Yes. Ok. I am rebuilding my life. Sorta. Well, I still have all the basic functions to get by in life as a teenager. But not really.
For one, my family is completely dysfunctional. My mom is super...hardcore mad everyday. My four sisters screaming and yelling and gah. The noise.
A single parent supporting five children?? That is so not good. Even right now, a fight is breaking out. Dont worry, not a physical one. JUst yelling, swearing. Hardcore stuff.
I could get into more detail but for now, id like you to see the top layer of my stressful life.
Everyday, I have headaches. And i dont talk much. I do what I do to not get yelled at and try not to upset her. Its so frikken difficult. My sisters make it difficult, and therefore, IM the one that gets yelled at. And im forced to defend myself. Alone. Not very fun. And it happens over and over. God. Its just so...painful.
Now Im just venting here....I feel ive kept it inside for too long. And to be brutally honest it feels good. In a way. Eh. I wish i had some advil or something... My head is killing me.
Alright, now your probably wondering where my dad is. He is far away. In another town. Marryied to this one woman. Who I swear is trying make my life harder. I think. Not too sure. But I do have a dislike for her. It could just be me, making the same mistakes. But ive fixed them. And theres one that they will NEVER EVER let me forget...
I dont know if this may shock some of you but, I cut myself in the past. Why? Because I didnt know how to handle my feelings. How to handle the hate, the pain. Everything I ever seen, burrowed under my skin and I was just trying to let it go. Make it go away. Scratch it from my memory forever. But sadly, my efforts were vain. And now Im left with ugly scars of my mistake.
Ok this is getting real emo so im gonna cheer this up abit.
By saying three words that every teenager loves to say:
Im passing school.
Oh yes. Bask in the glory of this nerd! >=D
Buahaha.
Anyways, I cant wait to move back to smith.
I am going to try so hard to get along with my dads wife.
I am going to pass school
I am going to be with Brittany at long last and we can ninja in the night
I am going to be with Ryley. The absolute love of my life.
Well, Maybe as much as Tyson Ritter. But you know? Oh well x]
Tyson belongs to Brittany and Me.
None other!! He shall rule with us in our Box Fort.
As soon as we win alot of money somehow.
And buy an island. And call it Doon.
Buahahahahahahaaaa
-Starr
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The last part is really fricken awesome, and true.
But you know, i don't think Cindy doesn't like you are anything, she talks to me about you at school, she'll be all,
Her-"Hey, so i heard your on your 22 chapter already".
Me- "Yup"
Her- "Star said you guys are starting a new book".
Me- "Yeah, but Jessica's really slow, ah ha, like i was..."
Her- "I bet Star was sitting there with you, and saying "No Conker till your finished!", haha". Then she gave a big smile.
Me- "ahahahahahhahahahah,yes".
Well, its not those EXACT words, but yeah, probably its different when she's not at school or anything....
but anywho... -huggle-
YOU SHALL BE BACK SOON, AND I SHALL MAKE YOU MOVE IN WITH ME AND MY STARLA-OBSESSED FAMILY xDD.