Dear Diary,
When I woke up this morning I couldn't help but feel completly and uderly stressed. It was four thirty and I got in the car in my pajamas and drove to the stupid morning meeting thirty minutes away from my house. Once I was there I was greeted by a leader who introduced herself as Cathy Wagner. She said that she was going to be helping me into my fat suit and cloths for the day. She would also be giving me maps to my job and anywhere else Patty may spend her day. She led me to a small room and soon I stood before the mirror in a pink shirt and jeans with the size XXlarge on the tags. She said that it was very believable and that most likly no one would even know who I was. I was given a scedual to my classes and a new backpack with books and other things Patty may use and headed off to school. At school I couldn't help but feel looked at, everyone stared at me as if it was illegal to walk down certain halls, to even galnce at couples that were making out and even if I stopped to ask where a class was I was ignored. I found myself desperatly looking for someone that was slightly strange looking to talk to... I was all alone and most of the classes Patty may have enjoyed... I didn't. Medical science, First aid, and other doctory classes were just so repulsivly, saddeningly, boreing... Well for my first day at least. I can see why Patty would feel so uncomfortable and insecure, people don't exactly rush over to be her best friend. However by the end of the day Patty had talked to a boy named Phillip Mcalister... He's tall and dorky but really sweet and understands alot in the classes where I have no clue, I hope Patty and I can befriend him because no one else seems as friendly as that kid and I'm getting scared of the glares. Work was a drag, people looked at me like most people at school had earlier and after work I just went back to the meeting place and changed. I stayed there the rest of the day sleeping on the couch, I guess I was a little depressed you know... I've never been glared at like that before. When the meeting started everyone seemed a little depressed, or weirded out by their day. Kelsie didn't join us because she was crying, aparently she had had a very tough day and had realized that Suzie was like any normal person... Just wanting to be treated normal... Just like Patty I guess, and Ike and Henry as well. Here were four very normal highschoolers taking on the lives of four teenagers that would do anything to be normal. I just wish that I had realized this before I spent my day cursing at the make-believe Patty.... Patty... If you really do exist out there.... I'm truly honestly sorry.
-Allison
Dear Diary,
I woke up this morning at two and took a cold shower. I then jogged to the center in my sweats at three thiry for three miles, I got there earlier then everyone else simply because I wasn't able to sleep. One of the leaders name Madison Alfrats took me to a small room and got me ready. Soon I was looking at a girl that had the same face as me but a rounded belly, obviesly pregnant. She wore black pants and a dark purple top. I packed Suzie's backpack and was ready to leave when everyone was arriving. Madison pulled me to the side and told me that she was going to come and meet me after school, she would be the social worker and her daughter would be Emily. Madison told me that Suzie was a terribly truthful person, if someone asked about her stomach or about Madison and Emily she would tell them the honest to god truth. I got in my car and drove to the new school... All my classes were strange, Drawing... Computer Animation... Advanced math... Seems like Suzie wanted to be an anmation artist of some sort. Maybe Suzie did have a plan... Maybe Suzie was going to get her life in order. I didn't realize the glaring until Health class, even my teacher ragged on me... Or Suzie... At lunch I sat alone and I could here people whispering the words slut and hore. One even said that I probably had more babies then his mother. They didn't even know Suzie.... Suzie could've been raped for all they knew. By the end of the day I had aquirred no new friends... No one stopped to talk to me, just whispers all around me... All day. After school I was greeted by Madison, dressed in a tight work suit on the phone with people. Emily pulled her hand from Madison's and ran to me and hugged me... She had been trained. You wouldn't believe how many people stopped to stare at us, they could guess what picture we were trying to send. The whispers started again, one boy walked past us and called me... Suzie... a slut. I put my hands over Emily's ears and glared after them. For a moment, I could understand why Suzie would want to leave the world. Emily, Madison, and I got in my car and I drove them back to the center. My day wasn't over however. I headed to work to waitress, luckly only my co-workers whispered about me. I guess the adults could understand what I... Suzie... Was going through. I managed to get through my first job and headed to my second. This was worse. My back ached and I was agsausted, more whispers. By the time I got to the center it was midnight and when I got into the changing room I fell right into a sob at the sight of agsausted SUzie in the mirror. Madison excused me from the meeting and I changed and went home, my eyes still wet from the tears... I had a feeling it was going to be harder to do this then I originally thought.
- Kelsie
Dear Diary,
This morning was definatly interesting. I drove to the Center early this morning and was greeted by a man named Ian Merrik, he led me to a small room where cloths had been layed out. I changed quickly into the baggy black pants decorated with chains and ironed on symbols that meant something. The shirt I wore was pretty tight and had the Jackass symbol on it. I walked out and Ian took me to a chair where he put on make-up (All black)... Then put a very realistic wig on my head and pulled a beanie on over that and gave me a big black sweater. When I pulled my head through the sweater I stood before the mirror starring at Ike, eye to eye... I could help being a little frightened at what I had transformed into. Ian handed me a black backpack filled with books and binders and I headed off to school. I had let lent Kelsie my car because she had jobs to go to, so I caught the city bus and was at school in no time. I went through my classes like everyday. However, I got lost a few times... When I would try to catch someone to ask where I should be they ran off. I guess it was because of my appearence... But what was Ike going to do to them anyways? Eat them? He wasn't a cannibal... He was the farthest from it. I met a few people. A girl and her twin brother. Lillith and Killer.... Their real names were Beatrice and Harold but they absolutly hated their names... They loved Ike's name. They were gothic of course, dark cloths and make-up... They were scary to me and many people that saw them... But inside... When I got to know them... I couldn't help but realize... They were human, they had dreams and goals and even hearts. After school we went to the train tracks and walked on them all the way to the next town. We then got lunch and walked back. Lillith tripped a few times and everytime she fell Killer helped her up in a heartbeat, they were really close for twins. When it got dark we parted and I got on the city bus and road to the center. Kelsie was crying when I got there, she ran to her room before I could talk to her. I changed and joined the meeting. Barly able to speak because I didn't know what to say. It seemed everyone's day was worse then mine. I wondered if I was going to get any kind of bad experience... Maybe I would be the lucky one... Maybe Ike and I would get through this without being like Kelsie, leaveing crying, or have the mortified looks like the ones on Alison and Leon's faces. After that I left and got home without a scratch on me.
-Peter
Dear Diary,
I stayed up pretty late last night crying. I came home and my mom told me we were going to a hotel. I put my little sisters and nine year old brother in the car and when my mom got in we drove to the closest hotel and stayed there. I got up early and left. I rode the bus, leaving my car for my mom and the munchkins. I saw Peter on the bus and sat next to him... We didn't talk much as I was thinking and he was wondering how the day was going to be.. We were nervous as hell. Once at the center I was greeted by a man named Gabreil Mathews, he took me to a room and handed me a load of cloths and I got changed. He did my hair and handed me a backpack and a picture of the actor who was going to be "Fred". I stood in front of the mirror for a long time starring at the man opposite me. He wore a pink collor short sleeve shirt with little green stripes. He wore kahkies and his hair was slicked back but looked good. I was headed off to school in a grey van and when I got there I could see all the looks. It was as if they were little lazer beams cutting through my body. When I met Fred I have to admit it was very strange to hold another mans hand... No matter how gay we both looked. Fred and Henry had many good conversations it seemed and got many weird looks from everyone all over. Henry's classes were interesting. Jewlery and Fashion classes... Even an acting class. They were all incredibly... Interesting. Henry was approached by a football player when he was walking down the hall with Fred. "You can be a homo for all I care but don't walk down the hall showing it off!" He yelled and tore Fred and Henry's hands apart, "It's digusting!" He yelled and walked away. Fred and Henry were greatly hurt by this and parted at that point... Off to their classes without another word. It left me to wonder why someone would to that. GIrls and guys held hands in the halls all the time and no one ever did that to them... What was wrong with Fred and Henry's love? That was my question... Why couldn't Henry and Fred love each other? After school I went to work and then to the center. Seeing Kelsie cry like that put my life to a hault, and into a horribly distraught mood. I changed and went to the meeting. After the meeting I went home but when I got there my car was in flames. Inside were beer bottles and a lighter. Mom, my sisters, Billy, and my dad were inside. I went in and grabbed my mom, sisters, and Billy and even though my dad ran after us I dragged my family to the bus station. I handed Ellie, my littlest sister who is two, to my mother and Gave Shelby's, my other sister who is five, hand to Billy. I gave my mom my wallet and cell phone and told her to go to a hotel, and call the center when she was safe. I wasn't going to stay with her because I didn't want to let her see me cry. As soon as I got to the center I started to cry. She called and told me she was safe at a hotel, that brought up my spirits. I decided that I was going to stay the night at the center on the couch and maybe tomarrow would be better.
-Leon
When I woke up this morning I couldn't help but feel completly and uderly stressed. It was four thirty and I got in the car in my pajamas and drove to the stupid morning meeting thirty minutes away from my house. Once I was there I was greeted by a leader who introduced herself as Cathy Wagner. She said that she was going to be helping me into my fat suit and cloths for the day. She would also be giving me maps to my job and anywhere else Patty may spend her day. She led me to a small room and soon I stood before the mirror in a pink shirt and jeans with the size XXlarge on the tags. She said that it was very believable and that most likly no one would even know who I was. I was given a scedual to my classes and a new backpack with books and other things Patty may use and headed off to school. At school I couldn't help but feel looked at, everyone stared at me as if it was illegal to walk down certain halls, to even galnce at couples that were making out and even if I stopped to ask where a class was I was ignored. I found myself desperatly looking for someone that was slightly strange looking to talk to... I was all alone and most of the classes Patty may have enjoyed... I didn't. Medical science, First aid, and other doctory classes were just so repulsivly, saddeningly, boreing... Well for my first day at least. I can see why Patty would feel so uncomfortable and insecure, people don't exactly rush over to be her best friend. However by the end of the day Patty had talked to a boy named Phillip Mcalister... He's tall and dorky but really sweet and understands alot in the classes where I have no clue, I hope Patty and I can befriend him because no one else seems as friendly as that kid and I'm getting scared of the glares. Work was a drag, people looked at me like most people at school had earlier and after work I just went back to the meeting place and changed. I stayed there the rest of the day sleeping on the couch, I guess I was a little depressed you know... I've never been glared at like that before. When the meeting started everyone seemed a little depressed, or weirded out by their day. Kelsie didn't join us because she was crying, aparently she had had a very tough day and had realized that Suzie was like any normal person... Just wanting to be treated normal... Just like Patty I guess, and Ike and Henry as well. Here were four very normal highschoolers taking on the lives of four teenagers that would do anything to be normal. I just wish that I had realized this before I spent my day cursing at the make-believe Patty.... Patty... If you really do exist out there.... I'm truly honestly sorry.
-Allison
Dear Diary,
I woke up this morning at two and took a cold shower. I then jogged to the center in my sweats at three thiry for three miles, I got there earlier then everyone else simply because I wasn't able to sleep. One of the leaders name Madison Alfrats took me to a small room and got me ready. Soon I was looking at a girl that had the same face as me but a rounded belly, obviesly pregnant. She wore black pants and a dark purple top. I packed Suzie's backpack and was ready to leave when everyone was arriving. Madison pulled me to the side and told me that she was going to come and meet me after school, she would be the social worker and her daughter would be Emily. Madison told me that Suzie was a terribly truthful person, if someone asked about her stomach or about Madison and Emily she would tell them the honest to god truth. I got in my car and drove to the new school... All my classes were strange, Drawing... Computer Animation... Advanced math... Seems like Suzie wanted to be an anmation artist of some sort. Maybe Suzie did have a plan... Maybe Suzie was going to get her life in order. I didn't realize the glaring until Health class, even my teacher ragged on me... Or Suzie... At lunch I sat alone and I could here people whispering the words slut and hore. One even said that I probably had more babies then his mother. They didn't even know Suzie.... Suzie could've been raped for all they knew. By the end of the day I had aquirred no new friends... No one stopped to talk to me, just whispers all around me... All day. After school I was greeted by Madison, dressed in a tight work suit on the phone with people. Emily pulled her hand from Madison's and ran to me and hugged me... She had been trained. You wouldn't believe how many people stopped to stare at us, they could guess what picture we were trying to send. The whispers started again, one boy walked past us and called me... Suzie... a slut. I put my hands over Emily's ears and glared after them. For a moment, I could understand why Suzie would want to leave the world. Emily, Madison, and I got in my car and I drove them back to the center. My day wasn't over however. I headed to work to waitress, luckly only my co-workers whispered about me. I guess the adults could understand what I... Suzie... Was going through. I managed to get through my first job and headed to my second. This was worse. My back ached and I was agsausted, more whispers. By the time I got to the center it was midnight and when I got into the changing room I fell right into a sob at the sight of agsausted SUzie in the mirror. Madison excused me from the meeting and I changed and went home, my eyes still wet from the tears... I had a feeling it was going to be harder to do this then I originally thought.
- Kelsie
Dear Diary,
This morning was definatly interesting. I drove to the Center early this morning and was greeted by a man named Ian Merrik, he led me to a small room where cloths had been layed out. I changed quickly into the baggy black pants decorated with chains and ironed on symbols that meant something. The shirt I wore was pretty tight and had the Jackass symbol on it. I walked out and Ian took me to a chair where he put on make-up (All black)... Then put a very realistic wig on my head and pulled a beanie on over that and gave me a big black sweater. When I pulled my head through the sweater I stood before the mirror starring at Ike, eye to eye... I could help being a little frightened at what I had transformed into. Ian handed me a black backpack filled with books and binders and I headed off to school. I had let lent Kelsie my car because she had jobs to go to, so I caught the city bus and was at school in no time. I went through my classes like everyday. However, I got lost a few times... When I would try to catch someone to ask where I should be they ran off. I guess it was because of my appearence... But what was Ike going to do to them anyways? Eat them? He wasn't a cannibal... He was the farthest from it. I met a few people. A girl and her twin brother. Lillith and Killer.... Their real names were Beatrice and Harold but they absolutly hated their names... They loved Ike's name. They were gothic of course, dark cloths and make-up... They were scary to me and many people that saw them... But inside... When I got to know them... I couldn't help but realize... They were human, they had dreams and goals and even hearts. After school we went to the train tracks and walked on them all the way to the next town. We then got lunch and walked back. Lillith tripped a few times and everytime she fell Killer helped her up in a heartbeat, they were really close for twins. When it got dark we parted and I got on the city bus and road to the center. Kelsie was crying when I got there, she ran to her room before I could talk to her. I changed and joined the meeting. Barly able to speak because I didn't know what to say. It seemed everyone's day was worse then mine. I wondered if I was going to get any kind of bad experience... Maybe I would be the lucky one... Maybe Ike and I would get through this without being like Kelsie, leaveing crying, or have the mortified looks like the ones on Alison and Leon's faces. After that I left and got home without a scratch on me.
-Peter
Dear Diary,
I stayed up pretty late last night crying. I came home and my mom told me we were going to a hotel. I put my little sisters and nine year old brother in the car and when my mom got in we drove to the closest hotel and stayed there. I got up early and left. I rode the bus, leaving my car for my mom and the munchkins. I saw Peter on the bus and sat next to him... We didn't talk much as I was thinking and he was wondering how the day was going to be.. We were nervous as hell. Once at the center I was greeted by a man named Gabreil Mathews, he took me to a room and handed me a load of cloths and I got changed. He did my hair and handed me a backpack and a picture of the actor who was going to be "Fred". I stood in front of the mirror for a long time starring at the man opposite me. He wore a pink collor short sleeve shirt with little green stripes. He wore kahkies and his hair was slicked back but looked good. I was headed off to school in a grey van and when I got there I could see all the looks. It was as if they were little lazer beams cutting through my body. When I met Fred I have to admit it was very strange to hold another mans hand... No matter how gay we both looked. Fred and Henry had many good conversations it seemed and got many weird looks from everyone all over. Henry's classes were interesting. Jewlery and Fashion classes... Even an acting class. They were all incredibly... Interesting. Henry was approached by a football player when he was walking down the hall with Fred. "You can be a homo for all I care but don't walk down the hall showing it off!" He yelled and tore Fred and Henry's hands apart, "It's digusting!" He yelled and walked away. Fred and Henry were greatly hurt by this and parted at that point... Off to their classes without another word. It left me to wonder why someone would to that. GIrls and guys held hands in the halls all the time and no one ever did that to them... What was wrong with Fred and Henry's love? That was my question... Why couldn't Henry and Fred love each other? After school I went to work and then to the center. Seeing Kelsie cry like that put my life to a hault, and into a horribly distraught mood. I changed and went to the meeting. After the meeting I went home but when I got there my car was in flames. Inside were beer bottles and a lighter. Mom, my sisters, Billy, and my dad were inside. I went in and grabbed my mom, sisters, and Billy and even though my dad ran after us I dragged my family to the bus station. I handed Ellie, my littlest sister who is two, to my mother and Gave Shelby's, my other sister who is five, hand to Billy. I gave my mom my wallet and cell phone and told her to go to a hotel, and call the center when she was safe. I wasn't going to stay with her because I didn't want to let her see me cry. As soon as I got to the center I started to cry. She called and told me she was safe at a hotel, that brought up my spirits. I decided that I was going to stay the night at the center on the couch and maybe tomarrow would be better.
-Leon
