Honestly, I'm just here making yet another bullshit rant about life that would most likely seem meaningless towards a lot of people... well anywho. life has changed for me.. and quite drastically might I add. I used to be this supposedly nice guy who's always hyper and carefree. I mean the only concerns I really had were my love life and my college life. WOW has life really changed since January 2006. I've realized what it's like to lose everything I have and what it's like to be slapped across the face by the most unsuspecting people, that and losing the people I truly care for. it's surprising what can happen. One day people around you can be your friends and the next day everyone you thought you knew just easily betrays you as if you meant nothing to them and all you were was just chopped liver in their eyes. it sucks really but I can't complain people have had it much worse, well just as all the negative things in my life have happened there are also good things as well...in fact there are grand things that have happened. I mean I've discovered what true friendship really is, I've felt what true love really feels like, I feel what it's like to earn a lot of money, and I've even been drunk a couple of times. some things I've changed for the better: for instance now I stand up for myself more often when I need to, I know when I need to stay out of the dramatic idiosyncrasies of life. and I feel a hell of a lot wiser than I used to be. the only downsides in fact are that I still don't quite know where I belong and what I will become 10 years from now but I'm sure the answers will soon come to me eventually. that and I've picked up the bad habit of smoking... something I need to put a stop to before I get worse... but yea. I don't know whats in store for me now. I don't know what will happen to me. all I know is that I'll just have to learn from my mistakes and move on to become a better person. my journey for happiness still continues and it won't stop until I find it... or maybe even death. till then... I just gotta keep moving in linfe and become more of a better person that I ever was.
 half_ghost · Sun Feb 04, 2007 @ 07:40am · 0 Comments |
