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You know what? I've always believed in the saying "you dont know what you have until it's gone", but I hadn't truly experienced it first hand until now. As many of you may have found out by now, yeah, I'm single. My wonderful (now ex) boyfriend have officially broken up. I'm not sitting here announcing it to the world, just so I can get pity. No, I dont pull s**t like that. However, I want everyone to know exactly what is going on.

No, he did not break up with me, I broke up with him. If you're wondering why I'm the depressed one, I can't really answer that for you, because I honestly dont know myself. All I know is nothing is right without him at the moment. I'm constantly kicking myself for ever hurting him. He was a great guy, and I had to be the b***h who hurt him immensely.

Anyway, I just can't seem to get him off my mind. I keep hurting other people because of this, and I dont want to anymore. So I dont see why I should even talk to the great friends I have now. I'm only bringing them down with me, and that is not what I want.

So Lonzo, if you're reading this, I really want you to know I love you. I love you so much that I can't go on living without you. I just, I cant go out with you again, after all that's happened. I don't want to start back on what we left off on. I hope you understand..

And for those who say "I know how you feel", shut up. I really dont think you know how I feel.

I've made a mistake, and now I am paying for it with my own happiness, and the cost of many others. Now I know what it feels like to losing something you love deeply...

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[.Sunshine.]

Report | 07/12/2007 5:16 pm

[.Sunshine.]

PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST. IT'S SO DANG TRUE











1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.































2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.































3.The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.















































4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.







































5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep



6. You mean the world to someone.











7. If not for you, someone may not be living.







8. You are special and unique.















9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.















10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.



















11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.











12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.



















13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.























14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.























15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.











Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!! this is so scary!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it is so scary because it works.... but if you break the chain.. you will be cursed w/ relationship problems
Capin crunch

Report | 05/28/2006 1:29 pm

Capin crunch

Hello ol' twin <3
Lonzo

Report | 03/28/2006 7:38 pm

Lonzo

hello hannah mrgreen
Lonzo

Report | 03/28/2006 11:32 am

Lonzo

y is my name there as a interest eek
Goldmagnus

Report | 03/10/2006 5:35 am

Goldmagnus

Hello >:5
Mr. S Claus

Report | 02/24/2006 4:00 pm

Mr. S Claus

Sorry to barge in like this, but I have come to ask for the payment on the "Mr. S Claus Ki Kitty Tax" (.M.S.C.K.K.T). If you feel unsure about your payment contact "Mr. S Claus's Journal." Under statement 24 February 2006. Have a nice day!
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Tinksy

Report | 02/20/2006 12:46 pm

Tinksy

Eh! DD! <333 We need to talk more. Mucho!! Anyway, noooooo, we arent twins =[ Eh, we are still twins on the um..eh..inside? Baha!
First2Go-Last2Know

Report | 02/19/2006 4:36 pm

First2Go-Last2Know

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I am the Flink

Report | 01/29/2006 3:07 pm

I am the Flink

lmao freddy
I am the Flink

Report | 01/29/2006 3:06 pm

I am the Flink

gah i still luv ya freedy

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I <3 Raz_punk and [Crimson Flames]!

<3 Lonzo and Hannah .:*10/7/05*:. <3
Thanks Marco!! ^.^
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