color=indigo] ninja i'm scared and alone. no matter what i try to do, i always seem to hurt someone's feelings and it's not as though i do it intentionally. my grandparents died just after i was born. i never got to even see their faces, but at least they got a chance to see mine. At night i sometimes cry because i miss my family. Why did everything have to change? I don't understand. My family likes to keep to ourselves. My life seems to be in ruins. I feel as though i'm all alone in this world and that noone understands me. I don't even got a best friend. I guess i'm just scared of my heart being broken again and I DEFINITELY don't want it to happen again. when in was little, my parents use to take me and my younger siblings out everyday. In those days, we didn't know wat hatred or sadness was. We just did wat we were told and that was it it, but now everything is different. We each live our own separate lives. As the years went by, my sadness slowwly disapppeared. I don't know who can and cannot trust anymore. My life is very confusing. But that's just me. Everyone's life is confusing. In our family, we believe it is proper for the children to act as proper and polite as possible. Well, technically, I'm not a kid anymore. Sometimes, I just wonder why I even bother to make friends. Sigh. O well. Whats happened has happened and i might as well suffer the consequences for something that I didn't even do. I get nervous around people and I try to divert a conversation if my friends ask about me, wich by the way, usually works.
Peace out and goodnight everyone!
ninja
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