Today I am feeling threatened by things and people that are generally arbitrary in my world. I can't really say why, but it is bothersome. I guess it was the way he hovered over his phone all night waiting for her to call. Sure, they're just friends, and I trust him to the end of the Earth, but it was unsettling. They were friends years and years ago and they lost contact with each other...now they are back in touch and they both seem really excited about it. That shouldn't bother me, but I guess I'm a little jaded in the "we're just friends" department. I'm not sure whether it was his eagerness to talk to her that bothered me, or the fact that he has friends that will be there for him any moment of any day no matter what...I'm afraid I lack companionship in that way. I've really just come to realize that he is my best friend, and aside from a few contacts once in a while, most of my friends have exited stage left, and it is highly unlikely that they will ever feel the need to contact me at any point further down the road of life.
lumpyoatmeal · Wed Nov 11, 2009 @ 03:07pm · 0 Comments |