I feel cold, mother help please mother help me, I’m cold.
Mother? You’re walking away with dad, mother why are you walking away from me I need your help, Mother please help me somebody Help! Huh? There’s a bright light, wait I’m dead No I don’t want to be Dead no help please I don’t want to die someb…
It started when I just turned five, my mother started ignoring me and she and daddy got into more fights about stuff called child support or something like that, and stuff about dad coming home late, him cheating on her about mom should’ve had an abortion.
What’s an abortion? Mommy, what’s an abortion? When I asked her she said that it meant not to have a child. Then I said, oh so you don’t want another child? Then se would just walk away like nothing happened, then one night I saw daddy hit mommy and him telling her to take care of me so they won’t have a problem anymore. Mommy does take care of me, am I not good enough, am I a bad child? Should I be better? What should I do?
Then the next I saw mommy in the hospital, grandparents took me, daddy was at work. And I saw mommy all black, blue, and purple. She looked sad and depressed and when I said mommy I love you she just stared at me scarily. Then grandparents glared at her weirdly. And then I asked, mommy don’t you love me, and then she yelled “Get out, no I don’t love you, get out tit’s all your fault I should’ve had an abortion! He loved me up until you came along then he hated me, it’s all your fault you worthless piece of trash!”
I stood there silently trying not to make mommy mad and we all left after grandparents talked to her. Mommy came up to me and said I love you dear and I’m very sorry then she whispered I hate you with a passion and if say a word of this to anybody you’re dead.
I nodded my head.
Next week a police officer came to my kindergarten and he talked to us about the law and child abuse and I raised my hand and asked, “Can we trust you to keep a secret?” Depends what kind of secret. Hey why don’t you talk to me after school?” No I’m sorry,
My mommy wouldn’t approve and she is coming to pick me up, and she says if I’m late I’ll get into trouble and make daddy mad again.” He gestures for me to come talk to him in the hallway and so I don’t make mommy mad I obey and he asked me what my secret is and I say, “Since I’m a bad girl my mommy said she hates me with a passion and said that if I tell anyone that she’ll kill me. And I have a question, what’s an abortion?” He stood there and said don’t worry about he’ll take care of it then later I saw more police men at my house and they were pulled in our driveway and we were on our way home when we saw them then we turned the car around and I asked, “mommy aren’t we going home?” She didn’t answer so I kept quiet.
Her cell phone rang, it was daddy, she said something about what do you want me to do with her? As that “her” me? After an hour we pulled into and abandoned house and we went inside, “mommy it’s scary in here”, she didn’t say anything instead she picked up a bat and started hitting me and I was bleeding then everything went dark.
Later I woke up barely breathing and trying to stay awake but I couldn’t soon everything went dark scary I hate the dark there’s no light…wait I see a really pretty light, no that’s just daddy. Daddy loves me a lot, he’s tells me everyday I think he’s going to again. Yeah! I can’t say I love you or anything, my throats and stomach hurt really bad, somebody help me please.
Have I been a bad girl, should I have not told that man what happened at the hospital that day? Wait daddy’s leaving, no please help! Please help daddy I can’t breathe, I’m, seeing another light is it dad? But dad walked away for some reason with a smile on his face same with mommy. Should I go to the bright light, should I, well I do hate the dark. I’m walking and I see my great grandparents. Are they here to take care of me?
I keep walking down a path with great- grandparents into the light with a smile, but I’m sad. Isn’t mommy sad too, no mommy’s happy; I guess I have been a good girl as long as mommy and daddy are happy I am too. Don’t worry mother I shall continue to be a good girl, I love you mommy and daddy.
Mother? You’re walking away with dad, mother why are you walking away from me I need your help, Mother please help me somebody Help! Huh? There’s a bright light, wait I’m dead No I don’t want to be Dead no help please I don’t want to die someb…
It started when I just turned five, my mother started ignoring me and she and daddy got into more fights about stuff called child support or something like that, and stuff about dad coming home late, him cheating on her about mom should’ve had an abortion.
What’s an abortion? Mommy, what’s an abortion? When I asked her she said that it meant not to have a child. Then I said, oh so you don’t want another child? Then se would just walk away like nothing happened, then one night I saw daddy hit mommy and him telling her to take care of me so they won’t have a problem anymore. Mommy does take care of me, am I not good enough, am I a bad child? Should I be better? What should I do?
Then the next I saw mommy in the hospital, grandparents took me, daddy was at work. And I saw mommy all black, blue, and purple. She looked sad and depressed and when I said mommy I love you she just stared at me scarily. Then grandparents glared at her weirdly. And then I asked, mommy don’t you love me, and then she yelled “Get out, no I don’t love you, get out tit’s all your fault I should’ve had an abortion! He loved me up until you came along then he hated me, it’s all your fault you worthless piece of trash!”
I stood there silently trying not to make mommy mad and we all left after grandparents talked to her. Mommy came up to me and said I love you dear and I’m very sorry then she whispered I hate you with a passion and if say a word of this to anybody you’re dead.
I nodded my head.
Next week a police officer came to my kindergarten and he talked to us about the law and child abuse and I raised my hand and asked, “Can we trust you to keep a secret?” Depends what kind of secret. Hey why don’t you talk to me after school?” No I’m sorry,
My mommy wouldn’t approve and she is coming to pick me up, and she says if I’m late I’ll get into trouble and make daddy mad again.” He gestures for me to come talk to him in the hallway and so I don’t make mommy mad I obey and he asked me what my secret is and I say, “Since I’m a bad girl my mommy said she hates me with a passion and said that if I tell anyone that she’ll kill me. And I have a question, what’s an abortion?” He stood there and said don’t worry about he’ll take care of it then later I saw more police men at my house and they were pulled in our driveway and we were on our way home when we saw them then we turned the car around and I asked, “mommy aren’t we going home?” She didn’t answer so I kept quiet.
Her cell phone rang, it was daddy, she said something about what do you want me to do with her? As that “her” me? After an hour we pulled into and abandoned house and we went inside, “mommy it’s scary in here”, she didn’t say anything instead she picked up a bat and started hitting me and I was bleeding then everything went dark.
Later I woke up barely breathing and trying to stay awake but I couldn’t soon everything went dark scary I hate the dark there’s no light…wait I see a really pretty light, no that’s just daddy. Daddy loves me a lot, he’s tells me everyday I think he’s going to again. Yeah! I can’t say I love you or anything, my throats and stomach hurt really bad, somebody help me please.
Have I been a bad girl, should I have not told that man what happened at the hospital that day? Wait daddy’s leaving, no please help! Please help daddy I can’t breathe, I’m, seeing another light is it dad? But dad walked away for some reason with a smile on his face same with mommy. Should I go to the bright light, should I, well I do hate the dark. I’m walking and I see my great grandparents. Are they here to take care of me?
I keep walking down a path with great- grandparents into the light with a smile, but I’m sad. Isn’t mommy sad too, no mommy’s happy; I guess I have been a good girl as long as mommy and daddy are happy I am too. Don’t worry mother I shall continue to be a good girl, I love you mommy and daddy.
~date: 9/17/07
~time: 6:30pm
~by::: Arianna & Crystal
~time: 6:30pm
~by::: Arianna & Crystal
