hi am so sad right now and idk y.. i just feel alone and like no one is here for me and i know they r but i know i can't tell people things about me and i know no one understands how i feel and i feel like i want to cry so much and idk what to do about it because i can't cry because thenm i look like i am weak and i am not weak so i guess i will stay here alone wishing someone knew how i felt... i just feel like i am dead all ready sometimes i wish i was but i know i am alive and that is how should stay for now because i am in love and that but they don't even know how i feel and i guess that is a good thing idk... i just i had someone to talk to about everything and they wouldn't be scared of what is happing with me and i know if i tell anyone they will be scared because they wouldn't not know how to help me or what to say to me.. i might look so strong on the out sound but i am slowly dieing on the inside and idk how long i can take it.. i hate being alone but i know i allways will be.. even though people might be around me and they say they know how i feel but i still feel alone because i know they don't know how i feel and like 100 people could still be around me and i would still be alone no matter what i am always alone... i wish for once in my life that i wasn't alone