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02/28/2004

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Vashon Island, VI baby!

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Hobbies/Interests

Volleyball Acting ( my life) My Friends and of course ROCK N' BOWL WITH MY BFFS!

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About
~*Love You*~
~*Hate You*~
~*I'm Crushing on my friend*~
~*I cant stand bitches*~
~*I like to go bowling with my friends*~
~*I like to play volleyball*~
~*I like to eat fruits*~
~*I'm a Vegitarian*~
~*I'm Athiest*~
~*I Am The Naughty Twister Princess*~
~*I Have 6 Piercings, 3 On Each Ear. 4 done proffesionally, I did the others myself*~


This I ALWAYS wonder...
If I were to die, right now, how many people would cry? how many people would move on? How many people would be joyfull? and if any, who would die? those really make me wonder...

My friends are my heros, my heros consist of:
HEROS
Jessica B <3
Bradley <3
Erik <3
Kelly #2 <3
Kaela <3
Isaac <3
Rissa <3
^ I love these people!

I really like to talk, like alot. I hate being alone because then who would I talk to? I would feel like a loser... Seeing people I care for alone, it makes me want to cry, my heart aches. What's worse is when you go to be with them, they get up, walk away, and go be alone again... That is definatly a heart ache...

My Top Fears

1. Losing all my friends, them hating me.
2. Biting into a BAD apple.
3. Being Alone.
4. Rejection.
5. My Friends.
6. Sixth Graders with small hands...
7. My mom..

I don't get it, those who act all high and mity online, but are really losers in realy life, they get you all riled up then you get pinned for it... I hate them... I hate anyone like them... I hate you... juss kidding.

I am SO insecure...
My best friend isn't allowed to see me.
I question the friendship between me and 3 of my friends.
I question my ability to hang out with my crush.
I wonder weither or not I have any REAL friends.
I don't really know where my life will lead me, if it leads me anywhere.
I definatly know who I want to be.
I wonder if the friends I have are mine, or my friends.
My whole world is slowly ending.
Death right now doesn't seem so cruel.
I should have never trusted them with my lies.
My eyes are now darkend by all your their lies.
Nothing matters when I'm broken.
Nothing matters when I'm with them.
My life is complete with my friends, or was.
My heart is aching to much to breathe.
I feel left out when the world is around.
I don't understand why they are my friends.
I can't grasp why anyone would like me, let alone love me.
I look into thier eyes and my stomache does the twist.
I think of losing my friends and my heart turns off
I wish to just go away from this hell I live in and be alone in a corner.

In my opinion being with yourself is better then being with people. People will hurt you, people will scare you, people will lie about you, lie to you, scream at you, kill you, betray you, turn their back on you, run from you, hide from you, and in the long run, all they will do it kill your hapiness.
But when your withyourself, you know what the other is thinking, you know what to do, you don't have to worry about betrayle, or lying, or screaming, killing, someone hiding or running away from you, or sucking your happiness away from you. But then again, you won't know what that feels like, and you won't know what love is like either... maybe it isn't the best thing...

I Hate the feeling that I have to hold on with all my might to keep the friends I have now..


I LOVE SYSTEM OF A DOWN!
top 2 bands:
Sytem Of a Down
Starsailor

I really like Volleyball
I Love Flowers
I Hate Bitches
I Love Brown Eyes (they are cool)
I Hate People Who Are "Proper"
I Love To See The World As Someone Else
I Hate The Way People Look At Me
I Hate When Everyone Is Around Me, Only my heros can surrond me.
I Love To Go To The Park.
I Love Being In Small Groups.
I Hate Feeling Sick
I Think My Friends Are All Posers....
I Hate Those Who Sit Their Lying To My Face.
I Hate People Saying They Love Me, It Feels Like A Lie.
I Wish I Could Go Live In Montana Again.
Montana is my safe Haven, My Heven, where only angels can go.
I Miss My Family, Before They Saw Me As A Disapointment.
I Wish My Life Would End. But I could see how people would react.
When I Look At My Friends I Notice A Change.
I Have Two Ultimate Best Friends, Who I Could Tell The World To.
Mr. And Ms. BFF


My Pictures, Never of JUST me, There has to be a friend in them also!

^My And My Best Friend, Allison. Before I got a hair cut.

^Jessica And I!

^Jessica and I again! She is my bestestestest friend!


^ To my ex friend, who pertended to be my friend!

Yes I drew those picture in paint!

Journal

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Just because the person you like doesn't like you back, it doesn't mean your world is over.

No One Knows How To Lie Better Than You

I am the naughty twister princess

• (09/13/2006 07:03 pm) Dedicated to my Ex :( 7.21.06 - 9.12.06
• (09/11/2006 05:39 pm) are they better than me? I'm scared
• (08/09/2006 07:41 pm)
• (06/18/2006 04:16 pm) Trouble in Paridise
• (05/15/2006 06:53 pm) I am your silent witness

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Report | 11/06/2006 12:23 pm

Angel Daisuke Niwa

Your profile quote scares the crap out of me.

Report | 10/19/2006 11:35 am

psychedelic _rainbow

yo

Report | 08/16/2006 8:31 am

invader zim fan

ttly koolness

Report | 07/18/2006 12:49 am

shuichi~and~yuki~4ever

READ IT ALL PLEASE AND WHO EVER GETS ON ITS PROFILE READ IT TOO PLEASE ALL OF IT CAUSE ITS MEAN..., MREIL1 mean right? if u want to talk to me about this cause i need some1 to talk about about this go to my profile or pm me thanks^_^if u do

Report | 07/18/2006 12:44 am

shuichi~and~yuki~4ever

Ark Rainstorm (2:06:05 AM): why do you bother talking to me if you think i'm a pervert
Ark Rainstorm (2:06:21 AM): why do you bother talking to me if you think i want to ******** you or some s**t
Ark Rainstorm (2:06:37 AM): why do you keep messaging me saying the same stuff over and over
Mreil1 (2:09:19 AM): well then that was akward but i would be mean to u if u were a pervert and thats y im still talking to u cause i would talk to them but be mean like i am doing u and same thing for ******** me
Ark Rainstorm (2:10:31 AM): ok so you are talking the way you are to me because you are trying to be mean to me?
Mreil1 (2:10:32 AM): and u r a PERVERT AND some s**t
Ark Rainstorm (2:11:33 AM): so right now you are trying to be mean to me?
Mreil1 (2:14:06 AM): ya duh ur a PERVERT AND TRYING TO ******** ME AND SOME s**t AND U CANT HAVE ME HA! *kicks in the balls and srceam danm a** PERVERT!*
Mreil1 (2:14:44 AM): SRCEAMS*
Mreil1 (2:15:35 AM): U R PERVERTED
Mreil1 (2:16:25 AM): PPPEEEVVVEEERRRTTT
Ark Rainstorm signed off at 2:16:33 AM.

Report | 06/25/2006 1:59 am

wtf ebay

Cute profile! I especially love your About -- it has attitude.

Report | 05/29/2006 2:02 am

Le Bleu

umm hello?

Report | 05/13/2006 1:30 pm

stephenjmontrose

im sorry i just want to chat

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Don't Ever Make Anyone Your Everything.
Because When They're Gone, You've Got Nothing.

I learned this the hard way.

My friends are only the background in my never ending naightmare.