Rawr-P #51: Just Looking For A Friend...

[InuMaki]

He was staring at a computer screen. Now would be the perfect time to try it, he told himself. His wife was out of the house, and today was one of the busiest days of the week at the hair salon, it being a Saturday and all. It was now or never...yet he still just stared at the "Incognito" window of the internet. He shuddered to know what his wife would react if she knew he had even thought about doing it. How disappointed and confused she would be? He sighed, running a frustrated hand through bright red locks of hair. Okay, he knew his curiosity was just not going to go away any time soon, so he may as well just get it over with now. He rested his fingers on the keyboard of his laptop and typed in the address of the website. The words "GayFriendFinder"popping up in big blue lettering as the web page loaded. He winced a little at the name. At least he could tell himself he was just on here to meet people and be friends. He had recently gotten more curious about homosexuality, and it had scared him at first. He didn't want to admit that he may have a thing for guys--especially since he was married and all. However, the way the marriage was going now after a year and a half...he didn't know how much longer it would last. He sighed softly and clicked the bright orange button that said "Join now!" Quickly he typed in his information--name, resident state and city, a little about himself, what he was looking for... Just looking for an open-minded friend to talk to about--he paused and winced as he finished--emotional confusion. God, that sounded girly and sappy and stupid, but it was whatever. He put his age in and a few interests as well. He didn't want people trying to talk to him that he wouldn't get along with. After clicking "Submit" and uploading a picture of himself--again, wincing at how much he was really putting himself out there--he tried his hand at looking to see who was in the area...and he was a little put-off about it. Of course. No one who had the self-confidence would put themselves on a site like this...which meant they wouldn't be the prettiest...or the most intelligent. He leaned back in his chair, rubbing his hands over his face tiredly and sighing. He then closed down the browser window and actually got to doing his school work. He was twenty-four, married...and finally going back to school. He wasn't really sure what he wanted to do right now, but he was going to get his basics done with and figure it out from there.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Saturday was a day for that most college students enjoyed. They went out to the mall or maybe to the movies to hang out with friends, but not Demyx. Not for lack of trying of course, Demyx was always trying to be nice and social with people, but he just didn’t ever meet anyone that really wanted to be his friend. Some people liked the fact that he could play the guitar, some people like the way he looked, some people thought that he was funny, but none of them seemed break past that friend barrier with him. So therefore with nothing to do on this Saturday, Demyx had resented to spending the day inside playing guitar and roaming around the internet.

“GayFriendFinder.com” was definitely something he didn’t expect to stumble upon as he opened up the webpage. He honestly was looking for porn originally but he figured it was worth a try. Maybe people would like him better if they didn’t meet him in person. He did tend to be a little hard to handle, but what nineteen-year-old isn’t hard to handle? Demyx pushed the debating thought of whether or not he was especially difficult or not out of his head as he started up on his profile. Some of things they wanted to know, Demyx didn’t really understand, but he figured all the interest categories tied together to help find people that were compatible with him. He didn’t have a picture just on his hard drive, so he took a quick one on his webcam with his guitar. It turned out pretty good since, he was shirtless at the moment and it showed one of the tattoos he had that he was particularly proud of. It was over his heart and it was of a treble clef that had a heart beat rhythm coming out of it.

Once the profile was set up, Demyx almost couldn’t contain himself as he looked at what the website suggested for him in his area. At first, it wasn’t anything too interesting, but there was this one guy. He had his crazy bright, red hair. This guy definitely stuck out. Maybe it was a character flaw, but Demyx always did like people that stood out. “…Axel…ummm…” Demyx let the name roll of his tongue in almost a moan. Man screw the porn, this guy was way hotter than most of those porn stars. The redhead even had facial tattoos which basically said that he wasn’t one for following the rules. The next thing that Demyx noticed that was he didn’t live that far away, just a few towns over. It probably wasn’t even a thirty minute difference. “Woah… I mean what are the chances, but I guess this is what this website is for and all.” Demyx mumbled to himself as he clicked the message button on Axel’s profile page.

“Hey there,
Can I just start by saying that I think you look completely awesome. (Face tattoos, I mean you obliviously have wayyy more guts than I do, for sure.) You probably get that you look hot all the time, but I just couldn’t help but want to message you. I apparently live a few towns over from you, too. If you have some free time or just don’t find me completely creepy yet, message me back okay?

Sincerely,
Demyx”

“There, now I just have to wait for this guy to reply.” Demyx said as he clicked the send button after typing up his message. After reading back through the message, he found it to be more on the adorable side rather than pervert-like or creep-like, but he didn’t have the power of knowing how others would feel about the things he said.

 

[InuMaki]

Axel found himself chewing on his bottom lip as he worked on his essay for his English Composition class. He kept glancing down at his internet on his task bar, cursing himself softly for wanting to know already if someone had found him interesting. One more paragraph, he told himself. One more paragraph and then he'd check the site. Progression in work before pleasure. He winced at his thoughts. What an unfortunate choice of words... He sighed softly and typed up a few more sentences to one of his body paragraphs and ran a hand down his face as he used the other to click open his internet--in incognito, of course. He typed in the site and logged in quickly. His eyes almost bugged out of his head when he looked at his messages. Six messages already? He let out another sigh, this one to grab ahold of himself. He clicked on the first one, sneering as he picked up on the creepy tone in it. Dele-ete, he sang to himself in his head then moved on. He wasn't really interested in any of them as he read the messages--two of which didn't even have a picture and the other was...eugh... However, the fifth person caught his eye. Blond, looked around twenty, beautiful blue eyes, tan skin, seemed to play guitar judging by the picture, had a tattoo... He was, Axel chastised himself from thinking it, adorable. He clicked on his message and found himself chuckling slightly at his words. He smiled to himself. Thinking for a moment, he began typing a reply to him.

Demyx,
Thank you for the multitude of compliments. It does well for the already-inflated ego I have, believe me. When I got the tattoos I was so shitfaced that my whole body was numb, so I didn't even feel it--not to mention remember getting it done. You wouldn't imagine the s**t I get for it.
By the way, I don't find you creepy at all. I think you're pretty adorable, really. I actually only really had an interest in reading your message out of the six I had waiting for me. The other ones were...eugh. I don't even wanna become one of the things those people fap to.
I will let you know that I'm kind of having emotional difficulties right now. I just joined this site maybe two hours ago really just to find someone to talk to about it. I just need to know I'm not the only one going through...sexuality issues, I guess you could say.
Care to interact with someone who could use a virtual and/or real hug? And spill his guts to a mostly-stranger?

If so, I'd love to get to know you and maybe make a new friend. C:

-Axel

He hit send and leaned back in his chair, smiling to himself. This seemed very promising. He was almost excited about getting Demyx's next message--if he decided to still talk to him, that is. He had no clue he could make a friend so easily. He hadn't had many real friends since high school. Hell, he had even married a woman he had been with since high school. He groaned a little at himself. Maybe he just hadn't put himself out there enough? he looked back at the screen, finding himself growing impatient for Demyx's reply already. God, I'm a dork.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Demyx had started to lazily strum over the strings on his guitar. His mouth was lightly humbling as he played a soft tune on his guitar. He often would just easily get sweep away by the music he played. If the website hadn’t a little alarm when he got a message, Demyx would have forgotten he was sitting there on his laptop. Most of the messages were just open invitation to webcam sex, but Demyx had to rightfully say that when the Axel guy messaged him back, he was surprised. It only took about thirty minutes to get an answer from the sexy redhead. Demyx thought for sure the guy was just going to blow his message off.
“Axel,
Wow, you got that drunk/high, what a rebel you were/are. See I only get stupid drunk with my roommate that is never here, so I never really get drunk at all, and even then I’m not allow to leave the apartment. Something about needing to be responsible if I remember correctly from the rant my roommate gave me.
What really? Thanks, I don’t get a lot of compliments from nice people, mostly from just guys and chicks that want to have sex with me. (Just as a side-note, by you answering my first message, does that give me permission to flap to your picture? BD)
Oh man, it’s cool, vent anything you want. I won’t tell anyone… even though I really don’t have anyone to tell…. I guess you can say I’m kind of in the same boat. I don’t really have a lot of friends. I mean there is my roommate, but I think he only puts up with me.
Free virtual/ real offers of social interaction?! What is this madness? Honey, you could tell me you just murder someone and I don’t think I could be mad at you after being offered a hug I didn’t have to ask for.
New BFFs :3
-DemDem”
Demyx typed and send the message back as soon as he possibly could. He wasn’t even sure why he was so excited by this guy. He didn’t know anything about this guy other than he seemed nice and level-headed.

 

[InuMaki]

Axel's head perked up from his thoughts when he remembered to check the page. His eyes brightened a few minutes later when he got a reply from the blond. Must be online.., he thought idly as he opened the message. He couldn't stop the smile from spreading across his face as he read on. He laughed a little at the question about fapping to his picture. The notion didn't really seem to bother Axel as he thought about it. Sure, he didn't know this guy, but he seemed nice enough. Plus, he couldn't really stop the blond from doing whatever he wanted. Nodding to himself, he continued to read. He had to smile when Demyx gave him permission to vent to him about whatever he wanted. DemDem. Cute. He placed his fingers on the keyboard, ready to type.

Demyx,
It was a while ago, I asssure you. I haven't really had friends since high school, and that's when the tattoos happened. I haven't really gotten drunk for a few years now. Just a buzz here or there. My wife doesn't really enjoy me drinking... Not really sure why. Not like I've cheated on her or anything.
That's my issue, actually. I'm married and have been for a year and a half now, but we've been together since high school. I haven't really gotten out much and am just now taking college classes. I dunno...I just don't know what's wrong with our marriage. It just seems to be going nowhere. And thoughts that I thought I had buried in school are resurfacing, which is why I'm here now. I've been doubting whether or not I'm attracted to women anymore. I know I'm attracted to men--Hell, you've got to be one of the most handsome things on the planet--but I don't know if my wife has just killed the thought of being with a woman or what. Our sex life isn't even all that great anymore. Granted, I haven't had sex with anyone else, but I'm not repulsed by doing so. I wouldn't mind having sex with someone else in the least. If I were single, of course. I'm not one to cheat at all. Le sigh.
Oh, by the way, go ahead and do what you want. I can't stop you from fapping to something this gorgeous. Haha. I'm hilarious. Not really. I feel kind of dead inside.
How about we start off with virtual interaction for now? Hell, I wouldn't mind webcamming with you in the near future--if you have a cam, of course. Judging by your picture, I'd say you do. And it's nothing dirty, I just prefer to actually speak to someone while seeing their face to typing or talking on the phone.
How'd you know I'm an axe murderer? Looks like you're next. : P Be prepared, Blondie. Following the imminent hug will be the chopping of your limbs. Gotta be careful with us creeps on dating sites. Someone'll snatch you right up.
Who knew it was this easy to make a best friend? Haha. Though it's kind of odd to have a best friend that's five years younger than me. Meh. I kinda like it. c:
-Axel

He replied as quickly as he could, hoping he didn't miss any points of the message. s**t, I forgot to ask him what was up with this roommate of his.., he cursed softly to himself and ran a hand through his hair. He couldn't help but smile. He wasn't going to get his hopes up that Demyx was a real person--picture and all--until he spoke to him. He was anxious to hear what the blond sounded like. He sounded like a sweetheart...and a goofball.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Demyx almost couldn’t control his excitement for having his new friend. He didn’t seem like he was going to use Demyx either. He, like Demyx, was just looking for an honest friend. It was refreshing to know that good people still existed. Living on a college campus, it wasn’t exactly like you found a great abundant of hope. Most of the people were either stuck up, creepy, or dishonest, sometimes even a combination of all three. Demyx, being the social creature he was, usually just hung around the stuck up or dishonest. They weren’t the best companions, but at least they didn’t touch him awkwardly. It was an ongoing battle though to find decent people around the campus with Demyx though. He never stopped trying that is for sure.

“Axel,
Man you shouldn’t let a person stop you from enjoying yourself. If there is one the I have learned since being in college, it is that people aren’t going to like everything you do, but as long as you are happy, what do they matter. But then again, I guess if she is your wife, her opinion might weigh higher.
Oh so you are unhappily married, well I will have to thank you for keeping the dream of us getting married and adopting eight little gay babies together alive. It means a lot to me. Ha, you give my looks too much credit by the way, probably the webcam glare. Dude, You have only had sex with one person, that commendable man. I have had sex with a few people, but I get desperate sometimes, you know in the whole “not tied down world”. Though I agree on the whole cheating thing, if you want these chicken wings, you are going to have to dump that old lady. ;D
For someone, who is dead inside, you sure seem to be a lot of fun.
Sounds good to me, my webcam is a little wonky but it works most of the time. I don’t know what I like more, people tend to find me annoying in person though, so may your interests should be more for messages for your sake.
An ax murderer? Ha, does that mean I get to star in a horror movie?! That would be awesome, but I would either have to be main character and live through it or die the funniest death. I have to be memorable ;D Plus, I think you will have a little harder time finding me without an exact address than you think. I don’t stick out THAT much. (lol or maybe I do) Well, in any case, I haven’t been attacked before, so I doubt that signing up on one website is going to change that.
FIVE YEARS? Duuuuude, can I call you Grandpa Ax? Haha if you want in exchange you can call me Baby DemDem. It think it would be cute.
-Baby DemDem (Yup, fantastic)”

Demyx sent the messages just he heard the door starting to click with the sound of someone unlocking it. “Hey, Zexion, how was the study session at the library?” Demyx asked brightly, just happy in general now. Zexion was a big nerd, all he did was read and study, but Demyx didn’t mind, usually the dark haired teen didn’t even answer him, so it was like talking to a wall with a face.

 

[InuMaki]

Axel laughed to himself at Demyx’s message. He was so cute… He also had a point. He shouldn’t let his wife really tell him what he could and couldn’t do. Whether he was married or not, he was still his own person. Maybe that’s why he was so down in the dumps lately. He hadn’t really done anything he wanted to do except finally get back to going to school. He hummed to himself lightly in thought.

Dem,
You just keep getting more adorable by the message, and you’re fairly entertaining, too. : P
I agree with you on not letting people tell me what I can and can’t do. Whether she’s my wife or not, I’m still my own person. Funny, the best advice I’ve gotten in a while is from someone several years younger than me. Never thought that that would happen. Not that I’m complaining.
You keep dreaming that dream, Dem. Odd things happen that no one ever expects. C; Eight babies may be in your future. I always did love kids. Haha.
I don’t think anyone could give your looks too much credit, Dem. Really. You… If I’m honest with myself, you’re probably the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen. Beside myself, of course. C;
It’s not really my choice to have only had sex with one person. I’ve just only been with her and with the whole not cheating thing… I don’t know. I kind of think that my wife and I need to take a break. I just never seem to be very happy when I’m at home anymore, and it’s dragging me down. Honestly, I think messaging you is the most I’ve really smiled inside this house in a while. I thank you for that. C:
And I want to know what you’re interested in, Dem. We could take turns asking each other a question in each message? I’d like that. What’s the point of being friends if we don’t know anything about each other?
Do you like horror movies? (Ha! There’s my question! : D ) I think you’d probably be the one who lives the whole way through it. There’s no way I could rid a horror movie of you. Or any movie for that matter. You’re the best comic relief ever. And not bad to look at either. C;
I’d rather if you didn’t call me “Grandpa Ax”, actually. : P Makes me feel old and dirty for basically flirting with a nineteen year old. I’ve apparently taken a liking to calling you Dem, though, if that’s alright. Or Demy. Maybe just Dems or DemDem. The possibilities are endless! My even be Sweetcheeks after a while.
s**t, gotta go. Wife’s home. Not sure how she’ll react seeing me on here. Message later? Bye.
-Big Daddy Ax B )

He quickly sent the message, taking one last glance to Demyx’s picture before closing the window and working on his essay again. He began typing his third body paragraph as he heard the front door open a few rooms over. Thoughts were swirling in his head. He really was just flirting with Demyx and lost track of time. He forgot his wife came home for her lunch break. He suddenly felt dirty for talking to Demyx behind her back, but he was just chatting. He was just making a friend that happened to be absolutely adorable. And really funny. And made him smile.
He smiled softly at the thought and continued to type and get his homework done.

Zexion glanced over at his roommate as he addressed him. He sighed inwardly. That blond was just always so happy... How could one person carry that much light inside of them? It wasn't even faked either. The guy was really always that happy. He hummed shortly over to him in thought before stating, "Knowledgeable," and walking into the kitchenette their apartment of a dorm came equipped with. He reached inside and pulled out a container full of a dull yellow-orange paste. He set it out on the counter and then pulled out a bag of pita bread chips from a cabinet, closing the fridge with his foot carelessly. He pulled the lid off of the paste and stood there for a moment, contemplating on going back to his room or actually sitting on the couch and interacting with the blond. He was in a fairly good mood and had all of his homework done... Plus he kind of felt like listening to the blond play up close. He had only heard the strums of his guitar through the thin walls of the place. Demyx was pretty talented, he had to admit to himself. Deciding, he nodded and picked up the bag of chips and container before sitting cross-legged on the couch and dipping a chip into the paste, enjoying his hummus and pita chips thoroughly. "Demyx, would you mind playing your guitar?" he asked quietly, just giving him a seemingly uncaring, polite, uninterested look as he munched on his healthy snack.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Demyx smiled as his quiet roommate sat down on the couch next to the table he was sitting at. His roommate wasn’t locking himself up in his room away from him! It was like the gods had looked down on Demyx today and said “Oh DemDem, don’t be anti-social today, here we give you people to entertain and talk to!” Demyx’s mental fantasy seemed to pop though hearing Zexion speak to him. SPEAK TO HIM. Demyx quickly set the guitar down and soaked this moment up for all it was worth. He leaped to the couch and hugged the slate haired teen in a glee of excitement forgetting that it was probably inappropriate seeing as he was only in some pajama pants. “Of course Zexy! I’ll play you music for as long as you want!” He chirped happily before sensing the hostility and getting off of his roommate and picking back up his guitar. “Okay this one, I have been working on a lot lately.” Demyx mumbled a little deciding what to play. He reached up tuning it for a moment before he started out a slow chord

She said, "It's cold outside"
And she hands me a raincoat
She's always worried about things like that

She said, "It's all gonna end
And it might as well be my fault"
And she only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams, and her voice is straining

And she says, "Baby, it's 3 a.m., I must be lonely"
And she says, "Baby, well, I can't help
But be scared of it all sometimes
And the rain's gonna wash away what I believe in"

She's got a little bit of something
God, it's better than nothing
And in the colour of portrait world
She thinks that she's got it all

And she swears that the moon
Don't hang quiet as high as it used to
And she only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams, and her voice is straining

And she says, "Baby, it's 3 a.m., I must be lonely"
Well, Heaven she says, "Baby, well, I can't help
But be scared of it all sometimes
And the rain's gonna wash away what I believe in"

She believes that life isn't made up
Of all that she used to
And the clock on the wall
Has been stuck at 3 for days and days

She thinks that happiness
Is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it's stopped raining

And she says, "Baby, it's 3 a.m., I must be lonely"
Well, Heaven she says, "Baby, well, I can't help
But be scared of it all sometimes
And the rain's gonna wash away what I believe in"

Well, it's 3 a.m., I must be lonely
And Heaven she says, "Baby, well, I can't help
But be scared of it all sometimes"

As the words died away, Demyx let his guitar ring out before he stopped looking up at his roommate. He wasn’t expecting any kind of comment, but he felt like he needed to explain why he picked that one. “That song really just speaks volumes to my heart, you know? I guess I have been feeling a little lonely lately.” Demyx said with a weak chuckle. “But I think it is time for requests, got any favorites?” Demyx asked with a soft smile. He didn’t like to dwell on sad things, even when that sad thing was his life.




With a deep sigh the dark redheaded girl walked through the front door of her apartment that she lived in with her husband. “Baby, are you around?” She called as she walked towards the kitchen. She set her bag down on the table as she glanced back into the living room to see Axel sitting on his laptop. “More school work? They can’t possibly assign you work enough to keep you busy, you were working on all this morning. I thought you would be done with it by now.” She called out of the kitchen to him as she searched for something to eat.

“Why don’t you give that a break and come eat lunch with me, Ax?” She called again really wanting to get back to the way they use to be. Axel use to be this rebel and bad boy, but lately he just seemed to be a pushover. He wasn’t even a corny, romantic pushover. It was like he was giving up them… They had been together forever now, she almost couldn’t stand the thought of losing him. Everyone they knew treated them both as a pair. It had always been Axel and Kairi, how was that something you could just grow tired of.

 

[InuMaki]

Zexion tensed up as Demyx basically tackled him. He held the tub of hummus and the bag of chips high in the air to protect them from being squished by Demyx. Thank goodness for quick reflexes. When he was released, he let out a sigh of relief and replaced his snack in his lap and turned his attention to Demyx. He couldn't help but smile when he heard Demyx play and sing. He was more talented than he thought. When the song ended, he gave Demyx a small applause. "You're very talented," he gave as a compliment, munching on another chip. He thought for a moment, then said, "Do you know Demons? By Imagine Dragons?" he asked him, wondering how his voice would sound in the more rougher tone that they do.

Axel sighed softly at his wife's chastising about him taking so long on his homework. He ran a hand through his mane of red hair. "I'm not the best writer, Kai. I've never liked writing essays," he grumbled. "I can't seem to focus on it." He contemplated Kairi's offer to eat lunch with her. He honestly couldn't say he wanted to, but it would only be for about half an hour. She had to head back to the salon, which was a ten, fifteen minute drive from the house. "I'll be in there in a minute, alright?" he assured her, turning and giving her a small smile. She really was beautiful. He just...didn't seem to be attracted to her sexually anymore. He couldn't feel the passion between them. Then again, he couldn't even feel any passion in his own life, not to mention having to split the passion between him and his wife. He finished up typing a few cruddy sentences then stood, stretching his arms above his head and feeling as well as hearing his spine pop in several places. He then walked out of the room reluctantly and to the kitchen.

He came up behind Kairi and wrapped his arms around her waist lightly in a hug and reached around, pecking her on the cheek before resting his chin on her shoulder, looking down at what she was preparing. He made a face. "Salads, Babe? Why salads?" he groaned, whining a little. He released her waist and moved to the kitchen table, plopping down in a chair.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Demyx smiled a little at Zexion. “What kind of college kid would I be if I didn’t know Demons by Imagine Dragons?” Demyx asked softly with a small chuckle before he started to hum the song and play the opening with a light rock to his body. His eyes closed slightly before he started to sing the song.

“When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood’s run stale

I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There’s nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

Curtain’s call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you've made

Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide”

When Demyx finished, he took a deep breath before he opened his eyes again. Zexion may or may not have known it, but Demyx in that moment had poured his heart out to him. It wasn’t often that Demyx got to play for people like this, so he wanted to make it perfect. He definitely didn’t want Zexion walking away from this moment thinking that Demyx wasn’t passionate about his music. He really didn’t think he was all that good personally, but he know that he loved doing it and he put his heart into every song he played.


Kairi glanced back at Axel now standing behind her and holding her lightly. “Because, sweetie, salads are good for you. As much as you don’t want to admit it, we aren’t going to be young forever. We need to start taking care of ourselves or we aren’t going to make it far in the “growing old together” department.” She said with a smile despite his bad attitude about. She finished making the salads before walking over to the table with the two bowls and set one in front of Axel. “You should at least try it, you might actually like them, I do.” Kairi said thinking about back when Axel used to try and like things just because Kairi liked them. She missed the way things used to be… “Hey so I was thinking that maybe we could go out on a date tonight if you get finished with your school work.” Kairi said softly really hoping that Axel was still trying for their marriage like she was.

 

[InuMaki]

Axel scowled at the bowl of green in front of him. What even was half of the stuff in there? And where the hell was she hiding it in the fridge? He picked up his fork and poked around at the baby spinach leaves. He sighed softly when a date for tonight was suggested. "I don't know, Kai. I've really gotta get that essay done. And my math work and history... It's due in two days. All of it is," he tried to explain, then he looked up and saw the sad look on her face. He sighed again. "Look, I'll see how much I get done by tonight and we'll go from there, alright?" he suggested hopefully, giving her a small smile. He tentatively shoved a spinach leaf in his mouth and attempted not to breathe as he chewed it and swallowed, feeling very unfulfilled stomach-wise and relationship-wise with his wife. It probably didn't help that he couldn't stop thinking about Demyx.

Zexion gave Demyx another small applause and a smile. He honestly was very impressed with his blond roommate. "Have you thought of asking about getting gigs at local clubs? I'm sure you could earn a few bucks," he inquired politely. "I can feel how much you love playing and singing. I would honestly buy a CD even if it was all covers. Or you could make a YouTube channel if you haven't already. It would give you something to do," he kept suggesting, giving him ideas on how to bring himself further in the music field.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Demyx laughed a little with a bright smile. The fact that Zexion was telling him that he should try and find his own gig was so mind-blowing him, he almost didn't believe it was really happening. "I mean, I have thought about it, but never really done anything with it. I never really thought I was all that good, I mean music artists on youtube are about a dime a dozen. I don't think I would even stand out much." Demyx explained so Zexion didn't assume that he hadn't done anything like that because of lack of effort. Demyx's smile slowly faded as he glanced back down at his guitar before looking up at Zexion again. "Zexion, I'm sorry, I just have to know where is this coming from, I mean normally you don't even look at me let alone care about my playing." The blonde asked softly. He didn't looked unhappy or disgrunted about the situation. He was just confused how Zexion suddenly when from pretty much ignoring Demyx's existence as his roommate to being completely in love with the playing that he heard every single day since the begin.


Kairi frowned a little hearing Axel start to make up an excuse as to why they couldn't go. It really hurt her when he did this kind of thing. He could have just told her no and caused less harm than basically lying to her by saying there was a chance of them actually going somewhere. She knew that their relationship was on a downward spiral, a blind person could see that, but she was trying to make it work. She wasn't going to just throw her eight year relationship and marriage down the drain without a fight like Axel was willing to do. "You know Axel, I know you really want to go back to school, and I understand how great that would be for you to have a college degree, but please don't lie to me and use it as an excuse. You could have just told me you didn't want to go... You never want to do anything with me anymore, and honestly every day it gets harder and harder to believe that you aren't cheating on me while I'm not home." Kairi said with a sharp point before standing up and taking her half-finished salad with her. "...I can't eat anymore...." She said softly before throwing away the rest of the salad away and getting ready to go back to work so she can help her husband pay for the college education he was probably eventually going to use to left her.

 

[InuMaki]

Zexion hummed as he thought before shrugging slightly. "Well, I'm in a pretty good mood today--no homework or anything until next week and nothing bad happened today... I could have just locked myself in my room like usual, but...why waste the rare occassion? Plus, I had always heard you playing through the walls, but I wanted to hear up close to make sure it didn't sound as good as it did far away just because of the muffle. It sounds much better first-hand, I have to say." He smiled slightly at Demyx. "By the way, you won't stand out at all if you don't even try it," he told him, a smug air about him thanks to his advice. He thought it was fairly good.

Axel stared down at his salad, mind and body going numb as Kairi told him off. He had a deep frown set on his face, not even attempting to seem interested in the salad in front of him. His brain just shut down as the words went through his head. He was a terrible person... He had a wonderful wife that just wanted to spend time with him, but he just...couldn't find the love he once had for her. How could he do that to such a wonderful woman? He shoved the salad away and dropped his face into his hands, elbows on the table, and just sat there, not able to think or move or anything. He was just...numb. He didn't even feel like he existed anymore.

 

[UnDeadReaper95]

Demyx laughed a the response. "Well thank you for giving me your free time. I guess since you are locked up in your room a lot that you do a lot of homework. I don't really care for that kind of stuff. Most of my classes are music classes so I just show up and I play just like I do in the dorm! It's the best kind of homework," Demyx cheered happily at the thought of most of his "homework" assignments. "hmm, maybe I should think up a gimmick, it would probably be better than just doing it on a whim anyways." Demyx said looking down at the strings on this guitar as he thought about it. He really didn't see anything special in himself. He just kind of meshed with his environment, like wallpaper... if a wallpaper could constantly being playing music. Maybe he could ask his guitar instructor if he noticed anything particularly special about him. He did spend a lot of time with the man. "Thanks for the advice, Zexion. If I get famous because of it, I'll give you like 40% or something of my money. I never really saw much value in it, anyways." Demyx said with a content smile as he started to strum random chords on the guitar.

 

[InuMaki]

Zexion had to smile a little to himself. Demyx really was an easygoing guy. He even offered money if he got famous from it? It was only Zexion's suggestion that he go to YouTube with it. "You know, Demyx... I think that even if you didn't plan anything out and just played that you'd get quite a few subscribers. Just be yourself and see where it gets you. Your personality kind of has a way of drawing people in. And if anything, your hair'll get you attention," he told him with a small shrug of the shoulders. "Plus a lot of the people on YouTube that are popular just act like themselves, so just try it. At least until you get used to being in front of a camera." He munched on another chip and looked at Demyx for his response. If he was honest with himself, he would say that Demyx would probably get subscribers just from how adorable and happy he always was. Of course, he wouldn't say that aloud, though. Too much of a personal thought to share with others.