About me
♥§Forget me not....though I am gone....'Cause forever is a long time to remember.♥§
☺♥§○Öτ♥•Welcome to my profile and get to know me, not what you think of me. Read about who I am in my journal entry or just ask me questions. Do not press my buttons with your presumptuousness, or you will face my wrath. I enjoy meeting people who will talk to me and not leave me in a hallow grave to wait for a reply of some sort that will NEVER come. I prefer many things but won't tell you for fear of hurting your feelings. I don't have many friends due to the fact it seems we all go our separate ways eventually, but I do hope to make life-lasting friends like I have done with a few. (-^ w ^-)/ I've also been here and there lately BUT have been coming on everyday because of a certain friend, so I can safely say I'll be here. That's all for now and remember: want to know about me, then check my journal.☺♥§○Öτ♥•
♥§Live in the present.....
because tomorrow may never come...So live this moment with all you have and no regrets.♥§QUOTES BY ME:
"Don't be a rich man showing his riches to the poor."
"What makes you feel means it matters."
"Think of the future but live now."
"What you can't do is the only thing you can do."
"Even the smartest of people are the true idiots."
Tomorrow is another day for you and me but not technically others or not even us. Most of us won't know whether our time is cut short when we choose to live, or we won't know someone who's decided to cut life short because it was their wish and some of us are lucky to live life to what we want it be and die the way we knew we were going to. Look to the future but still think of now. Make a wish and even if it doesn't come true, you still have dreams and maybe someone out there.
*Sigh*
*Note: Sometimes only you can save yourself when everything seems hopeless.
7/09/13
A Way Out
I sometimes feel suffocated in the world surrounding me like there is no way out. Nothing escapes, not even light. It is the feeling of living in your own black hole. No matter what I do, there just seems to be no exit available. The walls that trap me in seem to move closer lessening the so very little space I had in the first place. My claustrophobic mind wants to lose all control, and my anxious heart just wants to end it all. Is there nowhere for me to go? I can only contemplate but never act. My cowardice prevents me from doing anything I find will change my course in life and harm myself. I think I'm happy, but am I truly? I''m trapped in a cage I built myself. Someone, please save me. As I think of this, I know deep in my soul that only I can save myself and leave this man-made prison. I must stand up, change my ways of thinking, and hold my head up high. I will find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Wait for me because I'll eventually be there. I just hope to see you on the other side, my new beginning.
I sometimes feel suffocated in the world surrounding me like there is no way out. Nothing escapes, not even light. It is the feeling of living in your own black hole. No matter what I do, there just seems to be no exit available. The walls that trap me in seem to move closer lessening the so very little space I had in the first place. My claustrophobic mind wants to lose all control, and my anxious heart just wants to end it all. Is there nowhere for me to go? I can only contemplate but never act. My cowardice prevents me from doing anything I find will change my course in life and harm myself. I think I'm happy, but am I truly? I''m trapped in a cage I built myself. Someone, please save me. As I think of this, I know deep in my soul that only I can save myself and leave this man-made prison. I must stand up, change my ways of thinking, and hold my head up high. I will find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Wait for me because I'll eventually be there. I just hope to see you on the other side, my new beginning.
Don't spit at me! >:o
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I always had those re-useable sports drinks types.
Probably would've been a good idea to bring in new, unopened bottles, buuuutttt my inner Asian screams it's too expensive
Water break, meaning, I'll just go to the shops across the road for the rest of the lesson because I'm sure they won't miss my loud dying in the corner of the classroom.
/whispers/ I left mine at home for studying and just used someone else's while in class I'm terrible
Ahhh, school really did suck, huh.
But I guess I kinda do miss it a bit, only because I had pretty good teachers with pretty good classes, save maybe one or two of them.
UGH.
ASSISTANT TEACHERS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE THE COOL ONES.
Calling us out and being the teacher's watchdog?
Pfffft no thank you; go to another class that I don't have please.
PILLOW FORT!!!!!
I'm all for this idea.
Yes.
Perfect.
/whispers/ I'm already a neet.
But not actually equal because they spoil the hell outta my brother
I-
HUH???!?!?!?!??
THAT WAS INSULTING???
I DIDN'T MEAN TO INSULT YOU WAAAH
-runs away-
I have a lot of fun with this tactical business.
I am the army's tactician, after all.
Have to agree with you there, though.
Half the time, I'm just battling undead warriors and the like.
BUT I'VE ALREADY FINISHED THE MAIN GAME!!!
I still have some dlc maps to do, though.
So I'll get to that later.
Indeed.
maniacal laughter
Ugh, my life.
Never brought water to school because I was scared it would leak in my bag and we hardly ever had cough drops at home and I just.... couldn't be bothered to buy them.
Or I could've just gone to get water and stayed there.... for an extra 20 minutes or so.....
I had some pretty chill teachers.
In music especially, most days I'd be too lazy to take my book out of my bag (... or even bring the book to school in the first place), so I'd just pull out my iPod and start taking notes on there.
The teacher would occasionally look over in my direction to see if I was actually working or not, but I was a good student in that class, so my teacher was never suspicious of me again.
....
:c
Now I miss that class.
I'M MISSING SCHOOL???? WHAT IS THIS SORCERY???
Ahh, really?
Damn, that sucks.
Like, my teachers would usually do that with phones, but as long as whatever music device you're listening to doesn't distract you too much, they usually give you a bit of leeway.
/hides at the back of class under a table/ CAMOUFLAGE
Yeah.
Blah.
Social butterfly, she is.
Not me though.
I just like to stay home and avoid face to face contact with everything and everyone.
Yeeeaaaah, "equally".
>:C
UM.
UMMM??
I DON'T REALLY KNOW???
THEY'RE IN COLOURFUL AND SHINY WRAPPERS THOUGH??
THE OUTER COATING IS MILK CHOCOLATE BUT THE CENTER VARIES ON WHICH FLAVOUR YOU PICK???
I HAVE USED THEM ALL AND I'VE RECLASSED THEM A BUNCH OF TIMES SO THAT MY ARMY WILL BE UNBEATABLE! C:<
Nuclear warfare, huh?
... Would flying units work?
They could fly over the danger zone and drop in from the sky??
I could have a few snipers riding on flying units too.
My sorcerers have a really long ranged attack, so they could stay in a safe zone and probably still hit the targets on the front lines??
I-
...
Why am I talking about this.
Do you understand what I'm talking about???
I need to leave these in game tactics for the actual game ahsjfkdhsjalfd
A really long hiatus.
It really is, huh...
Yes.
Perfect.
/whispers/ also the power of the internet ...and anime
I was made to go to school when I was sick and I would cough up a storm every five minutes that the teacher would have to stop the lesson, look at me and go "A-are you okay? Do you need a moment?"
UM YES I DO.
SORRY FOR INTERRUPTING, IT'S JUST MY TEACHER DOESN'T BELIEVE THAT I'M SICK BECAUSE I CAN'T ALWAYS BRING IN A DOCTOR'S CERTIFICATE.
People are extremely stingy. >:c
But I can type way faster?????
Maaaan, when I try to write fast, I can't even read what it says later on, it's so messy.
Pfffffft I always have electronics on me.
I'mma slip in these earphones whether they like it or not.
/whispers/ because they're black... and my hair is black... PERFECT CAMOUFLAGE
Umm I don't know? I mean they can take care of themselves just fine? Dad still has a full time job, mum has a part time job???
She has work and a lot of friends.
At least, I'd assume so.
Aww, that's nice.
My parents would turn the same situation around, being, since their other children didn't get it, none of their future children will get it either. .___.
I know D;
DDD:
I
UM
I GOT SOME CHOCOLATE AND TOFFEE THINGIES TODAY??
ARE THOSE OKAY?????
/whispers/ I'm playing on casual mode, so my units don't actually die.
idk man, I've got a few snipers too.
Sorcerers and sages.
Valkyries.
Dark knights.
I've got a bunch of different units all capable of... great things.
Oh.
Well...
Then I guess I'm not dead dead.
Just... kinda dead???
But wait, if we eat it, will that make everyone hate each other?
Right!
Pfffft.
Screw the power of friendship.
The power of video games is where it's at.
Uggghhhh.
Sometimes teachers were even skeptical about me bringing in a note.
Like, hOW DO I CONVINCE YOU THAT I WASN'T SKIPPING SCHOOL IF YOU'RE EVEN SKEPTICAL ABOUT ME BRINGING IN A SIGNED NOTE???
Certain times in the year, I get really sick for around two - three week intervals.
Being Asian, my parents usually just make me take some kind of Asian remedy and sleep it off and don't really go to the doctor's until I've had the same symptoms for like, a week and a half.
Like, I can't always bring in a doctor's certificate for being sick because I don't always go to the doctors???
Can you teachers GET OFF MY BACK?????
Well if multitasking isn't effective, why do they make us constantly write notes down while listening to some speech, while visually stimulated by a power point presentation or something?
You're making us do three things at once and you say multitasking is ineffective?
Tch.
Teachers.
Make up your minds.
idk that depends what you consider old????
I'm pretty sure I just spammed my friend on facebook while she and her family had gone on a day trip, hahah.
I don't really think my brother grasps the concept of Christmas, so it was like any other normal day, except the fact that my sister was gone for the whole day, rather than half of the day.
Ahh, my mum's a Jehovah's Witness and I guess the rest of my family just rolls with it, so
I didn't have any snacky snacks at home that day. :c
Umm uhh
I- um..
I also have these IceBreakers sour candy that my sister gave me yesterday???
Well I think Yarne is my top assassin right now.
He has a... particular set of skills.
/whispers/ actually most assassins all have the same set of skills
But his stats are higher than any other assassin in my team, so
Well I mean, apparently???
I guess I kinda did.
Didn't talk to anyone for the longest time.
That's kinda like dying, right?
What is this "power of friendship"?
I've never heard of such a concept.
Can I buy it?
Can I eat it?
Yeah!
Right!
Haha ha ha haaaaaaa.....
I'm totally with you though, let's watch the world bur- I mean, freeze
Ugh, yes.
I think back in college, if you had 10 unexplained absences for a class, you automatically fail.
I hear you.
People suck.
Well OBVIOUSLY they haven't heard of multitasking because I may not be participating in class, per se, bUT I'M STILL LISTENING
I maybe also possibly wanna just throw snowballs at the houses of the really irritating people across the street.... maybe
Man, I can't even remember what happened in Christmas.
I think I just stayed in my room and played video games, whereas my parents and my little brother watched tv all day.
Meanwhile, my sister is celebrating Christmas with her boyfriend and his family.
So that's fun... I guess.
I-
:'c
I sorry.
It's not the same thing, but I still have some popcorn to spare...?
Oh!
Um...
/whispers/ Hey. Heeeeeeey. Hey Gaius. Olivia. Yarne. Owain....
Oh wow, I have a lot of assassins in my team.
Most of them are just temporary so they can get a specific skill...
Anyway.
Pssst guys.
You're up.
Finally got the message, eh?
Some people are so slow....
I was off social media for around seven months and when I got back on and started talking to people, they thought I had died too.
Yeah!
In the.. in the... in the gut, right?
That's how you know you're best buds, yeah?
So you want to watch everywhere else freeze over first?
I meaaaannnn...
Sure.
Why not?
No one's saying you can't skip class..
I just don't want to get marked down for not turning up.
omg
So the teachers came up with this rule that (back in high school, I think?), if you don't participate in class or comply with the teacher, they could mark you absent.
EVEN IF YOU WERE SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM.
WHAT KIND OF RULE IS THAT.
I mean, you could just mark them down for not complying, but to mark them as absent when they're literally sitting right in front of you?
Tsk tsk, teachers.
Lying is bad.
Yeah, but I've only ever had summer Christmases.
... Not like I celebrate Christmas anyway, but still.
I don't think it's the white Christmas part... more like, I just want to see snow.
In my remote area, I mean.
I just wanna throw snowballs at people idk
They're all gone now. :'c
I ate them all.
UM.
UHH.
CRAP. UM.
OH WAIT.
/whispers/ I have some assassin units in Fire Emblem: Awakening....
Ah.
I leave the request hanging.
I mean, there has been a time where I didn't log on for months at a time...
Not like I post statuses or anything either, so who really knows when I'm online or not, you know?
I mean, besides the people that I spam in chat, yelling about video games
Yeah!
That's how you make friends, right?
Don't mind me as I walk along the top of all the shelves, then.
World destruction, hmm.
So the question is, are we waiting for hell to freeze over?
Or are we waiting to be be consumed by the flames of hell itself?
I have no idea what I'm talking about
DISCRIMINATION!!!!
Look at all these people with their hands up, and you chose me???
This is not how the things work.
I don't put my hand up because I don't know the answer!
Capiche???
Breeeaaattthhhheeee!
The Christmas season!
...
I'd like to have a white Christmas.
...Even though we were discussing how terrifying snow can be hmmmm
I am -4x smart person.
HERSHEY'S COOKIES AND CREAM CHOCOLAAATTTEEEEEEE!!!!
Oooh.
Uhh.
Hmm.
...........
*calls upon Ezio Auditore*
Oh, /those/ types of people.
Yeaaaah, those are the kinds of people that make it difficult for me to trust people.
Do you block them or just leave the request hanging there as if you never saw it?
Indeed, we are very great with the communicating of people.
I'll have a human friend.
And you think it'll get hot because it's summer, but then it'll start thunder-storming.
World destruction, indeed.
Ah.
I really do hate how teachers pick on you though.
Like, there would be people with their hands up, offering to answer the question and then they choose you.
Like teacher, please.
Teacher, why.
Sweet! You made it!
Now to enjoy the Christmas season and then... go back... to school...
Huh.
Fun fact: I actually did end up dropping it on the floor.
I am a smart person.
My parents bought some Hershey's chocolate recently and I stashed a bunch in my room.
- w-
Right.
Great.
Who do we talk to, to fix that issue?
Yeah, I was talking to a friend, and she was using her sister's account.
I wanted her to keep something from her sister for me, so we switched the conversation to her account.
She starts the conversation all normal like "Hello c:"
And I just go "AHHHHHH"
I'm really great with people, I swear.
Pffft, that'll be my human's job.
I-
Yeesh.
Dude, I'm thinking of it like a crazy cold like in Antarctica or something.
I mean, it's probably not as crazy as being in the polar regions, but dude.
And I used to wish it would legit snow in my area.
Some people got to skip out on maths classes though.
I was mad.
I didn't want to do maths, but my parents wouldn't have been very happy with that.
I do the complete opposite and purposefully avoid eye contact with my teachers, haha.
Ah, that makes sense.
Learning another language would require a lot of participation in class.
Last time I had cereal as a snack, I dropped it all over the floor.
I am a smart person.
I don't even have potato chips at home.
Like, can't I just be unhealthy for a bit? Please?
How do we make the economy go back up?
Or go back down?
....
How do we make things cheaper?
I'm usually the one who sends the message first.
With some outrageous, probably-not-even-English statement.
Or question.
More like some crazy woman yelling, actually.
Lazing around all day.
Not having to worry about responsibilities.
That'd be great.
Ahh, no way dude.
That's terrifying! D:
With it being the first day of summer where I am, I might enjoy another Ice Age.
But actually not really
Really??
Maths was one of our school's required (or 'highly recommended') subjects!
Dude, I would've loved to not have to do another class of maths.
The teachers would always call on me for an answer and I'm like, I wasn't paying attention leave me alonneeee gonk
Ah, I don't really have any snacks at home right now...
*quietly noms on cereal*
Oh, dude!
We could buy so much stuff with twenty dollars!!
Like damn, what happened.
Twenty dollars will get you food and maybe a book these days.
I just want video games to be less expensive damnit
Or accept Hitler into art school.
Or somehow avoided the assassination of Abraham Lincoln.
He seemed like a cool guy.
Most of the time, I don't even read the messages until maybe a week later.
And then I still don't reply.
Ha haaaaa I'm lovely.
FANCY!
RIGHT!
IT SHALL BE DONE!