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I can't ******** take it no more! Somebody save me!
Everything in my life, I can't stand. I'm just so ******** pissed. I wish I did everything differnent in my life. I wish my dad didn't have ******** brain injury and was so ******** cruel to me! My mom like is jealous according to my grandma and she is a b***h and so hard on me. She takes everything out on me. Every night I lie in bed and cry myself to sleep wishing everything was different. I have been so depressed lately. Dave was my uncle, but he was acutally like my father, died March 22. I couldn't beleive it. I just got so cold and didn't care about anything. It was so depressing. I will never, EVER! Dave, I miss you so much and I wish you didn't have to die. I lost one of my good friends on gaia and it sucks. I wish one day she will forigve me. I will never forget all the good times we had. I found out that my dad is going to die by a physic. I know this sounds really really ignorant, but I wish he did because of all things her put me and my family through. I wish he does die. It is a matter of self reilef, I guess. His mom is a ******** b***h and my mom and her fight alot and hate each other. She calls my mom a b***h and other things behind her back. She hates me and my little brother. She wants us the street because she stole all of my mom's checks from the state. So I think we might be on the streets. I almost lost my house in November 2005. My mom needed 1200+ dollars to save it ad she found away to gather it, but I remember that day. I could of been in a foster home or on the street. We always get things shut off, too. We had Gas, water, you name it, it was shut off. I have so much anger and drepression in me that I just want someone to tell me it's okay. Someone to tell me that they love me and promise everything will be okay. I wish I new what it is like to be loved. </3 I want so bad to be accepted, but I can't. I'm very independent after what I have been through. I wish I could just run away and just forget about everything. I wish I can be forigven and I can have a normal life one day and have someone care about me for once. cry
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