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i kno the titles aren't origianal but idc...*clears throat and begins to recite*

Help
im confused,
i need help,
so complicated,
so disturbed,
would anyone care if i was hurt?
cause i AM hurt,
i wish this was over,
but the tears-
so uncontrollable,
just keep falling,
i wish we were real friends,
not the masks which we put on,
real friends,
please,
help me//

Music
walk in my room,
slip the headsets on,
crank em up all the way,
its the only way to escape,
to escape the fighting,
to escape the screaming,
to escape me-
to escape them,
feel reality slip away,
the music is me,
the music is all there is,
its all there ever will be,
better than friends,
pets,
better than anything-
it helps me escape//

A Mask
i wake up from another dream,
it makes me want to scream,
the guilt that chases-
guilt and its many faces,
its driving me off the edge,
i wonder what id be without anger,
where would we be?
it would be nice,
but anger IS there,
its a darkness in waiting,
a time bomb ticking,
its all i knoiw,
its all WE know,
hate,
its fate,
wheres the light?
its just a mask we ripped off years ago//

Someone
lonliness is a very bad thing,
it simply locks you in a dream,
im slowly losing my grip,
my grip on sanity,
im sitting here-
soaking in self pity,
someone help me,
someone free me,
someone just ask me out,
someone tell me im not a lout,
someone...
just help me//

watching your face run through my mind,
am i just wasting my time?
sinking into depression,
will i ever learn my lesson?
never rising,
always falling,
i need to see you,
is anything true?
im surrounded by masks,
surrounded by lies,
deceiving is everywhere,
why cant life just be fair?
why cant we be carefree?
why cant we be together?
why dont you love me?
whywhywhy...
why do people cut?
what really happens when you die?
but most of all,
what happened to us?//

the faces in the mirror,
in me-
they seem to stir a terror,
a terror of you and me,
who could never be,
why?i dont know,
i just feel like im gonna blow,
this confusion has me,
i need to be free,
something is wrong,
iv waited so dang long,
but know its over,
maybe it was time to let you go//

somethings wrong,
light came,
but now its gone,
swimmy head,
unmade bed,
living a slob,
a simple, lifeless blob,
inside of me-
im higher than a tree,
but out there,
nothing is fair,
im lower than dirt,
ashes on your shirt,
lost my pills,
liking that boy simply kills,
mindless bantering,
darkness is luring,
luring the world to its doom,
well all die soon,
its coming to an end-
this lifeless trend,
its done-
its over,
were backed into a corner,
sooner or later,
hell simply hate her,
what am i talkin bout?
its ok, no need to shout,
whats this coming to?
killing?
self mutalation?
backstabbing?
harsh words,
softly spoken,
fragile things,
loudly broken,
gently fall,
watch it spin,
hope for,
whats never been,
or stare to space,
lose it all,
drift away,
goodbye//

learn to fly,
as life zips by,
once you leave,
youll have nothing to acheive,
smiling faces,
and empty spaces,
all that remains of your life,
the life you lived in strife,
the life YOU ended with a knife,
you destroyed your goals,
lived by the die-
bad roll,
nothing to lose,
yet everything to prove,
where are you now?
reaching out,
take a bow,
cause finally youre appreciated,
finally youre missed,
now that youve departed//

stab me through the heart,
cause im ready to fall apart,
endless troubles,
like tiny, soapy bubbles-
carry me up,
drop me down,
but dont take me,
jus to mess around,
if you say i love you,
i expect you to follow through,
dont just drop me,
leave me on the road,
dont hide your feelings,
i cant read your code,
but if you must,
go ahead-
im not your master,
but please,
im begging you,
keep the act of jester,
dont retreat inside yourself//


lost inside,
feelings trapped,
push me down-
deep, far into the ground,
dont set me free,
fear of letting it all out,
fear of letting go,
volunteer at the freak show,
its where i belong,
as i sing my mournful song,
hear my voice crack,
wacth the tears flow,
note my fall,
listen to a lone wolfs call,
your jaw agape,
his blood stained cape,
the stains-
they are fresh,
look down,
a white dress?
a prettied face?
sudden darkness,
gone-
you leave too large a trace,
finally youre gone,
no-
please come back,
i miss you,
i NEED you,
where have you gone?//



for those of u that listened, thank you...*retreats into the shadowy curtains*