Ah, so the war continues. The inevitable tide will sweep away my armies and let the Ninterns invade!
*cough* Yeah. That's right. Ninterns. Deal with it.
Honestly, when you feel forgotten, there's a sense of freedom. People tend to not look to you for answers to their problems. You feel...observant. I admit, I let go of others, sometimes on purpose, most times out of genuine forgetfulness/preoccupation with other things holding me away.
I realized recently I don't like to be forgotten. It's a difficult thing for me. I guess my insecurity issues run deeper than I had originally thought. I've been thinking recently that since I'm so used to not being the popular guy, the one who manages to get people to smile at him when he smiles at them, or laughing at even his stupidest jokes, that I'd be perfectly fine without super close friends. That I'd be able to just be the go-to guy for advice and feelings, be the psychologist.
The more I think on it, and observing my actions as of late, I realize I really do need friends. I simply need that attention. If I decided not to care about people, I could probably manage that. But I'm too concerned with the feelings of others to do such a thing, so I'll have to live with my life the way it has been.
Loneliness...just isn't what I need.
I wish I had more friends in my life.
Peace.
David Nilato Community Member 
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