My Shadow and I
If I sit and think too long,
My mind will start to wander.
Though eight years have passed, here I still sit,
To tell you of my twenty six years of living.
I have a daughter who is but eight,
Her eyes sparkle as mine did when I met him.
The Shadow, I name him, such a fitting name,
The movements he made in stealth, untraceable.
I remember the night when I stood alone,
On the balcony of my father's home.
My eyes shifted over the river and trees,
With the moon as a background for all to see.
But it was my private show that night,
As I watched a shadow shift in the light.
A cold chill crossed my flushed cheeks,
Before my golden eyes reverted back to the river.
I squinted in bewilderment for a time,
Before cold hands touched my skin.
I did naught to protest, and soon we fell,
Into satin sheets, our lips they were locked.
The night was long, but the bed was warm,
What I felt I cannot describe to you.
I petitioned my father and pleaded,
Though he was senile his tone was no.
Despite his answer, I did what my heart said,
And thrice days later, wed were my Shadow and I.
He was a man not more than twenty,
With the experience of a man well in their prime.
Four months we were happy together,
My Shadow and I, I never knew his name.
When the four months ended, the general came,
He sought my Shadow's services for the war.
Two years came and went with no sign of end,
Nine letters later, the tenth one came.
It read how sorry they were to leave me with a child,
With no man anywhere near to help me.
The news of his death hit me hard,
Before I even read name, Darian Rastienn.
The only thing I had left to do was cry,
And that I did, the tears pooling at my feet.
Our daughter that I birthed while he was gone,
Her movements as wondrous as he, her looks like mine.
Looked at me ever so sadly and with head a-tilt,
Uttered but a single word to me, "Daddy?"
My own head I then shook as I watched her,
Six years since then and so much she grew.
She is all I could hope for with out her father,
Sitting on the porch and watching her gleefully.
Can't you see her dancing? Dance my lovely little angel,
Dance with Daddy, before he goes back up to heave.
My All
From the dawning eves I look down to you and see the face of containment. It's echo chiming in my mind like the river I watched you cross to get here. The words ring loudly through the trees and my eyes well with the tears that I cried to make you come back to me. "Methious Kathios Melfane," you spoke to me and I knew then there was no more I needed to fear. "Methious Loren Fathious"
You spoke those alone in the room as you walked in upon by a group of over a hundred. "My love won't die even if I do" was my pledge to you. I tried to keep that promise. I feel like I've failed. The wind whistles a cold tune in my ears and I look to where you stood, you walked away from me, you left and I was empty. I vowed to myself to never break that promise again.
I told myself over and over there was always the doubt but there was never a reason. I let myself fall and now I must pick myself back up. I hurt and I cry and I see the lights above me twinkle, their stories playing like records in my mind. I owe you my life, I don't quite see how I can ever repay you. I know you see the things I do as hurtful to you, But I also know you can see the Love there.
My heart bled that night standing on the eves. My eyes cried so hard they felt like they broken, I lost my footing as you walked off into the distance and I knew I had made a mistake. I won't lose you again, I would not be able to stand it. "Methious Kathios Melfane" I mouthed to the tree where you had been, My love for you always, the words I always have trouble saying,
"Methious Kathios Melfane Fen" was the set I never said, I only tried hard to show it. I felt as though I was never good enough to say those words to you. I feel now as though should I say them you may never hear them. But I will say them for you, because my promise is this. For always and a day I will love and cherish my Master. My Love, My Protector, My everything, My only thing that I have.
Methious Kathios Melfane Fen. My Love to you always Master.
The Ending
Walking from life into death and darkness the hidden one swaying only in confidence.
She walks alone and tears stream her face reflecting gold in the waterways.
She stops and stands still waiting for her life to end and the reign of dark to begin
She sits down and looks around her noting the things around her becoming shaded and hidden from view.
The light falters and yet she can still see clearly.
She can see those who would wish her ill and can see where she should and could have been stronger.
She can see all the people who only wanted to take from her and never give.
She see's all she has done and feels she could have done more.
She then see's the person standing in front of her shaking his head and saying no.
Telling her she couldn't have done more and should have done less.
Telling her he wishes he could still see her.
Watching the tears stream from his face the dark around him fades.
She see's him sitting in a bed and looking to a ceiling her standing next to it.
She can see the tears lining his own face as he lays down and attempts to sleep.
She then lays next to him knowing he can't feel her.
She cries the entire time until she can't see anything anymore.
When she can see again she can feel him holding her.
She can feel his breath in his chest as she looks up and he is fast asleep.
Tears fall from her eyes again as she hugs him to her tightly and pets his head.
She rocks back and forth slowly as he wakes in her arms and looks to her.
His mouth moves but she hears no words.
His eyes shine but she see's the sadness in them.
She suddenly feels herself falling as she is surrounded by darkness once more.
This time she doesn't see anything.
This time there's no more light to see.
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