed into the gentle kiss. It was perfect as it was. Elijah was perfect. For her.
It was not until after the kiss that she spoke, while they were pulling apart but before either moved very far. She could feel his breath on her lips, and her own bouncing off of Elijah especially as she quietly spoke.
"I believe you."
I trust you. I believe you. I... Relm turned her head to lightly kiss the fingers that had wiped her tears away before snuggling her cheek back into the hand and smiling softly up into his face. "Elijah... I want to share everything with you." Why else would she have insisted on telling him what she did?
"So much of my life I've acted... I just... 'Lijah I just wanted you to know... this" Relm paused meaningfully, her eyes deep in his. "wasn't."
Lovingly her hand caressed his face, her thumb brushing the boundary between light and dark of the patches Elijah bore there without once looking away from his eyes. Hers were still moist but they smiled warm and earnestly now though still a little afraid. Not uncertain though. There was a sureness about her, despite her fear. This -being together with Elijah- she wanted beyond a doubt now that she had seen.
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Posted: Tue Dec 02, 2008 7:50 pm
Yes, yes. He got to hear how she truly felt now after all. Even though it hadn't even been a full night he felt like he had been waiting to hear that all his life. 'Everything...' Everything. Between the two of them. Both in words and actions she had told him this now. He couldn't even think of the right words to describe how wonderful he felt right now. How did she make him feel so good?"Relm..." He said softly. His eyes shut half way, since he now felt even better that he didn’t feel so anxious anymore.
"So that's what you meant before..." He stated quietly and paused for a moment just to let the blissful feeling of being so close to her sink in even more. He didn't exactly know a hundred percent sure what she meant by acting all her life, but that didn't matter. It was certain to him that he could trust her too. She wouldn't hurt him, no. "I.. I knew that. I never thought you would lie to me like that. I believe you too after all." He leaned into her touch. "It's really nice to hear it though. Really nice..." His forehead moved down to rest on her own. "And... I want to share everything with you too. More even... If that's even possible."
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Posted: Tue Dec 02, 2008 9:43 pm
How did he make the sound of her name sound so wonderful to her? Relm's heart flipped softly, still fluttering but almost comfortably so.
Softly she nodded in response to the question that was more of a statement, her smile becoming a little more at ease. He did understand. Well... at least enough for now. Maybe Elijah would never get it all the way, but the important part... the part she could not bear he didn't know... that he seemed to have grasped. Enough, anyway.
And he had known it... Somehow Relm was not surprised even while she was surprised. An odd feeling to be sure but it made her gently happy. Made Elijah that much more wonderful and dearer to her. Green eyes lidded as she reciprocated and leaned her forehead to his. Everything was washed in the soft red glow of happiness from her forehead jewel, just above where their heads touched so their eyes themselves were in shadow from it. "More... than everything?"
It was asked softly; endearingly but with more than a hint of amused teasing. Then came a happy fluttering sigh and though Relm's smile remained sweetly small it had somehow become even warmer and more happy than before. Possible or not... it sounded wonderful. "I'd like that, 'Lijah. I really would. Everything. More even... than everything."
Relm breathed in deeply then exhaled shakily through smiling, slightly parted lips. She shifted only a little so that her cheek was against his, just to feel. As tempting as his lips and the kisses to be found there Relm forced herself to take a moment to simply be. To simply be with Elijah after offering such heady and personal information. She had not realized... how much she had longed for something like this with Elijah.
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