Rambleing Time
Every time I turn around I find myself compareing myself to this girl i have known a while. Why? Because everyone eles is doing it and I can't help but wonder if there right. Only I really hate this girl. She has the love from someone that I have wanted to be close to sence I met them. I have been hurt by this person so many times and now she's crying and complaining about no one careing about her? She is loved by so many all she has to do is look around. I guess you can say I'm jelious. And I am. I'm just tired of trying to get some danmed attention, and haveing no one there and haveing to hear all this about her not haveing anyone there for her when I am, even if I don't really even like her.
So I went out shoping for cute girlieish clothes this weekend, and I got just that. Only when i got to school with a new t-shirt and a a bit of make up (Eyeliner and shadow) Everyone was all "Why are you all dresed up? Wheats up with the makeup?" Umm HELLO?! I've only been going on about this shoping spree for a week or two! "I'm going shoping I want to were some nice clothes, cute ones. I'm tired of looking like a guy, or at least dressing like one." For two weeks! Ugh! And what I can't wear nice stuff? The only thing I can wear is baggie old hand-me downs? I don't want to. If all the rest of the girls I know get to wear girlie clothes why can't I? I have the self esteam and all, and ya' know what? If you don't like if ******** OFF I DON"T CARE! I like this stuff!
Lady_Darkness003 · Tue Mar 14, 2006 @ 02:49am · 5 Comments |