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Oh Damn. You dont want to read this 'cause this is just me rambling on and on about nothing...KAY


Oh. Okay. I decided I dont want to finish.. or I guess start this right now. Ima go watch a movie adn then come back and finish writing all this out, kay? Oh well. Not like anyone reads this anyways! So yeah. I shall.. go away now.... mrgreen
Kay well. I BAKED BROWNIES! And now I'm bored out of my mind. Yesterday I realized I honestly DONT have a life. I mean, I had fun making a list of things to re-organize very sad. Though, if you know me well enough, I clean so much that I should already know im abnormal...Have ever noticed that everytime someone calls someone else weird , they dont actually know the definition of weird? And then it brings up the fact that if you call someone weird they might actually be more normal than you are? HA. I do that a lot. But it is true. Even if someone tells you that weird or odd means someone that is abnormal in your eyes, someone that isn't the same as you, it isn't true! Because weird could be normal as normal would be weird because no one even knows who made the word and that person is probably gone so you couldn't really ever figure out if it was supposed to be this way or if it was supposed to be the opposite way.
I write too much. Well, thats what everyone says. I spend day after day writing in a small little torn up notebook which is now filled with two page stories and bunches of pages filled with poetry. And there is more than one of those books. I've even started writing a story and you know what? Im going to fix the plot of it. Im going to change it to what just happpened last week. Not with the actual people's names and all, but with everything they did. The story from the beginning. If anyone wnats to ever read it, let me know and i'll post it on here and show you smile *Sigh* It is very snnoying trying to write out how you feel. It sounds easy, but when you actually start to write it out your saying it in your head to fast and then you forget what you were going to write and in the end it gets so annoying that it frustrates you to no end so you stop. This is not actually a good thing 'cause it means you just gave up for absalutley no reason other than the fact that your driving yourself insane which shouldn't be a bad thing 'cause you drive yourself insane on a daily basis. You'd think you'd have gotten used to it by now, wouldn't you? But, oh well. Its how the human brain functions for some people. It may not be healthy, but no one gives trying to fix it a second thought so bas9ically all humans minds will be screwed up forever more and without anyone wanting to fix it, it'll stay that way.
Did you know that people can smell blood? And no im not making this up. It smells REALLY gross. Like rust and salt and even though just the look of it can make someone queasy, the smell is waaaaay worse. I honestly dont know how someone can get a blood test or even become a surgeon and look at all that blood. *shudders*
Its like needles. Some people are really scared, some people are fine with them and others and deathly scared. I was once forced into the doctors office to get a needle and I was so scared of it that I hid under a chair. My parents had to hold me still because I was shaking so bad. And you know what? The needle wasn't that bad. My sister is used to them though. She had to get them weekly for a few years because she has allergies and because she had cancer. But thats not the point. Well, there really was no point to that, I just felt like pointing out the needles suck. WELL. I'mm all out of things to say so...Yeah!
BYE.