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Song: Case Of The Ex-Mya
I don't talk to Tay anymore. Ronnie told me that he was talking junk about me so I changed his myspace password and he got mad. Sometimes when I think about it I feel kinda childish but I don't care sometimes. Because I really didin't like him that much anyway and he wasn't a good friend. So I haven't heard from him in a while. And I had text him his password back but I don't think he understood. Because he still hasn't been on it. His little brother had text me off his phone once but that was the last time I had even seen his number. So I'm really not concerned with it that bad because I wasn't trying to keep him and I figured he learned to keep my name out of his mouth so I'm good. Never in his life will he call me a b***h again. At least not to my friends he won't. I don't care about his feelings anymore and I've never talked junk about him before then.
Song: Your Behind- Trey Songz
Prom is next week for me an I can't wait. I don't have a date but I don't really want one. I just hope I can find a cute pair of heels to go with my dress and I need to plan out my week too. Because I really need to get my hair done. I'm hoping my cousin's girlfriend, Tiffany will do my hair but I'm not 100% sure she will. I hope she will. For free too because I don't have any money. But my dress is dark blue at the top and then gets lighter as it goes down. And the straps start in the middle, below my neck and go up over my shoulders and back down. It's cute and my mom doesn't know how to accessorize it. So I might need to buy my own accessories.
Song: Candy Rain- Soul 4 Real
I havn't seen Dakeem in a while, since Valentines day really and we dont' talk that much anymore. He's always playing his game. But I talked to Omar on 5/25. and I talked to him yesterday, 5/30. He's back in Greensboro. And it seems like soemthign always happens on 5/25. In 07 I met Midnight. In 08 me and Dakeem hooked up. And in 09 I talked to Omar. I think I'll have to watch out for that day. And Thursdays too. I have a really bad thing for Thursdays. But I'm not organizing my thoughts well. I'm thinking about divorcing Omar because Dakeem told me that when Omar first got back into town Omar had told Dakeem he wasn't going to call me and not to tell me that he was in town. I don't understand Omar. What the hell is his problem. If he doesn't want to talk to me then he needs to stop playing like he misses me and all that other crap. If I cant stop caring for Midnight, my first love, I can get over Omar. I'm holding on because he promised we would be together again.
Song: Until You Came- Faith Evans
I hardly ever talk to Shaquille either. I think I'm over him but I do miss him at times. I understand that I broke up with him, and he just got over it, but I can't blame him because I only started going out withhim because I felt we were falling apart as friends. I went through soem old messages on Myspace and it was one time in October where he was at his uncle's house and he didn't have his phone charger so he was messaging me. And i fell asleep on him. When I woke up in the morning I sent him a message saying "OH MY GOD!! I didn't talk to you before I went to sleep! I might cry!" And that's so astonishing to me because I had completely forgot that we used to talk like that. I talked to him when I woke up, before school, right after school and right before he went to sleep. It was so nice. But I'm not sure if we could go back out again. Oh I think he wants to g out with Danni though. He started talking to her one day through Josh and Imani. And they traded pictures. I had to leave because I was about to cry though. They just liked each other too much.
Song: Missing You- Trey Songz
Josh and Imani broke up. Imani said she feels like Josh changed on her and whatever. I can't speak for Josh because I don't talk to him like that because Ronnie or Tay told me that Josh was talking junk about me too. But apparently Josh and Shaquille have a lot of problems going on with thier parents and things. Because like this weekend, Shaquille was supposed to go over to his dad's but he didn't. And Shaquille never misses time to hang out with Josh. So I know he didn't say he didn't want to go. Plus I talked to him on Thursday. But on Thursday that's when Josh and Imani broke up. Josh almost hurt himself and we had to help him and stuff then Shaquille was cussing me and Imani out saying it was our fault. But we were worried too.
Song: If You Leave Her- Destiny's Child
I dont' really like anyone right now. I'm kind of glad I don't like anybody though. I don't have time for any drama with a boy because I have enough drama with my so called friends. I don't have a best friend. I am nobody's best friend. Danni has Nikki. Sunny has Kimberly. Imani has Alexis. See i thought Imani was my best friend. But she doesn't like associate with me that much outside of school. Like we'll text or talk on the phone and stuff but I just feel like we aren't that close really. She was my other half on bebo but she took me off and on her best friend application she has Alexis and not me. And I had her as mine. So I feel super unimportant. That's the kind of stuff that makes me think if I was to run away nobody would miss me. I would be one less bill, one less paper to grade, one less dramaic female to worry about, one less mouth to feed. Would it matter?
Song: Rock Bottom- Pleasure P
I'm really just waiting for Joan to move up here. When she comes I won't have anything to worry about. I'll be so much happier. But soemthing tells me that when she comes down here I might just end up feeling worse because then Sharie will want her to herself much more. I feel like I'll get left out and it'll be the exact same as it is now and I'll just be sitting alone while thier at the club, or shopping, or whatever. I've always been jealous of other people's abilities to hold relationships. The only other person like me that I can think of is my Daddy. He doesn't talk to anyone from a long time ago except Shawn. Well then he doesn't count anymore because they've been friends since before i was born. And I've never had a best friend for more than 2 years. Never held a relationship close like I want to...