View User's Journal

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Mar 12, 2008 @ 08:59pm


	ahh.. all alone, finally i almost forgot what that was like xd

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 12:58am


	gonk s**t shecaught me... now whats dgoin gto happen?

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 01:10am


	"You havve two hours to pullyourself together." slam noooo what did i do?

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 02:39am


	haha.. yeah.. bottle fo f wine from room sevrcie see, its fine i got this

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 02:43am


	s**t! i only have 15 more min i ghtink maybe a shoewr.

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 05:44pm


	not in trouble anymore sweatdrop

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 07:19pm


	yeah.. not exactly sure how you cutting up your arm is going to stop me from doing drugs... besides its nice outside, there's an ocean, and matt is having fun

Commented on: Thu Mar 13, 2008 @ 09:04pm


	wow.. he actually did record it, and it sounds awesome

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 04:28am


	i dont want to drive back home.. can't i just stay here?

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 06:08am


	Oh.. so that's what she was talking about..

Nefer-Shai
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 05:39pm


	eek what? did I miss something? i've been driving too long today maybe... --food will help, yeah..

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 07:08pm


	you haven't kissed me or let me kiss you...what does that mean?

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 08:12pm


	you knew it was over before it started

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 09:20pm


	okay.... so let's think about this.. she's packing to leave I'm in some poe-hank town, barely into tennessee, with a 2-year old, and have to travel another.. s**t, well a lot of miles its my fault i guess, i asked to many questions.. and when she didn't answer i told her to either answer them or leave

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Fri Mar 14, 2008 @ 09:29pm


	ironic.. born in arkansas.. died in tennessee if its possible to die of a broken heart anyways

Commented on: Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 04:50am


	i just wanted to know if you still loved me --while you smiled everytime your boyfriend called--how the hell you could explain to him that you were in florida with me and still be dating him--how you could turn away a kiss i've been waiting 5 years to give why did i let you do this to me all over again?

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 08:30am


	its getting hard to keep matt from noticing

Commented on: Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 04:41pm


	i only had 22 minutes to spare? that was close.. the dmv closes at 12 saturday here i almost didn't make it in time, but now i got a piece of crap car in my name that should make it home alright

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 04:44pm


	i miss the cuddling, the holding hands, even the arguing over directions

Commented on: Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 05:28pm


	glad i brought my sunglasses i want to just lay in bed, but i know if i do, it'll be hours before i get out of it again better tojust leave now

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 03:38pm


	love me you only have to a little and i can make it work

Commented on: Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 04:21pm


	i'd go to rehab if that meant you'd stay with me

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 05:01pm


	If you could read my mind, love, What a tale my thoughts could tell. Just like an old time movie, 'Bout a ghost from a wishing well. In a castle dark or a fortress strong, With chains upon my feet. You know that ghost is me. And I will never be set free As long as I'm a ghost that you can't see. If I could read your mind, love, What a tale your thoughts could tell. Just like a paperback novel, The kind the drugstores sell. When you reached the part where the heartaches come, The hero would be me. But heroes often fail, And you won't read that book again Because the ending's just too hard to take! I'd walk away like a movie star Who gets burned in a three way script. Enter number two: A movie queen to play the scene Of bringing all the good things out in me. But for now, love, let's be real; I never thought I could act this way And I've got to say that I just don't get it. I don't know where we went wrong, But the feeling's gone And I just can't get it back. If you could read my mind, love, What a tale my thoughts could tell. Just like an old time movie, 'Bout a ghost from a wishing well. In a castle dark or a fortress strong. With chains upon my feet. But stories always end, And if you read between the lines, You'll know that I'm just tryin' to understand The feelin's that you lack. I never thought I could feel this way And I've got to say that I just don't get it. I don't know where we went wrong, But the feelin's gone And I just can't get it back!

Commented on: Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 08:57pm


	if your not going to love me, then i dont want to be here anymore there's 6 billion people who can replace me i know i should have moved on but i dont want to and its not like i havent tried something just feels like its missing i think i can't fully give my heart to anyone else so now i can either lay in bed and stay down, or stay away from bed as long as i can and try to keep moving

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 10:21pm


	********, i can't go out anywhere i dont know what'll happen

Commented on: Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 10:29pm


	"I had no idea that you were using drugs. It just really shocked me since I didn't think you were that type of person." yeah.. i was shocked when you went crazy and were taken away --only I didn't leave you, you were taken away from me I still don't know how you could have made your last words "then you don't love me" i didnt have control, your parents did and they wouldn't listen to me i have to go to bed

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 02:27am


	i want my journal private because i dont feel like i have to watch what i say, and pen and paper arent always around, but acoomputer ismost of the time you'll start getting paranoid about hwat's in it though my dad had me go over there for a while, grams made corned beef and cabbage--since st. patty's is tomorrow, so i ate some, had a beer, and came home--after watching the most ******** movie about people breaking up i've ever seen yeah, great movie choice, the heartbreak kid or whatever--plus, my sister is what, 14? there's nakedness and sex scenes completely awkward--not to mention it sucked becuase it was making break=ups seem like no big deal hah

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 02:32am


	yeah.. way to go, take my comment out of context and make me look like an idiot for saying it NO the key was that afteryou break up, and decide to be friends... that can somtimes not work when one person can't handle it which you could say is the same, but i dont even consider me and her to be friends so... still wrong

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 02:41am


	i need to get ahold of myself its one of my favorite holidays tomorrow--st. patty's and i could be out drinking making my liver fail last year's st. patty's blew, so this year can't too ********, i'll just open it back up, its not really going to hurt anything i guess i really just dont want comments about it

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 02:51am


	oh yeah, i always wanted to say that the whole "we never talk anymore" thing is crap your right, we don't your never on when i am--i always come on at the same times, with school, losing my job, starting a new one, and this bullshit same time today is even extra time i dont usually spend online and sherri, you could stop calling me every 5 minutes and asking "are you okay?" i dont think you really care, your probably reporting everything to brandy, and its just annoying everyone always wonders why i get pissed off.. like its something internal/no people around me are irritating me and then, like clockwork, i get those annoying texts from the 17 year old who--for some reason--can't seem to think of anything but getting in my pants i say no, you're too young, so she gets mad and leaves i said yes once, and i shouldn't have, and i tell her that, but she doesn't seem to get it your a fluzie, i get it, and that's great, but you need to wait till your older because i dont need other reasons why i sohould be arrested

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 02:56am


	meth always ******** me up, and causes me to do stupid things, but i alwys forget what was happening before i used it so i can win xd

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 03:21am


	oh yeah, pillow, still you, i couldn't replace my pillow what do i think about before i fall asleep? you still i'm not sure why though, so that's why i didn' t want to answr your question

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 03:24am


	i can't decide waht i want to do i guess lay in bed, with a bottle of smirnoff, (not any type whiskey, that makes me tired after a while) with the tv on something that doesn't involve love

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 05:31am


	yeah.. you think i'm mad at you only ticked because your blaming me for s**t not under my control wolfman smoked all my weed while i was gone, imagine how mad i was at him

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 06:15pm


	eek that went down.. so wrong bad inhale, i'm almost afraid to do it again, made my eyes water and everything

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 06:33pm


	xd not too afrad since i did it again today's going to kickass

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 09:30pm


	and it gets better by the hour--i can't wait till happy hour officially starts

Commented on: Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 04:53am


	maybe she's just confused like i am

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 09:21pm


	creepy.. Underwater To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are feeling overcome with emotions and are in need of greater control in your life. You may be in over your head regarding some situation. Water To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions. To dream that water is rising up in your house, signifies your struggles and overwhelming emotions. Trap To dream that you are trapped or caught in a trap, suggests that you are feeling confined and restricted in your job, career, health, or a personal relationship. You may be in a rut or tired of the same daily monotony.

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 04:25am


	Attic To see an attic in your dream, represents hidden memories or repressed thoughts that is being revealed. It also symbolize your mind, spirituality, and your connection to the higher Self. Alternatively, it signifies difficulties in your life that will hinder you from attaining your goals and aspirations. However, in the end, after a long period of struggle, you will overcome them. eek that's spooky as hell

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 04:28am


	Bedroom To dream that you are in the bedroom, signifies aspects of your self that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature. TOP Ceiling To see a ceiling in your dream, represents a mental or spiritual perspective. It may also symbolize the limit you have set for yourself. TOP Closet To see a closet in your dream, symbolizes something in your life that you have kept hidden. It may also signify an unveiling of previously hidden aspects of yourself, as in "coming out of the closet". TOP i was trying to get from all those areas it was MY house, but the closet was the one from my parents house for some reason, i know because it had a window in it--which i always thought was weird, and it wasn't my closet downstairs either, it was my closet in the room on the main floor--before my sister took it and i was sent downstairs

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 08:13am


	weird, i just remembered, my mom used to whip me with the fly-swatter that hurt xp and my dad got the belt out... ouch, leaving welts and s**t and he'd take it off when we had dinner, and wrapped it around his neck in case i misbehaved at dinner that ended when i was 12 though guess i stopped being bad xp i wonder why that popped into my head

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 08:14am


	well.. i am legendwas a good movie

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 08:19am


	s**t... i need to get up i 6 hours to go to school... an i'm drunker than .. i donno what typin slow though, so no mistakes xd hmmm... bed alone again its just not as great to go to bed alone and in cold blankets why do i have to do that?

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 03:24pm


	did i fall and forget about it?

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 04:56pm


	eww.. my eyes are still bloodshot and glazed and lights hurt

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 05:13pm


	yes.. "new leaf" potatoes they will single handedly destroy the environment... i get tired of these articles by "smart" people.. they dont seem that smart to me, and i'm tired of reading about them and how they make a simple potato an enemy what was my teacher thinking?

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 06:17pm


	so... did I miss something, or what happened?

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 06:47pm


	4.5 hours was not long enough for sleep.. maybe i'll take a nap or somethng later

Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 04:14am


	how come every time i get comfy and about to fall asleep, someone calls or knocks or something? i just want to go to sleep, i dont want to deal with or talk to you now, i'm sure that whatever it is can wait

mxvsatv
Community Member

Offline

Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

More Information