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This is one of those times when I tend to write more than others. Normally, as any one who knows me can tell you, I'm in either a good or at the least pleasant mood despite anything going on. However there are times when things become too much and I need some space to Vent or I just have Bad Days. Today... I'm having a BAD DAY.

My day begins not only with today but with a combination of a compiling series of bad events.

The week started out wonderfully, I had just gotten back from an increadible weekend with the love of my life. It was a weekend of passion, of love, of joys, of laughter and play and all those things two lovers can bring to one another. In short, it started out Increadibly.

Monday, I return to a long flight, tear filled untill next times, and a class with an exam I was hardly prepaired for. Then the night came, with no sleep and a cold bed to lay in and think about the coming week.

The next few days were a blur or lack of sleep, sickness and the bad events previously mentioned.
1) Working untill close, 1 or 2 am every night, for the rest of the week with class starting at 9:30 the next morning every night that week.
2) My wonderful mother Releases herself from a ... How to put this... Hospital for the Mentally Insane.
3) The person my mother had had staying at the house for her while she was gone is arrested, In her home, With her there. Naught to return, I have yet to find out what happened and I plan not too.
4) My mother re-admits herself to a DIFFERENT hospital.
5) The entire week is spent quietly with my love as she is sick, and so am I with the flu. This leads to quiet undiscussed tension.
6) Wednesday comes, and I find out my schedual for the next week is Monday 10AM to 10PM, Tuesday through Thursday, untill close. I am told this schedual will change as they know I have class monday morning and afternoon and they need someone else to work on Wednesday.
7) Paper is due Friday, a legal memorandum on a set event. I can't find any cases on it all week, Thursday night comes after I get out of work I plan an all nighter so I can get it done pass it in and get another good mark... Only one problem. Someone on my street decides it's a good idea to disconnect the entire internet assembly outside and steal some of the parts. Comcast can't come untill the morning to fix it. Friday morning, I feel like crap, not only because of the lack of the paper but because I've worked myself dry all week while being really sick.
8 ) Sunday is my friends 21st Birthday, an event of much planning and discussion. On that day, I am told they need me to work with no furhter commentaries after I specifically told them I could not work that day. Hence they grumble but accept. Then the kicker comes...

My best friend, my brother, the guy who has been there through everything with me and I with him... Lies to me. Tells me he has to work that afternoon (Sunday, his birthday) But he would be back after work. Instead he goes out with "His Friends" drinking. He Calls My Girlfriend at 5pm, and tells HER that he got out of work early and is off drinking with "His Friends", rather than calling to tell Me. She assumes this means I am with him, untill she calls me and finds that I'm still waiting for him to get out of work, this is at 6pm. She and I talk, or try to talk while I work on my homework to try and get the paper done to turn in today. She missreads my lack of focus as just not paying attention to her. She's still sick, I'm not anymore. Every attempt to make ammends and just have a nice night talking leads to either myself or her making a wrong comment or pushing at a touchy subject leading to both of us silently being on the phone and her being quiet on the other end, perhaps having found sleep, perhaps just acting to have found sleep so we won't have any more misunderstandings.
Now, I understand it's his birthday and he can do whatever the hell he wants. At 10 I call him, an hour before he supposidly get's out of work and he tries to tell me he got out of work and went out drinking "With his friends" and thinks nothing of it to tell me this. Slip of the tongue perhaps, but a slap in the face none-the-less. He tells me he would be back later and we would do what we planned before too late as he knew I had class in the morning. At 12:30am, 30 minutes after his birthday was over, I went to bed sending him a text message telling him so. 1:30 he comes in and knocks on my door. (We have appartments one below the other now after we both moved out.)
I had class in the morning, so I didn't answer and tried to find sleep. That and the last thing I would want to do is ruin his "Good Mood." Angry? Hurt? Maybe, but spitefull I am not, at least not to my friends.

Today... I find out I'm still scheudaled to work from 10-10 and I still have classes. My paper isn't done, nor anywhere near completion as I couldn't find any cases or set laws to help complete it. My "Bro" is upstairs sleeping, I don't want to call my love and risk awakening her if she is truly sleeping well, class is in an hour and a half and I don't have anything to show for it and I'm left sitting here looking at the party items and things I spent hours finding over the weekend for him and I and anyone else around to do sitting here on the floor unused.
Well to hell with him, I should have just gone in to work and at least gotten something out of yesterday other than arguments, hurt feelings and being completely and totally Blown Off.

Before I started writing this I was numb, and just frustrated. Now... I'm pissed off, tired, and I can feel the anger just building in my gut. Sick and tired of this s**t, I should just go back to being the loner I was before I ever let him in and had to deal with this bullshit. stressed

ON A SIDE NOTE I HATE ******** E-MOTES!
Make a list... 8 and ) becomes cool
Should be a button to turn off the damn things unless you purpously click the little thing on the side of the text block...