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I don't wanna get low anymore. It hurts to be low.
I feel like I can't be that low if I don't contemplate suicide right?
I would never do that. But I still feel so low sometimes.
For some reason I could hit but not cut. I don't get that not really.
I don't wanna fall too low again. Sometimes if I fall too low I think I will snap.
I've been unhappy a long time, but I've never fallen to rock bottom.
So thats a good thing right?
Yeah. I'm gonna be grateful for that.
I feel like there's a lot to live for externally, but not internally, if that makes sense.
I love my family, but a lot of days I feel like I don't love myself.
I'm tired of being low, but I don't know what to do to get back up.
It used to be some pretty hard lows, but not all the time. Now there's a tiny low every day.
I think I'm lonely, if my family is what brings me up, then I guess being all alone is whats eating at me. I was low at home too. But I feel like I'm losing my mind some days.
I don't wanna be low.
I wanna be happy. Blindly so. Stress, I can live with. It's these damn lows I can't handle.
I feel so empty, and worthless.
I might not want to kill myself, but that doesn't say anything about pain.
Some days that hair dryer starts looking real friendly again.