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I feel like I'm in a nightmare and I can't wake up. And when I do its only to find that I wasnt dreaming at all. No matter how hard I try to pretend it didnt happen, it did and I can't do a goddamn thing about it. Im praying or thinking maybe he'll come back here and say it was a huge mistake, we need to start over and work through our problems... But that hasnt happened and the chances are unlikely.

I want to say it was a mutual thing, but it wasnt, I want to be numb and okay but I'm not. I feel it was something we could have worked out, all this time we put on building a relationship and at the sign of trouble you run. Yes, this had been going on for awhile but I was unaware of your feelings, in a relationship when you have problems you dont grunt about them and hope they magically go away, you tell the other person and solve them together. This was not fair by any stretch of the imagination, I feel blind sided still why did you tell everyone your feelings but me I was the last to know, why did u want me to be oblivious?!

Know this- I gave you everything I had, I was dedicated, I loved you more than anything and I still do- I dont see that changing for awhile. NO matter who you date if you dont communicate your problems they're not going to go away but will only continue and ultimately ruin every relationship you are going to be in. A relationship means work if you cant handle that then you have no business being in one. You made an inpulse decision with out thinking it throughly through and you made the wrong choice. I was the best girlfriend ever.....