Everyone has at least one memory of something bad that has happen when they were young. I've made it my choice to share with you one of my worst. About 13 years ago maybe even alittle further back than that I became a victim of sexual abuse. I was made into a b***h by my eldest brother. He made me suck him off when ever he could find enough time alone with me at home. It was degrading I suppose to say the least and is permeantly branded into my memory. I had only told my mother about this in the middle of summer 2005. I feel like I should be angry at myself for submitting to him but then again I accept that too because I knew if I tried to disobey then he would not hesitate to hurt me. I think what made it easier for him to do it morally would be the fact that he is only my half brother.
All in all at the very end I am who I am and even the things in my past that I wish were different helped to make me who I am to this day.
LordSilver · Tue Oct 17, 2006 @ 07:01pm · 5 Comments |