I am coming back to yorktown next year. i was hoping that there was really someting for me to come back to back at yorktown but i diserve nothing, especially for what i did and what i caused.
When i come back to yorktown though, i won't be really talking to anyone( i think i owe you all the favor) (don't be surpized), but i have to focus on my school work (i almost failed this year, im going to summer school). I guess i was distracted by all the drama i had caused back at yorktown, god do i feel stupid for that.
I wish things could have gone better at yorktown. i really liked my friends there, but i realize they do have the right to never speak to me again. If i could go back and fix what i had done i would do it. I miss u all so much. I just wish things didn't have to end up this way. You guys we're always there for me, i just didn't see it, i was stupid, i didn't listen. I'm sorry (even though sorry means nothing dosen't mean anything at this point).
You know what?
I guess your right (you know who you are if your reading this note)
but yeah your right, i guess i haven't changed all that much, but at least i've changed a little.
I wish i could change and make things better in a shorter period of time or even now for the matter but you don't always get what u want.
Sadly there's no rewind button or backspace button on life, if you ******** up (screw up) there's no going back. You can't fix it.
Sucks don't it?
well................yeah,...i guess all i can say is....i don't even know if i changed even a little bit but i can say that now, i can't really lie to you all anymore, it just causes drama and makes matters worse, it just hurts that i had to learn that the hard way :
I still cause some drama, i'm still stupid when it some to some situations, i still sometimes even say things that i really really shouldn't. I feel like a dum a**.
no i haven't grown up at all, i'm still stupid, still a pain in the a**, like my friend told me I HAVEN'T CHANGED AT ALL.
i'm still the winey emo b***h from yorktown who can 't take care of her problems on her own, and complains to much.
I need to get over what happened but it dosn't mean i can go back to those people and expect them to want to be my friends again, i understand. you don't have to, you know who you are if your reading this.
I wasn't trying to get my friends back hen i was telling everyone i had changed i just wanted to make myself feel better, and i know thats really really stupid.
I really ******** up.
and even though it dosn't mean much at all, I'm sorry.
i'm writing this message because i felt like writing what's on my mind, i needed to fess up to what i had done and all the things i ******** up i couldn't hide it any longer is was killing me.
there is one more thing though i will admit about transfering though:
Well.......hm......McLean has been,...really cool, I've had an amazing time, i like it there, though it dose kinda suck that i was only ther for like about 3 months, i had a great time, and i'll miss everyone, it hurts that i have to leave.
And also i have to mention that i really really like this Guy I'm Dating
Charlie's....^_^......all i got to say is that...^_^ I love him
Why would i wanna leave some one so and a school that was so great. I mean moving back is like stabing me in the back and taking away my happieness, i mean, tear my heart out why don't ya!
though i can't blame my parents for having financial issuses and having so much, and me and my siblings complaining about it is just making it harder on them.
I'm sorry for that
but.....ahhhhhhh!!! Every thing was just so much better at McLean!
-No one knew who i was
-No one knew what i'd done back at yorktown
-No one even knew how much of a winey emo b***h i was back at yorktown.
I'm gonna miss McLean soooo much. sad I really want to stay, Yeah i know my grades won't be any better but i'd be so much happier if i stayed. I wanna stay, i don't wanna leave.
But thats life, and like people have told me before:
GET OVER IT
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