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You know, I've been thinking about what to say for a pretty long time now... words never really came to mind, so i'll just roll with the punches.
You might be wondering what happened to me this year we've been apart... well, a lot has happened. I don't even know where to begin, but to start things off, I'm pretty good, healthy, still pretty and hopeful as always hehe.
Being totally honest, At the start of this.... I felt apart lol, not gonna get into much detail but... over time I started to understand things, I realized that what you did was hard, but it was something you made out of true love... and i'll always be grateful for that. it really helped me grow and be a better version of me all around.
As I grew as a person I got a job, matured, got new friends (also met some pretty crappy people lol) studied a lot of things about food and... well, kinda recently I started excersicing as well lmao. it's been good and I see the light again
I'm working as a guide in a touristic place, we haven't really had any ''tourists'' for obvious reasons lol, but a lot of people from my own country come in and it's quite fun, I have had to speak english twice now while giving tours and both times I did pretty well lol =)
My family is alright, not excellent lol, but we're definetly in a better place than last year, and things are looking good, haven't really had any major issues around the house lately. kittys are doing great too! got 3 new babies around the house and they are ******** adorable
My relationship with my dad is still the same, not everything is rosy. he still does stupid and evil things and keeps on dissapointing everyone. at least he hasn't done anything attacking me directly lately
And well, You know, I've also been thinking about... Us, cuz, well... honestly the fire within me still burns for you... but it's different now. not in a bad way at all tho, I've just started to feel more... pure things for you, you know what i mean? like, I want you to be happy, I want you to accomplish every dream you have and I want you to do everything you've ever wanted to do.
And even tho I still love you cuz there is just no other way to put it, it's not necessarily in a romantic way. I do still think you're the most beautiful, amazing human being I've ever met both inside and out, and I still want to hug you until my arms break but... I do understand that we can't be in love, at least not for now. It was a tough pill to swallow but i'm fine with it, because priority number 1 for me when it comes to us now is just that you're happy. whether that's with me, alone or with someone else, I just want you to be happy. You have a really, reaaaally special place in my heart and i'll never forget the lessons you've taught me.
I would love to hear what you've been up to! honestly, even tho we can't be in a romance I would really like it if we could still be in contact. You are someone I deeply care about and I want to know you're alright. And well... If you're ever in need of someone for anything, know that i'll always be here for you (maybe not in gaia mostly cuz this thing is about to die lol, but you know where to find me, llTheGmodll pretty much everywhere, the_g_mod on Instagram and Gabriel tso on facebook)
....Jesus christ that last part sounded like a plug some random youtuber would put at the end of their videos or something lmao, but I wanted to remind you just in case you forgot =)
Also... Well, we should FINALLY be able to play dead by daylight now! =) I still don't have a monster pc lol, don't get your hopes up buuuut I did get a Ps4 and will eventually get a Ps5, took the console route (i know, pc master race and all that im sorry lol i just have a really hard time playing with a keyboard, most of my fiends are on console and I love some of the exclusives) but anyways. I know Dead by daylight has cross plataform gameplay so we could and should play it together some day =) I already have the game! the ps4 I bought came with it and a few others lol, and not just that... we should be able to play just about anything that has crossplay =)
Send me a pm when you read this! I know you will lol
We're each other's only reason to still come to this place
btw happy birthday, hehe =) hope you eat lots of cake and have fun! and if you see this late, well... yeah, updated this 1 day before your birthday so you knew I didn't forget =) also, I know you updated yours last year around my birthday =)
