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The Greatest Feeling in The World (My Perspective)

I bet most of you're first thoughts was that the feeling is love. This is true, love can't be compared to other feelings, but love is such a broad topic. The affection for your family and the fufillment you get for dong what you enjoy most can be expressed by a word called love; but they have very different meanings. The greatest feeling can not be expressed in a few words, so take the time to read these next few paragraphs and give me some good feedback. Please smile

Background- Like you, I've come across many teenager scenerios. First kiss, asking girls on a date for the first time, thinking of what to say so I don't sound stupid. Also in school I always have that teacher I don't like, or so much homework that I just feel like I'm getting trapped. What makes us all unique is how we deal with each situation and grow from our mistakes. I'm not perfect but I do try my best to make myself and others around me happy. I've made so many mistakes in my life but it's not the mistakes I dwell over, it's the satisfaction of knowing I will learn and never do it again.

In this past year all my mistakes and sorrows finally payed off and came back to me as this wonderful person. Everyday it seems like something fun, exciting, and fufilling will happen even though it's just an ordinary day. Even if I have a bad day at school, hard time playing golf, fail a test, it doesnt matter because at the end of the day I know a few kind words from her would make my day. Not all conversations end up the way we wanted it but, I never worry because I know that we will settle it, she'll come back, and the bond we share will become stronger than it was before.

There comes a time in everyones life where they think nothing is going their way. Where everything you believe in just dissapears. It's a very sad and depressing time for us all. Over the holiday seasons a part of me left where it just seemed impossible to live on. I know most of you are thinking *OMG another emo thing*, but just hold on a second. I have to admit I fell completely in love with someone. She is very special to me. All of us say *oh he/she is the one for me* then end up breaking up later. When you find someone new that new person gives you the same feeling in the past. This is easily understood considering we all want to find that special someone for ourselves, or at least we all want to be cared about and thought of. It explains why unexpected phone calls from that special someone means a whole lot more than just saying hi, but it shows that he/she is only thinking about you for that moment.

Knowing all of this, It only makes you feel significant and fufilled when you actually see your special person. Seeing him/her smile at you; You can't help but smile back. Well what will you do when that special person is gone? Die, Give up, Moan, Forget, or maybe just go on to the next person. All of these factors come into thought when you're in despair. As for I, I chose to wait. It may seem pointless and futile, but still I know deep down in my heart, she must be the one for me. Everyone would rather want to get back together or give up, but unfortunately the only option I have amongst the two is to give up.

In my room I have a small bed no wider than 3 feet. It barely has enough room to fit two people. Every night I sleep on my shoulder leaving about 2 feet of room, enough for one other person. I place a pillow on my side, and put my arm gently around it. Everytime I can imagine her smiling at me and saying goodnight. Although, every morning I wake up and reality hits me. She's not there to greet me in the morning. Along with that a piece of me goes away. It's not really noticeable, but eventually it will cause a big enough hole to affect my everyday life. Things will start falling apart- lower grades, less self esteem, anti-social, maybe everything you do seems like it's not good enough.

Every now and then I receive a phone call, and it brings me to a place where it numbs the pain. The call isn't free though, at the end I can not see, feel, or show her this deep sorrow in my heart. All I can do is try to make her feel happy and hope the best for her. Until then all I can do is wait; wait for her to put all the pieces back together again. Love is always about sacrifice. You can not live with another person unless you offer something in return. This is why I will wait for her, It's the least I can do to earn her love. So what is the greatest feeling? Well, to me it's when my hole is finally filled and for the rest of my life I will have no regrets because I will have that perfect special person by my side forever.

Plz keep mean comments to yourself I wrote this from the bottom of my heart.