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Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 06:24pm


	okay... so i've accomplished that, the thermostat works, and the furnace tries to kick on, but then for some reason just doesn't i dont know what the some reason is and its pissing me off

Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 07:12pm


	so.. last night, the 17 year old called (well, texted and i replied then she called) and said that she was tired of being at home all spring break and wanted to come over--i told her i didn't feel so great and figured it would end there, but then she surprised me by asking if there was anything she could do--which... is not something i would have expected from someone 17, i mean, i probably would have just called someone else and moved on so i told her that she could come sit on the couch and watch movies with me--more out of curiousity than anything else she came over 35 minutes later and had a bowl and said that she made some soup ( I told her earlier that i didn't really have dinner) I got up to put it in the microwave, but she told me to sit back down and she'd bring it out it was a sweet gesture, better than how others have responded when i say i dont feel so great. she kinda ruined it later though by bringing up having sex but i got a chance to ask her why she wanted to hang out "you're just fun to be around" i dont really know what that means but i told rae not this weekend

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Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 07:39pm


	maybe messing with the furnace will get rae's crying out of my head

Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 09:05pm


	i hate call centers that was a worthless 15 minutes all i said was "how much is this?" and they go "well.. blah blah, your rates area locked in for a year.. blah blah, they aren't going up for a year.. blah blah" ******, I know, but my year is up in 2 weeks, so you're lieing they are going up "oh, it appears your year is up april 3rd" yeah, no st i hate calling those ****** assholes, and yes, your internet is **** up and choppy, but no, i dont want a service rep to look at it, because he can't come out at 12am-4am when i'm online noticing that its ****** up and stop repeating everything no, i will not keep your business in mind, your company sucks cable companies in general suck, that's why, i'm going back to direct tv--so put that in your pipe and smoke it

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Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 09:08pm


	trying to be polite over the phone when someone can't even spell your name right gets difficult, especially after you spell it 5 times, phonetically like b boy r robert e egg they still put the a what the hell? its not agg what the ****** is an agg? gonk** why do call centers exist? i hated working at the insurance one claim, claim, claim, billing question, claim, claim, threat, claim.. sucks to work and call them

Commented on: Thu Mar 20, 2008 @ 09:38pm


	april--a job outside, an enjoyable one this could be good

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Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 03:25pm


	gonk how did that happen?

Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 04:59pm


	i wonder if she's still there or not

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Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 06:44pm


	i already said, you do not want to see this, but you kept asking about it and then mysteriously locked your journal so here it is if you want the 17 year old ended up in my bed, not sure how/why it happend, just did, and she was still there sleeping when i left this morning

Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 07:59pm


	I didn't lock my journal though.. confused slept with or actually had sex with?

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Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 09:04pm


	right.. that's why it loaded up the one about the nice girls and i had to click on the one you made on 3/20, for it to tell me that it was changed to private, yes, you did unlock it again, later and i told you that you wouldn't like looking

Commented on: Fri Mar 21, 2008 @ 09:28pm


	and all I did was ask

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Commented on: Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 03:07pm


	i saw it before, and i'm not answering

Commented on: Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 03:13pm


	she had to leave to go to church this mornin' i already miss her

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Commented on: Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 05:56pm


	her dad is an alcoholic and her mom is too busy with her younger siblings to notice her much--which seems pretty familiar she's been working since she was 15 to get out of her parents house--again familiar and so what if she'll do almost anything to get some attention? i dont think of myself as a slut, so i'm not going to call her one

Commented on: Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 11:36pm


	...great.. ****** great that battery isn't even 2 **** years old!! what a piece of st, and it cost more than all the other ones--and i know its not the truck's alternator, since that's only 2.5 years old ********! stop breaking! i don't have enough to fix everythng, and a motorcycle doesn't exactly charge a truck battery quick

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Commented on: Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 03:19pm


	she's almost 18 plus, has had the same job for a year now, has her own car, and only drinks occasionally

Commented on: Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 05:04pm


	right.. I've never gotten a birthday mixed up stare

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Commented on: Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 09:23pm


	today was bullshit what did "i wouldn't care if she dropped dead" add to the converstion? its not even a conversation that I wanted to have in the first place so why the ******** would i want to talk to you? yeah, you were right about something, i logged out because i got tired of talking to you today i couldn't take it anymore no matter what, you are not in the same world that i'm in, and you don't understand things like jobs or maintaining an old truck

Commented on: Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 10:19pm


	i can't always be the jester, sometimes i need people to keep me enterained from my problems, but you never seem to get that i didn't want to feel like s**t again, like sunday, and i guess i don't because today has been even worse

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Commented on: Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 10:27pm


	she can make everything seem like its going to be fine, relieving my mind, even if just for a few hours, of worrying about what's going to happen next, or how shitty it is now and she can do that without sex--because she's not a slut i can't explain how she does it, she just can and if she dropped dead, then the piece of my heart i gave to her would be lost

Commented on: Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 11:27pm


	finally... a normal conversation today the only downside is that it was only for a half an hour because she went from school to work i also have something to look forward to today since she said she'd call me after work, and I'm sure she will

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Commented on: Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 07:23am


	wow... what was that?

Commented on: Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:18pm


	and now i'm the prep jerk? no.. you still don't get it i'm not leaving a town where even the old people know who i am--mostly from church, where neighbors know me, teachers, other kids i've been with since elementary school its not because i'm popular, its because my town is a place where everyone is the other person's neighbor.

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Commented on: Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 06:23pm


	nooo.. sighs that's not what I meant I know, it's a place where you are comfortable and you want to stay. I get it, really.

Commented on: Tue Mar 25, 2008 @ 09:22pm


	ooooh.. okay, so you just want to portray me negatively on a public forum okay that's much better tell them i stopped talking to you today so i could do more drugs, cause that's what's happening in 5 minutes

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Commented on: Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 03:18pm


	she was upset when she called, so i went over there quick

Commented on: Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 06:49pm


	i guess what i'm saying is that it hurts me more to talk to you, than to not talk to you

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Commented on: Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 06:55pm


	I'm sorry you feel that way, I wish it wasn't that way.. Not being with you and still talking to you.. makes things awkward and it hurts like hell. I miss you like crazy, baby. It's okay if you don't feel the same, they're your feelings and I wouldn't try to change them even if I knew I could. I mean, obviously, I wish that you did feel the same way about me, but I can't change how you feel if you don't. But not talking to you, for me, is slightly worse. I try to be a good "just friend" but it's difficult. I really do try to push my feelings for you aside and everything.. but sometimes, I just can't.

Commented on: Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 09:00pm


	i need someone here not there and not "soon, or in a few months" or whatever now Not that you don't fit the other requirements, but those are pretty big. There's only so much you can do from there, only so much you can actually know about what's happening here, and only so much i can know about what's happening there not to mention, that doesn't really fit into my ideal of "the girl back home" your not from here, and while you could adjust, its just not the same

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Commented on: Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 09:08pm


	I'm done with school.. I could be there in a couple weeks if you wanted.. I know you need someone there, really, I do understand it But no, I'm not from there. I'm sorry if it bothers you that much, but there isn't anything that can really be done about it. I'm from a small town, just not yours.

Commented on: Thu Mar 27, 2008 @ 12:39am


	yeah.. your need to be perfect... kinda complicated and overwhelming stop doing that

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Commented on: Thu Mar 27, 2008 @ 05:58am


	hmmm.... now everything's... blah again ****** o-well, at least she wasn't crying today, so today wasn't as bad as yesterday and tomorrow she has off work blaugh** i get to see her! but.. still feeling blah..

Commented on: Thu Mar 27, 2008 @ 03:10pm


	she still has school though.. stare

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