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Steffers
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Posted: Fri Jan 20, 2006 @ 10:51pm

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	DUN DUN DUUUUUN! MUWAHAHAA. My brother just talked to my Dad.. and he got his station! Huzzah! He's been stationed in Okinawa, Japan! Me and my mom are going to start saving up so we can go visit him <3 HUZZAH!! :happehhappeh: Woot woot.. I can't stop spazzing out. Wheeeeee. x'3 Must do homework, will edit this later.

Posted: Thu Jan 19, 2006 @ 09:26pm

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	FAGGOTRY!! [EDIT] Hm. Ya. I put my edit up at the top because I felt like it. Fools. Haha. I feel like drawing, but my WACOM doesnt seem to want to hook up! Blaah! Haha. I'm gunna get a picture of myself in my Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles headband.. why? Because.. I luff it and it ROCKS! TMNT Kicks all a. Same with DWD. Oh, and DT. You can't beat the classics. x:< YOU CAN'T. I bet you can't name ONE CARTOON TODAY that is better then the ones I just listed. I'm gunna draw now. Toodlez <3 ----------------------------------- owo; Ya.. SURPRISE BUTT SEX! Haha. I'm uberly cold.. and tired. But I don't want to take a nap.. Well I do. But I can't. I need to work on my Application form again. Essays questions. &/3 Blahdeblah...blah. My skin is all silky smoooooth. I think my conditioner did that.. AH! Haha.. It's supposed to have a lotion thingy in it. So. Ya. I haven't eaten yet today.. I don't want to though. I accidentally got some shampoo in my mouth (I'm intelligent, I know. Bite me.) so now I feel even more nauseous then before. Phooey. Hm. Ya. I need to take a chiiiiill piiiiiill. I'm a spasmasouras. RARH. A loaded God Complex, ck it and PULL it. &3 Haha. I'm obbsessed. uwu;; Ladeda. Gotta' go dry my hair. I might edit this faggy thing later. -w-; Why? Because I have no life. HA. HA. Ta.

Steffers
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Posted: Thu Jan 19, 2006 @ 08:44am

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	Journal Entry #8775782668 Jan. 18th Haha, I'm so pathetic. Third entry in one day! Lovely, no? Ya, well.. I'm bored, sick and paranoid.. So I can't fall asleep. Dandy, no? Muur. Having issues again. I need to just.. I don't know. Kill it. Yes. That's what needs to be done. -w-; I don't use it, I don't pay attention to it.. why not kill it? I mean, along with it's uselessness all it does is lie. I'm not who it portrays. I am not that person. I have have, and I never will. So.. it dies. Was working on my Application form a little bit more, thinking how I was going to go about writing these short essay questions.. and I couldn't help but feel a hard TUG. I mean, ya.. I'm going to have a Forensics class available.. an opportunity for a higher edumacation.. and a new start. But.. I will have to leave all my friends. Not completly, but.. still. I won't see them everyday. I will be losing all comfort that I once had. But I guess it's just time to moveon, ya know? Not from the people.. but from the memory. Start anew. And man.. do I need to start fresh. Maybe.. maybe just maybe this will be the one thing that helps me change. Maybe I won't have to kill it? Maybe I can finally glance at it, give me something to look forward to. I'm sleepy. I think I am just going to suck it up and go to bed. I'm not going to let paranoia keep me from sleep. 3< Until NEXT time...

Posted: Thu Jan 19, 2006 @ 05:34am

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	Haha, I laugh at you. owO; Eh. Not really. Not in a laughing mood. ] : Even though I am.. Oh well. Sometimes you just have to laugh at your own stupidity to make yourself feel better. Hardy har har. Hm. Ya. Well. I needed to take a break from my homework.. even though I haven't really started. Blaaaaah. D\| Gunna do my homework in a few minutes. Foosh... Can't stop coughing. @_@; My eyes are all watery. Oh well. Toodlez.

Steffers
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Posted: Thu Jan 19, 2006 @ 12:26am

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	Ick. Came home early. Mom is pissed. Can't sleep anymore. Listening to 3 Doors Down. I like this song. Makes me feel less angry... even though it's an angry song itself. Ironic, no? Gr. I don't really want my mom to come home today. Well, I do of course. But when I called her and asked her if I could come home, before she hung up she said, "We'll talk about this when I get home." Kinda' freaks me out. Buut, I found my Advil. So I think I might go take some. I've still got a headache. But I don't feel as nausious. That eased up a little bit. Chest pains.. not so much. Bit by bit. Gunna' go curl up on the couch and watch Princess Mononoke. I'm awake so you can call if you want.. See ya.

Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2006 @ 11:31pm

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	Mirror Mirror on the Wall, who's the dumbest of them all? Let me out; set me free. I'm falling quickly; Just let my mind be. You are eating away what used to be me, So you can't process; so you can't see? But I can't just stop; I just can't see. I'm falling quickly; Just leave my mind be. Let me have my pleasure; I just can't leave you be. You ask me how I can stand; how I can stand to be me. It's very quite simple; Only a matter of destroying the key. Let me have my pleasure; I just can't leave you be. -~- I write these poems not out of depression, but out of emotional expression. Not all will be sad and bring tears to your eyes. Some will bring you relief.. a gleeful sigh. Please do not worry over these suicidal words. And please just do not fret. Some poems I might write.. I may soon regret. But this current moment, this current time allows me to write.. to write out this simple rhyme. This was merely a warning, a word to the wise. I use my forms of writing to kill the feelings in which I despise. You don't have to read them, you don't really have to care. Just please do not pester and give a nasty stare. This is for my own therapy, an escape from the real deal. A deal which I'm sure was made by the devil finalized with his bloody seal. Enough of my rambling, I must be getting off. More poems are to be written, more steam to be let off. -~- Sometimes I think of letting go, and never looking back. And never moving foreword so there'd never be a past. Easier to Run I feel kinda like crap. Need to take some Advil and take a nap.. after Triston and Isolde. Haha. ><; I'm a loser. There really is something wrong with me.

Steffers
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Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2006 @ 05:02am

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	Whooooooooosh.. Foosh <3 Today was fun.. I had fun. It's it NOT Beast Boy. It's NIGHT CRAWLER.. Or walker.. or some verb I can't remember. T.T Bah.. my printer won't work either. @_@; So GRRR. ><; I'm gunna go wander and post round' the forums. Toodlez.

Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2006 @ 06:33pm

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	Roses Are Red Roses are red, Violets are blue. Aids are contagious, So watch who you screw. Donchya' just LOVE Spanish books and what lovely poems they can bring you? [EDIT] Hm. Ya. Just been thinking. Who's to tell us how we are supposed to live? I mean.. with so many things going on how do we really know if there is someone there watching us or caring for us? The world is a busy place. It seems physically impossible for someone to be watching every single person. Some people just slip into the cracks. If someone feels that they are no longer needed, who's to say they aren't? Who's to say they are? How can you actually tell someone of their future or what they could just possibly bring? You can't.. because no one knows. But people say t anyway. Because it's sad when people have these feelings of worthless-ness. It's just not fun. We will always try and protect the people we love. Who wouldn't want to protect the ones they love? I mean it's in instict. But.. ya. No one really knows.. Ya. I'm done. And I've successfully confused myself. I wanted to make a point out of all of that, but.. I forgot it in the midst of writing the damn thing. OH! I remember now. Don't be sad when someone you love dies or kills themselves. They believed that it was their time to go. Yes.. be sad. But don't blame yourself or.. ********. Can't remember. I'll finish later.

Steffers
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2006 @ 10:46pm

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	HUR!!! Owo This.. is.. Stepi. XD Bwahahaah.. >>; I luff Panda.. like uber much. Ha..

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