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I really don't know what to do, I guess. I can't believe my big brother died. It's not like he was actually my big brother, but we were so close for such a long time. The past year, not so much, but that's for obvious reasons. *sighs* I don't want to believe it. This world will never be the same without him. Jon was an amazing guy and very funny. Very funny. I know I should be celebrating the life he had, but he's also gone.. and I can't help but to shed tears for him. There are so many people that he made an impact on. Everyone has memories with him -- most of them being really great. Coming back to Wisconsin on this note is not something I'm fond of. The wake is tonight, and I'm going to spend some time with Shu beforehand. I'll prolly go over to Brad and Mandy's, too. We all used to hang out there. I need a Brandon hug now. *sigh* I don't know if I can do this right now.. I'm not ready for the wake today. But I'll have to be, and things will happen regardless of my readiness or lack therof. So, blah.