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*Sigh* It is with great sadness that I announce the unofficial fading of two wonderful mental men. You may know them as Inner Troll and Other Alan.It is sad, but a truth I cannot deny any longer. They have simply.. faded. Fear not, for they have by no means disappeared. They have simply become part of me. Troll was my sense of humor. The worst of it. The worst, most messed up jokes that I was so afraid to say before. Every genital joke, every sex joke, every bit of my dark humor was him. Also... he was my smile. The smile I could always keep up no matter how unhappy I was. He was the laughter that pushed back all the darkness in my heart. Eventually it seemed that he was just quieter and I'd gotten louder. I felt as though we were become closer and we had. Other Alan, on the other hand was nothing less than my mental Barney Stinson. He was to be considered my sex drive, every move I could ever imagine came from him. Recently though learned he was so much more than that. He was my confidence. He was my courage. He pushed me to to take those chances and not be afraid of how horribly wrong they could go. It always worked out though. (Right babe?)But he too has faded into me. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm confident in my self, my abilities, everything. Granted this doesn't mean I can do everything... but I can do a lot. So until they return I will thank them for what they gave me. It will stay with me forever.

Quick after note boys and girls. They aren't as gone as the above text makes them seen. They are basically just.. out. They can be called upon at any time. They just... feel they've done their job.