I find it funny that someone can be completely mad at another individual, see that they're online, and just freeze. Say you knew the person for about a year, got into a huge fight, both getting equally pissed, and then just stopped talking to eachother all together. You go to sleep pissed, never thinking that you were wrong, telling yourself that no matter what, you will not apologize. You even have your good night away message on the messenger that contains their screen name on with some random lyrics you got from a song that fit your mood, and yet you make sure that if they read it, they would know it's for them, and them alone. The next morning you wake up and get on your computer, seeing that they put up a lyric away message as well, yet you're not sure if they left it for you or just left it because that song happened to be stuck in their head. You can't help but listen to the song and feel that those lyrics are being sung directly at you by that person, which almost makes your heart sink. It was like over night, someone cast a spell on you, making you feel horrible for something that you still don't see yourself as doing something wrong in. You leave for school, or work, or just to go somewhere, and find that you can't stop thinking about what went on in that fight, trying to remember every word that was said between both you and that individual. When you get home, you get back on your computer, and look at the messenger friends list, only to see his or her screen name on there and you just stop and stare, wondering if he or she is doing the same thing at this very moment, or if they were thinking about you all day, just as you were thinking about them. You find that the lingering feeling of you wanting to IM them gets stronger and stronger, but you still don't want to break down and be the one to IM them first because then it seems that you're the weaker inidividual and makes you seem, in your eyes, that you were the one who did something wrong, when you still think it's not your fault at the same time. Now, your stomach feels empty and you get that weird upset stomach feeling that's filled with nerves, still staring at that name, wondering who it will be to break down first. You double click on that person's screen name, just to see if their status at the bottom is that they're typing you a message, yet you don't even touch the keyboard because you don't want to send them that signal...the one that says you are trying to send them a message...It's like you want the problem solved, but at the same time you want to be mad and not talk to that person, but don't want to throw away your friendship either. Friendship...It's a funny thing.
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TheKnightOfNightmares
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If you don't have anything against this person anymore, I'd say to just talk to them. (Though...it sounds quite like you're mad at them.) If they don't want to talk to you...then you don't have to talk again. At least you know.
...I dunneh. XD