im getting better. im deeling with this whole thing.... but i just have dreams where she's here and when i turn around she's gone.... it makes me wake up in tears.... ive accepted that it's over, but im still trying to get over it. and don't worry *huggle* im not going to do anything, whenever i feel that way i go to live with shaunay. and when she gets her apartment im going to live with her and cin. getting away from my house will really help, i just have to wane myself off my meds. it al still hurts but it will stop.... i just need to wait.
look... ive tried over and over to talk to her... but she never answers her phone or talks to me at all... i didn't want to tell you this, but on multiple occasions i've thought about killing myself...and the last time it happened i called her begging for help and crying, and she never called back, im not just being dramatic. I cried so much when i said goodbye to her. i stayed at shaunay's for 5 days i was such a wreck.
"the only people you need in your life are those who have proven that they need you in theirs"
well she still hangs out with other people... and i already left her a voicemail saying goodbye... and she hasn't responded... i told her to have a great life even if im not part of it....
yay!!! oh and if i seem a little attached to you or ashley it's because courtney is ignoring me and im pretty sure im never gonna talk to her again.... so im been really scared of more people abandoning me lately.... just a heads up
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