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URG!!! I HATE MY MOTHER!!! She doesn't get how much better things go when she's not here. She doesn't know how well things work when she's not getting into them. When anyone lets her in all she does is diss and make hell of it. That's it... if it's not an art... it has to be hell. scream
I wish she would just stay out of my school life... because she always brings me down and then I get a friggen road block because i feel stupid. She's wasting this year for me. I'm going to be an f*ing drop-out. I'll be laughed at when I go back to HS because I told all my friends I was getting ahead... going back isn't ahead. stare I know I can do this if she just left it up to me. But she refuses to do it. Not only does it depress me, drive me insane, and put me in a bad position... but it makes me think awful thoughts... like... killing myself because I'm not good enough.
My whole life all I've tried to do was be good enough for my parents... I doubt now that I'll ever see the day. They say their proud... and then they yell at me for something. My dad has learned to lay-off... but my mother hasn't. She thinks she's right and is the best ALL the time.