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please tell me what i feel inside
inside my heart, the part that nobody sees
sure there is love, love for him and few other things
but there is something else, something dark and lonely
something i can only supress for so long
the harder i try, the harder i try, the harder i try,
when he is gone, i feel i have nothing left..
my light goes out.. and im stuck in the dark
if only for a moment, it feels like a lifetime
i can be happy most times i am
but when he is away it gets dark and lonely
maybe thats all life ever was for me
before he found me in the midst of the nightmare
i cant go to long with out him you know?
a day maybe, hardly more than that
and without being able to here his voice its hard
it makes it so much harder..
sometimes i wonder if it was easier to be numb to the world
and since he awoke the feeling in my heart, i know i cant go back
its only when he is around that i feel peace
its hard not to feel alone, even amidst the crowd.
some may think im overly obsessed, maybe i am
my whole world should not revolve this much around one person
but i cant.. i cant imagine a world without him
one whole day, without him, without his voice,
i feel as if i have been returned to the void of eternity
dark and lonely
please come back and lift me off the bottom again love
i didnt realize how far i fell, i didnt realize how far i fell.