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I seem to have a big problem with controlling emotions/myself. Why? I don't know. But if I'm sad, I must cry. There's no way to stop it. No matter where I am or what the situation is. And people probably think I'm a crybaby. Maybe, but what I'm crying about is probably more than they think. One simple situation can lead to a complex problem in my mind. Also, my emotions usually change very easily. I'm the happiest person in the world one second, and when someone does something little to piss me off, I'm mad or depressed the rest of the day. Maybe longer or shorter, depending on what happens. And when I'm in a mood, I can't imagine life in any other light. I try really hard, think of songs, good times, SOMETHING and it doesn't work. Call me bipolar or something, but just so you know, I don't believe in drugs, chemical imbalances, or other things that affect a once happy normal mind. And about religion... Well I am a Catholic, but not openly so. One reason is I have not been Catholic my whole life, and my knowledge is slim therefore I am not prepared to make a comeback if someone attacks my beliefs. Plus, religion's too personal for me. It's like someone reading your journal (lol!). But here I feel more comfortable because I don't know who I'm talking to and it's not face to face. But I am religious, and it gets to me when other people sing Christian (I mean modern Christian) songs and talk about an aspect of religion. I'm just not comfortable. And someone might overhear me and think I'm a religious freak. And someone also might hear me say something that isn't true because of my lack of knowledge. But hey, religion's a personal thing. Even my priest said, "Don't be a hipocrite and parade around a grocery store with ashes on your head, go home and stay with your family, religion should be personal" or something to that extent. Sure, partially the reason why I'm Catholic is because of my family (not household family). But I can believe in it easier than others. It has a backbone, not just the Bible. It is sacred, has rituals, which makes me feel more into it. It is less changed from the original Christians than the Protestants (protestors...) or other "non-denominational" Christians. But don't get me wrong, I respect them and everything, but not when they say my religion is "made up" and just outright "wrong" or "untrue".