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March 19th-The beginning
Having felt lonely the last month or two, I wanted to be with someone. Micah, was that someone, had had hugged me a few days earlier at a Guitar Hero tournament. This caught my attention, I hadn't been hugged by anyone but Chris and Evan since I'd moved there... Well, there was Brandon.. He hardly counts though.
Micah hadn't really ever been friends, we were friendly towards each other, but not exactly friends. Though he hadn't noticed me, I'd noticed him, and I found him completely attractive and unbelievably hilarious.
I wanted him.
Do to the fact that I'm a chicken though, I got on gaia and sent him a PM telling him how I felt about him. He didn't get on to read it though, so of course by the nineteenth I was freaking out and super spazz.
I was on gaia, talking to Kailey about it, when she finally just said
"Want me to text him for you?"
I was hesitant, but I just said yea. Why not get it over with?
I'm spazzing, waiting for her to reply. Minutes go by, feeling like days, and I've got a massive head ache. I had started looking up on Wikihow, how to cope with rejection. I've never really been great with rejection, and I didn't wanna be depressed the next few days.
Finally, only 5 minutes later, Kailey sends me a PM. she said "this is how the conversation went:
Kailey: Hey, Ari likes you.
Micah: Like, how?
Kailey: Like like.
Micah: Oh....
Kailey: Do you like her?
Micah: Idk"
I was pretty down after that. I just went to the GD and posted meaningless things, including a topic on how to deal with rejection. That's the day I found out the GD was a cruel place...
After about a half hour of sitting there, I updated my status to
"I'm gonna go offline.. by Kai."
At the time, my username was Arierure Senpai, and Kailey would call me Senpai. I hung around the next couple minutes, when I saw Kailey's status:
"NO SENPAI! GOOD NEWS!"
I was confused, but I stayed online for alittle bit longer. Going to the forums, I saw that I had a PM and clicked it. My hands shaking, I opened the PM, and there I read
"Micah: Tell her I said yea...
Kailey: Yea, you like her?
Micah: Yea...
Kailey: Awwww OwO
Micah: I'll kill you... -.-
Kailey: O_O Okay..."
At reading that, I giggled and turned bright red. I was so happy, I wouldn't be alone anymore. I hadn't been rejected. At the time, I didn't really think it'd be much of a relationship. Just a crush that would end in a week because of some stupid problem. When the problems did come, I didn't leave him. I felt something there. I'm not sure what it was, but now I'm glad I didn't leave him.
This day marked the beginning of a relationship that is so much more than I could ever ask for.
May 1st- Formal
Formal, a farewell to 8th graders, had finally come and i was so excited. Micah was going to be there, and I bought a really great black and white dress. I did my hair, burned my arm on the flat iron (I still have a scar), then put my face on and went to the school with my massive professional camera. I see my friends, and talk with them while I wait for Micah to show up.
In a huge van, Weslynn and Gage roll up to the school. Weslynn, of course, is gorgeous and I'm completely jealous. I'd always been jealous of how beautiful she was, and how much She'd liked Micah...
I turn around to see if anyone's in the building yet, and feel hands on my hips. Micah's here.
We walk inside, and Mrs. Loewe sees us. We wait to be signed in, and I get a few pictures.
Finally after being signed in and having a little "x" put on our hands, we walk into the gym. It's black, neon lights shining off the walls. I smile, but Micah doesn't look happy. He'd never really wanted to be at Formal, be he saw how happy it would make me.
I find Weslynn, and we decide to ditch the guys and go dance. Yea, we're white girls, and we can't dance to save our lives. Scratch that, Weslynn can dance and I'm a white girl floundering around like a moron. Again, Jealous. I shouldn't be jealous of her. But I am, oh well.
We dance, and I pull Micah in. He does this adorable thing with his arms, and I start laughing. Gage just stands around, and Jason tries to find someone to dance with him. I had found him a girl, but she actually met him and changed his mind. I don't get it, he's a really great, hilarious guy. But oh well. He was having fun otherwise.
Micah and I are smiling at each other, when we here the DJ shout something about a slow dance. I turn bright red, and Weslynn jumps right in. Thank God for her, she's great. Her and Gage grab Micah, and try to get him to slow dance with me. He puts his hands on my shoulders, and Weslynn laughs, then grabs his hands and moves them to my hips. I blush, and put my arms up around his neck. Looking at each other, I see that he's bright red too.
A little ways into the dance, we somehow manage to pull each other close and just stand there, hugging. I'm barefoot, my heals were killing me. He ends up stepping on my feet a few times, but it didn't hurt, he's a small child. (=P)
I'm happy, seriously about to cry, when Mrs. Loewe comes up behinds us and hugs us. She's a big woman, tall wise, and rocks back and forth with us.
"Well aren't we close?" She says, her voice sarcastic.
I just nod, and Micah, sarcastic as well, says
"Why yes, yes we are. And you're jealous!"
I laugh, and so does Mrs. Loewe. She lets go of us, and walks off. Alittle further into the song, Micah takes off his hat and puts it on my head, which is leaned against his shoulder. I laugh, because my hair is up in a bun thing and it's keeping the hat from staying in. In a sweet voice, he says
"Haha, you dork"
I don't know what to reply, so I just say
"So?"
He smiles, hugs me tighter, and says
"Yea, but you're my dork."
I turn bright red, and he whispers
"You look wonderful."
Okay, that does it. I'm about to cry, and the song ends. I look at him, smile, then dart off to the bathroom. I fix my makeup, try to keep from crying, and walk back out. Weslynn and I dance more, along with Kelli, Becca, Sarah, and Cassie.
It's great, I'm so happy. I look at Jason, and mouth to him
"I wish Micah would kiss me already" teasing.
"Okay, I'll get him too" replied Jason, and I turn bright red.
Micah comes up, and I can hear Gage talking to him. Kiss her. Do it do it.
Standing still, Micah comes up to me and wraps his arms around me. I smile, and he whispers "Thanks for taking me" then kisses me on the cheek. I gasp, turn bright red, and turn to him. He walks off, probably embarressed. I run to Weslynn to tell her, and she screams and smiles.
"Gage kissed me too!"
I scream this time, laughing happily.
The rest of the night basically went like that, slow dancing, fast dancing, laughing, pictures, some crying, some couple slow dancing to every song playing. It made Micah and I laugh, but it was great.
This day, was a great day. One I'll remember the rest of my life. <3
May 16th- Renaissance Festival
It was the day of the Renaissance festival, and a great day:
We were at the festival, towards the end of our time there. It's a war we're watching, Pirates vs. the king's men. There's a cannon going off frequently, and I use that excuse to wrap my arm in his, putting my free hand on his bicep.
Micah just sat there, he told me I'm okay. I smiled, and my eyes fall to his hands, placed in his lap.
Staring, drifting off into my own thoughts, a cannon explodes again, ripping me from my thoughts and threatening to uproot me from the bench Micah and I were perched on.
Micah gores, and I realize I'd nearly crushed his arm, and my hand falls on top of his as I release my grip. He doesn't move his hand, so I don't move mine. I try to focus on the "battle", but I can't help but notice a couple, probably late teens or early twenties, perched on the bench beside us. The girl was pretty, a few extra pounds, but really gorgeous. Her boyfriend was alright I guess.
My attention turned to his arm, around her waist. His hand rested on her hip, a smile glowing on her face.
A wave of env goes through my body, and I look away. Micah's eyes are on mine, and I turn bright red, then look down.
The battle's over? Already? wow...
I see my mother stand, and I move my arms from his. He stands, and I follow. My legs feel heavy, and my eyes drift to the bench where the couple had sat, but they weren't there.
SOmething tugged at my stomach, but I couldn't match it. It was butterflies and.. longing? I'm not sure, but I thought I was going to puke. I push back the urge, and continue walking to the car with Micah, passing women with corsets that left little to the imagination.
We get to the car, and he and I crawl into the back.
It's basically silent the way home, besides the excited singing to a Chicago song. Micah wasn't really into music, but his expression was hilarious while he listened to me ruin the song.
Finally reach the house, we stumble out of the car and adjust our clothes. My mom walks inside and I instantly walk over to Micah, pulling him into my arms.
"I'm sorry hunny, that really wasn't very fun. " I said, him still in my arms. He moves away, looks into my eyes, then smiles and says
"Anytime I'm with you is fun. "
I feel my face go red, and look away to hide the blush.
Not really knowing what to do, him and I begin walking down my road, almost completely silent.
I'm not very happy. I wished it'd been more fun.
Looking around, I begin thinking about the couple again holding each other at the fair. Micah had never really been affectionate towards me, and I wished he had. My thoughts are occupied with hand holding. Micah and I examined the road, the fields, the sky.
While I'm lost in my thoughts, I feel something warm in my hand, between my fingers.
I turn bright red, as I realize for the first time in our relationship, we were holding hands.
Micah begins to laugh, and My feelings are hurt... but I soon realize i'm still blushing and had silently sad
"Aww..."
I feel great. I'm so happy. We walk, hand in hand, until he stops me in a wooded area and wraps his arms around me.
Not completely sure what's going on, I wrap my arms around him and gently stroke his back. He whispers, in a voice that could put an angel to shame,
"Thanks for taking me babe. I love you." He pulls away, and leans his face to mine. He misses, kissing the side of my lips. I turn bright red and he hugs me again. A few seconds later, he says
"Let's try this again."
I'm prepared this time, and our lips meet perfectly. His lips are soft, gently, loving. The kiss, our first kiss, is short lived but amazing. We stand in eachother's embrace for a few minutes besides one other kiss.
This day, I'll remember for the rest of my life as well, the day that marked our loving relationship's beginning, after two months of dating already. This day made it clear, Micah and I would last forever.
This is what I have for now
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