Well, its been a while since my last journal entry. If you can recall from my last entry I had kissed Aaron and we were getting a little bit too hot and heavy. And I eventually had my older brother Brian say something to Aaron...that I just wanted to be friends. Well after that I kinda didn't talk to Aaron...at all. I ignored him but I was nice to him and when he talked to me I talked to him back. I stopped flirting with him and everything. He ended up going with this Amanda chick. She had a three year old child and a BOYFRIEND as well. Aaron just wanted to ******** her, that was all. I was doing good at supporting him and hiding how I truly felt for him. I saw him hang out with Amanda, hold her and flirt with her...oh I can not tell you how that hurt. Eventually I called him up and flat out asked him how he felt and if sex was the only thing he wanted out of me. I told him I still liked him and I didn't know what to do about that. So we started to text a little more and talk a little more. Well we started flirting again like we used to and Amanda slowly but surely was out of the picture again because I came back into view. Or at least to an extent...Amanda is not allowed to have Aaron up in her house(its her boyfriends house) or talk to Aaron anymore...too much drama.
Well Aaron and I eventually became just like we were before our first kiss together. It was great to have him again in my life like that. Well the past couple of weeks Aaron and I have been hanging out a lot together...alone together. It was all going good. Well I hung out with him last Saturday(not the one that just past, the one before it) at his house...his parents were gone and his sister shut herself in the computer room. So Aaron and I had the living room together...alone. Well we flirted together like crazy. He has this thing where he doesn't like to kiss me first...and I really wanted him to kiss me first. But we just ended up wrestling...he licked my cheek and I licked his arm. He got all close to my face and I just stared up at him. We would do this every now and again, no one would make the moves. Eventually I cuddled up with on his couch and it felt soo good to just cuddle with him and be with him like that. It made my heart melt. Well that day we parted ways....and I went to get my lip pierced with my two co-workers...and had a great day!
On Sunday, the next day, I went up to Vineland to take Ciara back home because she needed a ride. Well that was a long a** ride but I made up there and back safely! It was around 8:30pm and I was at home doing nothing but sitting on the computer. Well Aaron texted me and asked, no, he told me to come down to Gary's house(he lives out in the middle of no where with a nice side yard where we have all the bonfires!) and I hopped into my car and went to Gary's house. The people there was Gary, of course, Jerry, Aaron and these two dudes that I didn't know about...didn't even get introduced with, but I didn't care. The boys were all going to burn this chair that they found on the side of road. And I watched them dump it unto the bonfire pit and fuel it with gasoline. It was pretty amazing. Well at the bonfire they had one long couch, a love seat and another cushy chair. Well I had been sitting on the love seat with Jerry just talking with him. There was some drama going on with this stupid head boy there...he was dating this chick and the brother of the chick didn't approve...and they were fighting. Immature s**t. But I ignored it and talked with Jerry. Well Aaron had pulled his chair closer to the loveseat and everytime he walked past me he would touch me(poke me, push me...etc). Eventually Jerry stood up and walked away for a moment. Aaron told me to come and sit with him on the cushy chair. It was a small chair so I was basicallly sitting on Aaron but it was comfortable like. We were cuddled up with each other and everything was grand. Jerry eventually left to go home and I hugged him goodbye and the fire was wanning down...Gary was getting ready to go to sleep and the two boys(they were over the age of 18 but they acted like boys!) were getting ready to leave but didn't yet. Aaron said something to me..he was teasing me. And I looked at him fully and I leaned in closer and I kissed him. He smiled and kissed me back. Well thats when we started a little make out session, like serious. It wasn't long before the two boys left and Gary went inside to go to sleep. Soo it was just Aaron and I in the middle of no where under the stars...together.
Let's just say that things began to get a little bit hot and heavy...but they were way more involved then it was on Christmas...but this time I didn't quite stop him. That was the night I got fingered...for the first time ever. Yeah, it felt good but it also hurt...just a little bit. It was all good. He wanted me to...well...jerk him off...haha. :/ I tried but I didn't do it quite right...so he ended it up doing it himself...not on me of course! WE DID THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE! Things were good. I gave him a kiss goodnight and I left for home. I told Christine...but two days laters I told her. Aaron and I still flirted and talked like normal...things were great and normal. I liked being able to do this with him and still having him talk to me. Well, that Friday night I was over Brian and Christine's apartment with Aaron and Jerry. But everyone was in the backroom while Aaron and I were together(wrestling) on the living room couch. He had me pinned down on the couch as I struggled to get a free hand. He got all close to my face but I didn't kiss him...I just looked at him and smiled. Eventually he kissed my forehead...he was sooo cutee when he did. AWWWWW! I loved that...it made my heart jump!!
Well the night day Aaron, Gary and Jerry were all going to get a hotel room to "party" in. And Brian and Christine were going to go but ended up not going....Aaron texted me and asked me to come to the hotel. I went and I met up with him and everything. Well the hotel room had a pull out couch....and two beds. I laid on the bed with Aaron. We were all cuddled up next to each other....eventually Aaron asked me if I wanted to spend the night at the hotel. I told him yes...and I texted Christine and asked her to cover for me if my mom called. Well I was laying next to him under the covers and he placed a pillow over our heads and he looked at me and I looked at him. He kissed my nose and then he brought his hand under my chin and kissed me. I almost totally and completely melted. That made my heart bounce and shutter...it was soo adorable. That was around 8:00pm....thats when we started to cuddle and make out. It was great. To make a long story short....I ended up....well...I'm not a virgin anymore. This happened the Saturday that JUST past. It hurt like hell but he was gentle with me.....it just hurt to the point I almost cried....he cooed me into it. Well, you know since I'm a virgin and nothings been up there of course there is gonna be a little bit of blood involved....well I did bleed on the covers a little...it stained them through! Aaron and I had sex twice that night...the first time sucked...the second time wasn't too bad but it still hurt bad enough for me. The second time after it was all done and over with...he just laid on top of me....with everything...umm...still in place..if you know what I mean...I eventually had to push him...he was falling asleep on me! He then gave me my clothes and we curled up next to each other and fell asleep!
The next morning, Sunday, I had set my alarm and Aaron's alarm(cellphones, I mean) to 7:45am so I could go home. I was going to Vineland that day with Ciara but this time not just dropping Ciara off but going to church with her. I had a good time at church. I bawled my eyes out as I got prayed for....I felt like my sins for the pervious night were washed away. Well after church I went back home...as I was driving Jerry texted me and asked if I had fun last night...I asked him if he did...and he said sure. I asked what he meant by that and he said IDK. Well I asked him how he slept and he said "This aint Aaron" and I was like I know that...and I asked what was wrong...he seemed pissed...but he said he was just tired. You must remember that in the hotel room....Aaron and I weren't alone. Jerry and Gary spent the night in that hotel room as well....they all passed out to the point of no awakening when Aaron and I really started to fool around with each other. But then Aaron texted me and asked me to call him. I called him and asked him what he wanted. He said he had found my belt and my money(it was just a dollar). And was going to hand it over to me when he saw me. He asked me if last night was worth it and I told him I didn't know. The whole night Satuday he kept telling me not to tell Brian and Christine. He is a) afraid of Brian and b) values Brian's friendship....as Brian is my BROTHER! I told him I didn't tell them yet and he said please dont. He asked me how I felt and was real nice. Welll I hung up with him and went on my way home.
I came home and took a little hour nap and went over to Brian and Christine's....and told them. They were happy and supportive...they weren't angry and just asked me what happened(well Christine did). I told her how it happened but not in full detail just enough to give her a small picture. Well Aaron and Jerry came over that night. And Jerry didn't really talk to me and avoided me. Eventually Jerry left and I gave him a hug...he didn't hug me like he used to...I knew something was up with him. He left and I was sititng with Aaron. Christine gave him a buzz cut and then it was Brian's turn. Well Brian and Christine shut the bathroom door...and I was sitting with Aaron on the love seat. He asked me if I told them and I lied and said no. He seemed relieved. We talked about that night and we smiled about it...it was like our little thing. I liked that. Then Brian and Christine came out of the bathroom and Aaron and Brian were talking and I was messing with Aaron and he said I am going to get you...and I was like how. He just turned and looked at me...he then mouthed LAST NIGHT to me...and Christine acted like she didn't know what he meant. He said it was nothing it was just an inside thing between me and him. I was laughing when he turned his back again...Brian and Christine knew what happened. Aaron shouted over to me black mail! HAHA! HE DON'T HAVE NO BLACK MAIL ON ME! Stupid head. He doesn't know me well enough if he thinks I didn't tell Christine or Brian....or both! Which I did!
Well I took Aaron home that night and I talked with him some more about what happened and he said hes more than willing to teach me some if I wanted. I smiled at him and said I don't think I'd want to have sex with anyone else....he went silent and so did I. Then he started talking again. I dropped him off and I hugged him. I was gonna kiss him but I didn't. Oh well.
That has been my exciting life so farr.....besides my brother Derek's dilemas...hes doing great by the way...in a great rehab and doing well I do believe!
Well, thanks for reading this.
<333
Sarah
Well Aaron and I eventually became just like we were before our first kiss together. It was great to have him again in my life like that. Well the past couple of weeks Aaron and I have been hanging out a lot together...alone together. It was all going good. Well I hung out with him last Saturday(not the one that just past, the one before it) at his house...his parents were gone and his sister shut herself in the computer room. So Aaron and I had the living room together...alone. Well we flirted together like crazy. He has this thing where he doesn't like to kiss me first...and I really wanted him to kiss me first. But we just ended up wrestling...he licked my cheek and I licked his arm. He got all close to my face and I just stared up at him. We would do this every now and again, no one would make the moves. Eventually I cuddled up with on his couch and it felt soo good to just cuddle with him and be with him like that. It made my heart melt. Well that day we parted ways....and I went to get my lip pierced with my two co-workers...and had a great day!
On Sunday, the next day, I went up to Vineland to take Ciara back home because she needed a ride. Well that was a long a** ride but I made up there and back safely! It was around 8:30pm and I was at home doing nothing but sitting on the computer. Well Aaron texted me and asked, no, he told me to come down to Gary's house(he lives out in the middle of no where with a nice side yard where we have all the bonfires!) and I hopped into my car and went to Gary's house. The people there was Gary, of course, Jerry, Aaron and these two dudes that I didn't know about...didn't even get introduced with, but I didn't care. The boys were all going to burn this chair that they found on the side of road. And I watched them dump it unto the bonfire pit and fuel it with gasoline. It was pretty amazing. Well at the bonfire they had one long couch, a love seat and another cushy chair. Well I had been sitting on the love seat with Jerry just talking with him. There was some drama going on with this stupid head boy there...he was dating this chick and the brother of the chick didn't approve...and they were fighting. Immature s**t. But I ignored it and talked with Jerry. Well Aaron had pulled his chair closer to the loveseat and everytime he walked past me he would touch me(poke me, push me...etc). Eventually Jerry stood up and walked away for a moment. Aaron told me to come and sit with him on the cushy chair. It was a small chair so I was basicallly sitting on Aaron but it was comfortable like. We were cuddled up with each other and everything was grand. Jerry eventually left to go home and I hugged him goodbye and the fire was wanning down...Gary was getting ready to go to sleep and the two boys(they were over the age of 18 but they acted like boys!) were getting ready to leave but didn't yet. Aaron said something to me..he was teasing me. And I looked at him fully and I leaned in closer and I kissed him. He smiled and kissed me back. Well thats when we started a little make out session, like serious. It wasn't long before the two boys left and Gary went inside to go to sleep. Soo it was just Aaron and I in the middle of no where under the stars...together.
Let's just say that things began to get a little bit hot and heavy...but they were way more involved then it was on Christmas...but this time I didn't quite stop him. That was the night I got fingered...for the first time ever. Yeah, it felt good but it also hurt...just a little bit. It was all good. He wanted me to...well...jerk him off...haha. :/ I tried but I didn't do it quite right...so he ended it up doing it himself...not on me of course! WE DID THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE! Things were good. I gave him a kiss goodnight and I left for home. I told Christine...but two days laters I told her. Aaron and I still flirted and talked like normal...things were great and normal. I liked being able to do this with him and still having him talk to me. Well, that Friday night I was over Brian and Christine's apartment with Aaron and Jerry. But everyone was in the backroom while Aaron and I were together(wrestling) on the living room couch. He had me pinned down on the couch as I struggled to get a free hand. He got all close to my face but I didn't kiss him...I just looked at him and smiled. Eventually he kissed my forehead...he was sooo cutee when he did. AWWWWW! I loved that...it made my heart jump!!
Well the night day Aaron, Gary and Jerry were all going to get a hotel room to "party" in. And Brian and Christine were going to go but ended up not going....Aaron texted me and asked me to come to the hotel. I went and I met up with him and everything. Well the hotel room had a pull out couch....and two beds. I laid on the bed with Aaron. We were all cuddled up next to each other....eventually Aaron asked me if I wanted to spend the night at the hotel. I told him yes...and I texted Christine and asked her to cover for me if my mom called. Well I was laying next to him under the covers and he placed a pillow over our heads and he looked at me and I looked at him. He kissed my nose and then he brought his hand under my chin and kissed me. I almost totally and completely melted. That made my heart bounce and shutter...it was soo adorable. That was around 8:00pm....thats when we started to cuddle and make out. It was great. To make a long story short....I ended up....well...I'm not a virgin anymore. This happened the Saturday that JUST past. It hurt like hell but he was gentle with me.....it just hurt to the point I almost cried....he cooed me into it. Well, you know since I'm a virgin and nothings been up there of course there is gonna be a little bit of blood involved....well I did bleed on the covers a little...it stained them through! Aaron and I had sex twice that night...the first time sucked...the second time wasn't too bad but it still hurt bad enough for me. The second time after it was all done and over with...he just laid on top of me....with everything...umm...still in place..if you know what I mean...I eventually had to push him...he was falling asleep on me! He then gave me my clothes and we curled up next to each other and fell asleep!
The next morning, Sunday, I had set my alarm and Aaron's alarm(cellphones, I mean) to 7:45am so I could go home. I was going to Vineland that day with Ciara but this time not just dropping Ciara off but going to church with her. I had a good time at church. I bawled my eyes out as I got prayed for....I felt like my sins for the pervious night were washed away. Well after church I went back home...as I was driving Jerry texted me and asked if I had fun last night...I asked him if he did...and he said sure. I asked what he meant by that and he said IDK. Well I asked him how he slept and he said "This aint Aaron" and I was like I know that...and I asked what was wrong...he seemed pissed...but he said he was just tired. You must remember that in the hotel room....Aaron and I weren't alone. Jerry and Gary spent the night in that hotel room as well....they all passed out to the point of no awakening when Aaron and I really started to fool around with each other. But then Aaron texted me and asked me to call him. I called him and asked him what he wanted. He said he had found my belt and my money(it was just a dollar). And was going to hand it over to me when he saw me. He asked me if last night was worth it and I told him I didn't know. The whole night Satuday he kept telling me not to tell Brian and Christine. He is a) afraid of Brian and b) values Brian's friendship....as Brian is my BROTHER! I told him I didn't tell them yet and he said please dont. He asked me how I felt and was real nice. Welll I hung up with him and went on my way home.
I came home and took a little hour nap and went over to Brian and Christine's....and told them. They were happy and supportive...they weren't angry and just asked me what happened(well Christine did). I told her how it happened but not in full detail just enough to give her a small picture. Well Aaron and Jerry came over that night. And Jerry didn't really talk to me and avoided me. Eventually Jerry left and I gave him a hug...he didn't hug me like he used to...I knew something was up with him. He left and I was sititng with Aaron. Christine gave him a buzz cut and then it was Brian's turn. Well Brian and Christine shut the bathroom door...and I was sitting with Aaron on the love seat. He asked me if I told them and I lied and said no. He seemed relieved. We talked about that night and we smiled about it...it was like our little thing. I liked that. Then Brian and Christine came out of the bathroom and Aaron and Brian were talking and I was messing with Aaron and he said I am going to get you...and I was like how. He just turned and looked at me...he then mouthed LAST NIGHT to me...and Christine acted like she didn't know what he meant. He said it was nothing it was just an inside thing between me and him. I was laughing when he turned his back again...Brian and Christine knew what happened. Aaron shouted over to me black mail! HAHA! HE DON'T HAVE NO BLACK MAIL ON ME! Stupid head. He doesn't know me well enough if he thinks I didn't tell Christine or Brian....or both! Which I did!
Well I took Aaron home that night and I talked with him some more about what happened and he said hes more than willing to teach me some if I wanted. I smiled at him and said I don't think I'd want to have sex with anyone else....he went silent and so did I. Then he started talking again. I dropped him off and I hugged him. I was gonna kiss him but I didn't. Oh well.
That has been my exciting life so farr.....besides my brother Derek's dilemas...hes doing great by the way...in a great rehab and doing well I do believe!
Well, thanks for reading this.
<333
Sarah
