So...I've been thinking...I really wish my boyfriend were friendlier with me. It is my fault that I don't want to play and stuff...but I'm no good at anything he likes...I'm no good at video games, he doesn't like music, I'm not weird enough or whatever...but I am who I am...and that's what makes me cry.
No matter how much I WANT to change myself to be like that I can't. I'm a mean, boring, loner.
What can I do...I know this is a change of pace from the last entry...but...after getting in a fight with my mom...it made me think. Pain does that to me.
So I ask, How do I change myself? How do I become what he wants?
I'd pray to God, but that's selfish and it would never happen... I'd remind myself everyday to stop doing whatever is wrong...but I've tried that. I'm out of ideas. I'm lost....God, I want to be perfect for him-and I'm far from it. What do I do??? I'm so confused. Please help...
I'm beginning to realize I can never be perfect.
Tiffatron9000 · Thu Mar 30, 2006 @ 02:20am · 3 Comments |