Hahaha You said it. But im hoping that i can balance this maturity with some good spirited childishness. Nothing immature about having fun like a kid! In fact its probably the greatest showcase of growing up, to be able to balance being an adult with enjoying life like a child. Not something i plan to loose xD no matter what the stress level. Thats pretty cool about the farm though, What kind of settlement is it if you don't mind my asking? My lifestyle is one of living off the land by creating a sustainable environment for myself. Its served me well, and allowed me to live a 6 month period of time without any other human intervention. No money, no supplies, Nothing. Just whats in my brain. This spring, summer and fall... I truly did learn more lessons about life and our world then i had thought there were to learn previously. I understand now there is a lesson to be learned every single day lol As overwhelming as it may sound, its something that a great deal of peace can be found in, understanding one's own world. Though the problem with what i did, and why it wasn't permanently sustainable, Was i did it alone. And i learned so much, i had so much to say. But i didn't bring a journal to write to or camera to talk into xD It really dawned on me that even with as antisocial as id lived my life, Humans are a social creature, and don't handle very well knowing the fact they aren't going to be talking to anyone for a very long time. Its exciting and exhilarating for awhile, until you have so much you've learned you want to share it with the world xD And that would be something thats rather unavoidable out there. You learn something interesting every day. The woods of Newry to Stow in Maine will forever hold a special place in my heart after this. Keep up the childish attitude, The world of people is to shitty a thing to take on without a smile and an ace xD
Your telling me...I spent all day yesterday, reflecting on how any idea of being youthful was so far behind me.
Its a stunning realization isn't it? I know all my decisions are my own and that the courses i choose now will permanently affect my future in ways i can only wonder at. Its nerve racking but exciting nonetheless.
My emotions have been playing ******** ******** games in my head trying to to disillusion me from what i know is real, Conflicting intentions and lost aspirations that feel so important to fulfill. What a ******** it can be!
I don't yearn for the simpler times anymore, All they are for is learning and i've learned all i can from them. But i agree, getting in touch and enjoying communicating like the old times here on gaia, its nostalgically relaxing and quite a release, to say the least.
Well s**t! thats damn exciting indeed! I do wish you the best of luck on your aspiring goal. Tis not an easy course in life! as im sure you are aware by now lol
And props to your mom to, Thats a great industry to get into. Smart s**t!
Sorry about the band, But at least your heart has the music. I'm a solo musician kind of guy myself. Me and mah guitar are the only band we want XD Doesn't hurt to jam with another drummer or another guitarist though either.
I can't say things have been quite so progressive for myself, I mostly lived a happy life of self-exile into the woods xD Been the most enlightening experience of my life though at least, learned plenty more then anywhere else in my life. I've given the rest of my attention towards the lovely world of physics. I do believe any career choice i make will involve some form of chemical engineering or astrophysiology.
Huzzah to being remembered! xD Trying to come back on some more are ya? Me to. I've probably only been on a half dozen times since we last talked years ago up until now. Ive been on a bunch this week. Life has been very demanding! XD Anything interesting in life for you?
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Its a stunning realization isn't it? I know all my decisions are my own and that the courses i choose now will permanently affect my future in ways i can only wonder at. Its nerve racking but exciting nonetheless.
My emotions have been playing ******** ******** games in my head trying to to disillusion me from what i know is real, Conflicting intentions and lost aspirations that feel so important to fulfill. What a ******** it can be!
I don't yearn for the simpler times anymore, All they are for is learning and i've learned all i can from them. But i agree, getting in touch and enjoying communicating like the old times here on gaia, its nostalgically relaxing and quite a release, to say the least.
And props to your mom to, Thats a great industry to get into. Smart s**t!
Sorry about the band, But at least your heart has the music. I'm a solo musician kind of guy myself. Me and mah guitar are the only band we want XD Doesn't hurt to jam with another drummer or another guitarist though either.
I can't say things have been quite so progressive for myself, I mostly lived a happy life of self-exile into the woods xD Been the most enlightening experience of my life though at least, learned plenty more then anywhere else in my life. I've given the rest of my attention towards the lovely world of physics. I do believe any career choice i make will involve some form of chemical engineering or astrophysiology.