A replacement... I was a replacement... A ******** replacement!! Well if you wanted me to substitute... Maybe I should go Find someone I don't even know And maybe something will happen to me. But I know. You wouldn't care. You never cared. You cared about the person so like me But never me. I was them in your eyes. How blind I was. I want to slap you. I want to bite you until you bleed. I want to tear you limb from limb. I want to kill you. And then tell you how much you hurt me. But you know. You're not even sorry. "Love..." I doubt we ever had that. Good thing I found somebody else. You're a let-down, boy. A complete let-down. All you do is get me down. Can't escape. I need release. Not from you. From those feelings I had. Friends...I can bear that. But this betrayal? Never. Do you realise how sensitive I am? I'm hypersensitive. Everything negative is a bullet in my heart YOU were a bullet in my heart And you better ******** understand I'm not letting you abandon me And expect me to get over it You're ******** staying around Till you repay me all the damage And the entire eleven months. Because all I ever wanted Was for you to be proud of me And tell me you didn't want anything to happen to me. Look out for me like a brother It used to be lover But no longer can that be I'm not a ******** child. Not a little kid. I've been out there. I've ********. I've tried to die. I've felt dead on the inside, and I've been sick in the head. Stop insulting me It hurts Because you were my age once And you felt the same way What if someone had told you After all you'd been through and considered yourself That you were a ******** child who needed to "learn"? You'd be damned ******** mad, Scotty. That's what you make me. Mad. Insane. Willing to murder. I've been on breaking points Moments where I want to launch at another person Snap their neck in two. Break them. For ever doubting and hurting me. And yet I keep you around? Why? Because I want you to say You appreciate me. You respect me. You're proud. But you never do. And you never will.
Sami-Hikari · Fri Mar 09, 2007 @ 11:49pm · 0 Comments |