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Rest in Peace

This song and story are dedicated to my best friend. For once M'lady, let me rest in peace.

I died
So many years ago
But you can make me feel
Like it isn't so
And why you come to be with me
I think I finally know
mmm-mmm

I watched her from the shadows of the room as talked to her 'mate'. While she talked to him I felt a twinge somewhere that should be dead. What made him so much better? The fact that he could actually touch her? Hold her? The mirror behind me showed nothing of my being there. A sick reminder that in this world, I wasn't real. Yet when she speaks as though I'm there... I feel as though I -am- alive. She waved at me with a smile and covered up the phone with her hand, making a joke about her boyfriend. I force a smirk of my own and return the favor, only mocking her. She'll never understand.

You're scared
Ashamed of what you feel
And you can't tell the ones you love
You know they couldn't deal
Whisper in a dead man's ear
It doesn't make it real
That's great

I walk behind her as she bites her lip and looks back at me. I know her feelings for me... its apparent in her eyes and I know if I could only be there. If I could hold her then she'd take me without a second thought. I shake my head and she holds his [/i ]hand. I put a hand to my chest and grimace from the pain that lingers there. She casts me a worried glance but I wave her off and continue to lurk after them. He won't hurt her while I'm around.

But I don't wanna play
'Cause being with you touches me
More than I can say
And since I’m only dead to you
I’m saying stay away and
Let me rest in peace


"Reginald! What's wrong with you?" She screams at me from across the room. No one's home so now its 'safe' to talk to me. I turn away from her and rest my head on the wall. Why can't she understand that I don't want her with that man?!

"Leave me alone!" I shout before disappearing from the room, leaving her confused and I know hurt.

Let me rest in peace
Let me get some sleep
Let me take my love and bury it
In a hole 6-foot deep
I can lay my body down
But I can't find my, sweet release
So let me rest in peace


I storm to my hideaway and slaming my first into the wall and smashing all that lies within my writing room. Furry, jealousy, pain, hunger; they all ravage my body without mercy. This toture why do I put myself through this?! I stare at the horizon. I could leave, try again to move away from this pained love forever.

You know,
You got a willing slave
And You just love to play the thought
That you might misbehave
But Till you do,
I'm telling you
Stop visiting my grave
Let me rest in peace

I'm snapped out of those thoughts by her crying out. I can't resist, I have to go. My wings carry to her and to the problem. She's alone in the darkness. I sweap her up in my arms and hold her the best I can. She can't feel my touch but senses my presence and clams. She wants to return it. Wants to hold me the same way I hold her and yet she just pretends as though I never left. I sing to her until she finally falls asleep, forgetting it was ever dark. Once again anger eats away at my soul as his name is on her lips. I'm the one who's standing in front of you!

I know I should go
But I follow you like a man possessed
There's a traitor here beneath my breast
And it hurts me more than you've ever guessed
If my heart could beat, it would break my chest
but I can see you're unimpressed
So leave me be and

Even so I do not leave her side. I stand gaurd against her nightmares for the rest of the night. I rest my hands in my head and try to pretend that the warm salty tears are streaking down my face. I pull myself together and run my fingers through her hair. A fool's game.

Let me rest in peace
Let me get some sleep
Let me take my love and bury it
Im a hole 6-foot deep
I can lay my body down
But I can't find my sweet release
Let me rest in peace
Why won't you
Let me rest in peace?

I know that this fatal game will continue untl her death. Someday I will have to give her away but until then... I will follow her to the ends of the Earth. I love you, Kitten.