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You are Kelly, that's obviouse enough to answer.
Kelly is sweet, and kind, and, though oblivious, always tries to make people feel better.

And yes I have, you know that. It feels good at first, but after a while, it starts to make you sick, and you're always worried about that other person, wondering if they're all right, if they are having fun, if they are thinking about you too.
Love is a wonderful feeling, but it's horrible too. It makes your heart leap when ever your with that other person, when ever you think about them, but it makes you want to cry when you realize you've upset them, when you realize you may not be the person they want to be with.
A lot of people say they want it, because they haven't gone through it and they don't know how much it hurts. But even then, after going through it, I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Now here is where you start to annoy me dear.
Because you know it's not true. There is no way I'm going to believe YOU of ALL PEOPLE see life as dark. Even I don't see life as dark. And you KNOW ME.
Life is beautiful no matter what's happened to you or wether you see the glass as half empty or half full. It's beautiful even if you don't want it to be.
I know this because even after all the crap I've been through, I'm still alive. If I chose to see the world as everyone thinks I do I probably would have ended it all a long time ago.
'God' as you call it, because you know I don't believe in any specific religion, made you for the same reason he made everyone else. Because everyone in their own right ammounts to something and everyone has their own purpose.

Kelly, you're beautiful, and you may be a little childish- but that's what makes you unique. That's what makes you different and a person to be noted.
You're also very bright in your own way. Just because you aren't a creepy human dictionary like some people- well, you know- doesn't mean your not.
You do a lot of good things, and if that in some way isn't 'right' then I don't care aobut what 'right' is.
Sometimes you aren't supposed to know what to say. People need to work through their problems on their own. They can't just cry and expect the first person who they see can solve all of their problems.

I'll never forget the day I came to school bawling my eyes out because of some fight I had had with my mother and you were the one that held me. You said it would be okay and that everything was fine. Over and Over and Over again!
To be honest, I hated you for a while after that.
I hated you because I couldn't imagine how anyone could say that to me. How ANYONE could say it was going to be alright for me.
But I got to thinking, You didn't know. You were just trying to help, and that thought alone, the thought that you cared, made me feel better.

I was impossible to be around for weeks, remember? But you were the ONLY one that kept coming back.
And that's simply because you're you.
So knowing what to say means nothing, just being there is fine. It's when you try to solve other's problems that you upset those other naive people.

You're not hopeless, and you don't need to be sorry.

As for your text earlier, I turned off my phone. I really just didn't want to talk to anyone for fear of spouting off on nice long rants like this. But I guess it's impossible when I have a friend like you, who wont drop discussions with a simple 'leave me alone'.
Thanks for the opportunity to vent even if it's not what I really needed to talk about but it some how to a weight off of my shoulders...
Thank you.