hello everyone. hope everybody is doing alright. i know i am. this blog is not a suicidal blog or anything close to that. this blog will be my last blog for a long, long time. continue reading and you will find out what i am talking about.
on thursday, november 8th, 2007, around 1:00am, i was having a really bad time with my depression and with all the stressors in my life, it really got overwhelming for me. so much, i did not want to deal with it anymore. i was just about to end it all with one slash of the blade, but my hands were shaking so badly and my friend called me. it stopped me from continuing from harming myself. i talked to it for a while, making me think more clearly. i had to do something about it, because it has gone on long enough. i needed help and i needed it bad. after getting off the phone with my friend, i called the pine rest hot line and i was able to talk to a social worker for a while. after that, the social worker said that i should come in and admit myself to the hospital. i was scarred about the fact if going into a psych ward, but i had to go. i needed help, so i took a hard swallow and agreed to admit myself. As soon as i walked through those double-doors, i knew it was a great decision. after my intake of the counselors, i was officially a patient of Pine Rest Christian Mental Hospital.
i stayed for five days. i went to classes that i have found very beneficial. i was able to get started on my medication. when i was there, i made friendships with most of the patients there. I left before they have and i felt bad walking through those doors on my out. i was thinking of those that were there longer than me. i wanted to stay with them, but i was healthy enough to leave. i wish them all the best and i hope they get out real soon. during my time at the hospital, i had made a third family. i was surrounded by people with similar problems to mine. we all were having classes together, helping one another to get through the process. i really hope the best for them all.
after being discharged from the hospital, Davenport University is going to medically discharge me from college. student affair think it is best that i just go home and take a break from college and focus on getting better. with that in mind, I am moving back with my mom in Caro. i am going to let everyone know that home does NOT have internet services. therefore will not be able to stay connect with all my friends and family, and i sincerely apologize if this brings any kind of inconvenience to anyone. my goal as of today is to get well, both mentally and physically. i do plan on continuing therapy to still get refills to my medication and to avoid relapsing. so, again, i will not have access to the internet anymore. if you wish to keep in contact with me, i should have my mobile telephone up and working again. you can call me at any time at: 1.989.553.9580. If you can't get a hold of me by telephone, then i suggest writing to me or visiting me at: 206 Gilford Rd., Caro, MI 48723. i really hope you all make an effort to keep in touch with me. without internet, i won't be able to know how everyone is doing, what is everyone is up to, and to see what is going on.
i will miss you all. i will make an valiant effort to get a job, so i can afford internet. until then, i wish you all the very best and i love you all. take care and much love <3
on thursday, november 8th, 2007, around 1:00am, i was having a really bad time with my depression and with all the stressors in my life, it really got overwhelming for me. so much, i did not want to deal with it anymore. i was just about to end it all with one slash of the blade, but my hands were shaking so badly and my friend called me. it stopped me from continuing from harming myself. i talked to it for a while, making me think more clearly. i had to do something about it, because it has gone on long enough. i needed help and i needed it bad. after getting off the phone with my friend, i called the pine rest hot line and i was able to talk to a social worker for a while. after that, the social worker said that i should come in and admit myself to the hospital. i was scarred about the fact if going into a psych ward, but i had to go. i needed help, so i took a hard swallow and agreed to admit myself. As soon as i walked through those double-doors, i knew it was a great decision. after my intake of the counselors, i was officially a patient of Pine Rest Christian Mental Hospital.
i stayed for five days. i went to classes that i have found very beneficial. i was able to get started on my medication. when i was there, i made friendships with most of the patients there. I left before they have and i felt bad walking through those doors on my out. i was thinking of those that were there longer than me. i wanted to stay with them, but i was healthy enough to leave. i wish them all the best and i hope they get out real soon. during my time at the hospital, i had made a third family. i was surrounded by people with similar problems to mine. we all were having classes together, helping one another to get through the process. i really hope the best for them all.
after being discharged from the hospital, Davenport University is going to medically discharge me from college. student affair think it is best that i just go home and take a break from college and focus on getting better. with that in mind, I am moving back with my mom in Caro. i am going to let everyone know that home does NOT have internet services. therefore will not be able to stay connect with all my friends and family, and i sincerely apologize if this brings any kind of inconvenience to anyone. my goal as of today is to get well, both mentally and physically. i do plan on continuing therapy to still get refills to my medication and to avoid relapsing. so, again, i will not have access to the internet anymore. if you wish to keep in contact with me, i should have my mobile telephone up and working again. you can call me at any time at: 1.989.553.9580. If you can't get a hold of me by telephone, then i suggest writing to me or visiting me at: 206 Gilford Rd., Caro, MI 48723. i really hope you all make an effort to keep in touch with me. without internet, i won't be able to know how everyone is doing, what is everyone is up to, and to see what is going on.
i will miss you all. i will make an valiant effort to get a job, so i can afford internet. until then, i wish you all the very best and i love you all. take care and much love <3
