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Adventures of a Bubble
Well the past couple of days has been "interesting" and that is about the only way for me to describe what has been going on in my life.
I can just truely say that I am greatly appreaciative of all the friends that I have and are willing to hear what I have to say.
My sister had a giant row with the people that she thinks most of.
My sister and I got into a giant fight on Saturday evening after a long hard day of me cleaning me mom's friends house.
I was glad that I was able to help here with what she needed help with though.
From that moment when I walked through that door that night became part of my worst nightmare.
I am glad that I have such great friends named Lance and Lex. THey have been there to help me with my sorrows as I have been there for them these past few years. I have been using Lex's house as my safe house. The main reasons are is that I consder this my safe home, where most people can't bother or hurt me here, My sister doesn't know where this place is, and I have a caring and loving family on the other side of that front door whenever I come here or even call here to make sure it is okay. I called crying hysterically on Saturday asking if I could come over but they had no idea of what really happened throughout that little bit of a time span sinc ei left that house that morning to clean, to me arriving in tears looking like I was about ready to move into a home where the love was pretty much endless.
When I walked through that door the tears were still streaming down my face from the harsh words that I have dealt with to the pain that was caused in being slapped and punched around by someone that made me laugh. I threw my things to the floor in the family room and walked out onto the deck. I just let the tears pour down my face while telling to my best friend named Lex. She has been there for me through thick and thin and this time she is really been there for me and my protector.
After about 10 minutes out on the deck talking with her, my other Mom, Lex's, brought me out a hot cup of tea my favorite actually, to help calm me down and gave me a hug and told me everything was going to be alright.
And from that moment things started to calm down, things started to make more sense then they have been for quite some time. I really appreaciate Lex for who she is....
That night they were there for me like they have since Lex and I met what seems like so many years ago.
The today I was pretty much just worried if things would be greatly affected whilst I would be home and I was right. My mom called asked me how I was doing and wanted to know what I wanted. I said that I wanted to see you because I miss you, and that I want to be able to be in the house that I have pretty much grown up in without having to be afriad that in one moment I can be pushed and shoved out of it and punched and slapped and blamed for things that I haven't done.
Ten minutes later my brother comes and gets me and I take a bag with to get more close because I had a gut feeling that something bad was going to happen in my future. And I should of listening to my gut feeling...
I walk inside the house and I give my dad a giant hug. He was there for me when I ijust needed a ride to get away with what he would be stuck with for the next couple of hours or maybe even days. He was able to see that I needed a place where being harmed wouldn't of been a issue.
From there I gently moved around the house and tried to get the feel for the place again. It kinda felt like I was moving in for the first time because I was scared. Scared for what might be lurking around the next corner.
I made it up the stairs slowly, but it was hard because all I felt was drama, anger, resentment and brutal pain. When I made it up the stairs my room was complete and under anxiety. I pretty much went down to my knees and almost passed out because of it. I only spent 1 hour in there in the past two days due to what all happened. And that would of been me just packing my bags and just getting out of there.
I started to unpack my bag, and repack it with my other things.
I went down stairs did my chores, then it all started to happen.
I saw my mother, my rock, my goddess, for the first time in a couple of hours but it felt like days to be honest.
The tears sprang from both of our eyes. I was worried from what would happen next, and my mom was just worried for my safety.
I had a calm conversation for my mom and told her that I was already packed to go back to lexs. She started to worry that her little girl is going to move out and this thing would never get taken care of, and that she wouldn't see me again.
I then went outside to speak to my sister and apologize for whatever it was that I did. I said that from now on there wouldn't be anything that could make me take her things, but everything else should be put behind us because we really don't know what would happen except that it has already happened.
Then she walked up into my face and threated to kill me. That scared me that any more that before in our lives.
I spent the next hour with my family trying to forget what just happened to someone at my age, which should not happen to anyone else. I ate dinner and then Nancy and her boyfriend Joel came back. Nancy apologized for being such a b***h and said that she hopes to be out by my birthday or even by the end of the year.....
After that I came back to my safe haven and been able to deal with the people I love and care for besides my family, Lex, Lance, Layla, Mom, and even the pets....
I am just enjoying the time spent with Lex before she leaves for Texas. And I will be bummed.
So slowly things are getting back together.
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