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why do yopu hate me. What have i done to deserve the pain you cause me. Will you kill me or will you use me for your owne personal gain. Am I a toy or a peace of trash you tell me that i am beutiful but I am ugly and there's no two ways about it. I just want to die.

When I die i will look like this:User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show.
Or I can look like this:User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show.


This is why i want to die will some one please kill me now
Why do you want me to live?
Why do you hert me you all hate me why am I talking to you about this you hate me and that's that.
You want me dead and i just wont die. You send your assasans to kill me but they don't kill me they get killed by me. Lusifer the voice in my head says to kill back but I say no. I want to spair your pitiful lives. He says no you all must die. I just try to calm him with some music but it wont work. You ask why. I say he is too angry to be consoled. He wnts to have blood but I stop him befor I had another 'accadent' involving my wrists. A picture of lusifer:User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show.

Gess what there's an other voice in my head she wants me to be all happy and pink her name is kayla she looks like this:User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show.
She make's me sick. Why do I have to be stuck with her. At least ther is Sible to talk to she dosent tell me to kill or do any thing elce. She look's like this:User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show.
She like's kitties. Once we saw a dead kitty in the middle of the road. We cryed until she told us to stop crying. She is the mean lady that tell's us to be quit and to stop killing people.
Her name in Alice she looks like this:User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show.
She's an imaginary friend killer. Those are my best friends on her. She killed marko the fox for his pelt and she killed sammy the monster too.

Well here are all of the look's I like so deal with it:
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N A N A F I S H

Report | 06/03/2009 4:25 pm

N A N A F I S H

[size=10]hi linda (:





so steph posted a blog about posting a comment on your gaia profile, and it's been on my mind all day since i read it. and i read all the comments that have been posted since the beginning of 2009 and it kind of made me wanna cry. that knot you get in the pit of your stomach and that feeling in your throat. 





life's such a difficult thing to go through, and things never go the way you plan. you're probably the best example i can think of for any of this. life's a pretty cruel thing, and it's been running through my mind for a few weeks. like everyone's saying, that big group we had has just split. we were all like a puzzle and it's like all the pieces flew all over the place, and they got all damaged so they can't fit back together easily. 





when i was in middle school, i used to say that i couldn't wait to be apart of high school drama. i couldn't wait for the fights and the boy trouble and all that. but now, i wish i could go back to being a little girl, where it didn't take being judgemental to make a friend. now, i've experienced the drama, and i wish i didn't. i lost so many friends. some of the drama was a bunch of junk that had been buried below and had surfaced again. some was new drama, that just came up and broke everything up. i almost lost a friend over a boy, and it was the stupidest thing i've ever done. i kind of miss the old group, because we had so many good times together. in a way i don't, i just don't know. i don't miss the way i used to be. but if i could make a mix of the way things used to be and the way they are now, i'd probably be happy. of course, i'd have you there too. 





it's always in the back of my mind, you know? the past, the way everything once was. but you can't go living each day wishing it was yesterday, and you can't go hoping for the future. there's things i regret and miss from the past, and i'm afraid of the future. time flew by. i feel like just yesterday, you were here, everyone was together, and everyone was happy. now all of a sudden, it's like we're a few months shy of junior year, and in a couple of years, we'll be out of high school, preparing ourselves for the big bad world that's out there. i'm scared. 





this town feels like it's shrinking day by day. it's like a little cage, and no matter what, i'm having a hard time breaking free. not only is it high school, but it's the time that i'm living in. i hate the way things are in the world overall right now. i hate that people are so stupid in general, and how things are really much more difficult then they need to be. i wanna be a hippie. i know it's crazy, but i want to live in the back of one of those vans and drive everywhere i can and meet people just like me. anyone reading this would probably roll their eyes, and you're probably thinking i'm a little insane too. 





everyone here misses you. there are some idiotic people, but they're thoughts are really rude and unimportant. i know i didn't know you as well as all the others, but if i have to pick the nicest person i'd ever met, you'd be that person. i don't think any of the bs that's happened would've involved you. i can picture you here, but i can't picture you being apart of all the splitting up. i'd like to apologize to everyone i've ever said anything mean to, i'd like to go back and make myself be less of a... i'm trying not to curse here, but i think if i had to pick the one word to best describe it, i'd say b***h (one that's all). i'd make up all those lost years that i feel like i'm missing out on. i'm afraid that my life's always going to be incomplete with all these loose ties. it hurts. 





i'm sort of just venting to you, and i know you're up their watching over us, and listening to all the words that we say as we leave comments on your profile. this is like our way of contacting you. of keeping you updated on all of the stuff that's going on here. you're never going to be forgotten. 





i think i've ranted, and i don't think ther
DarkRee

Report | 05/30/2009 6:55 pm

DarkRee

[color=purple]I kind of hope everyone reads this, but I have a feeling most of them won't. I don't mean to offend anyone but that or anything else I will say, I just want them to know how I feel. I can't say I've been thinking about you, but I certainly can't say I've forgotten about you. I've been thinking about you a lot lately, actually. Thinking about how lucky you are to be freed from such a world. No one will ever lie to you again. No one will ever try to break you to pieces, or manipulate you. I was freed too, from everything that I'm sure only you could really see once you were gone. But am I really free, now? It seems like in the end everything is the same as it was before, but with different people and a new kind of pain added to the mix. The people I truly love and care for are always taken from me. First my father, then you. Now Sam, Jorge, and Steffi, and now... well I'd really rather not say now.





I've learned a lot of things over this past year, which is funny because leaving Amboy I thought I'd learned everything. I'm sure you saw all the 'street smarts' I had learned in my former household, and I had learned of the true nature of 'friends' and how drama and high school isn't what we all dreamed it would be. This year I learned a lot of things, I even realized something new about a way I felt about someone very close to me, though I should have seen it a lot sooner. Loving someone and being in love with someone aren't the same thing. Things happen because people allow them to, wishes only come true because people strive to make them a reality. Never expect the worst but keep it as a possibility. Walk forward prepared for the worst but hoping for the best. Never put your full dependence in people because in the end, everybody's gone. Who you once were doesn't matter; it's about you are now. These are all things I had known to be true... You knew that. After all, you saw the kind of person I was. But I wanted to change. I wanted a chance to be happy, see the best in people. All these pearls of wisdom I had hoped to string together into a necklace to share with my friends. But now where are they all? At first I was kind of glad we all split up but... it makes me sad. Kinda makes me feel old, ya know? Losing everyone before high school's even over. I'll say what I've been saying to a lot of people lately; I wish things didn't happen this way. But like I said earlier, wishes only come true because we strive to make them a reality. Maybe things will change. Even if when the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again, it's still a beautiful picture nonetheless.





There have been a lot of ups and downs with everyone, but it was all worth it. Everyone is their own person, a unique being. I wouldn't want any of them to change. I think we all need to learn to chill out and let things go. Not everyone is out to cut each other's throats. Yes we had our fights, but every moment I spent with everyone has made me who I am today. Every second was worth it. These were my friends, I cherished them. Even though all this stuff happened and we all fought, I bet one day when we're all 80 years old we won't even remember why we got mad and stopped talking in the first place. We all had wonderful times together, and we were happy. The greatest lesson I learned this year... "You should never regret something that once made you smile."





In a way I'm glad you're not around to be a part of all this. Ada was right; the hardest part of life is living. I think death is a reward for all of the suffering we go through. As they say, "Only the good die young." I wish I could be good enough, like you were. I really don't want to go on anymore, I'm so tired. But if I don't keep moving, then who will? And if you want to know the truth, I'm afraid. Not afraid of dying. Nope, I'm not afraid of that at all. I'm afraid that there's nothing waiting for me afterwards. I'm not saying I don't believe in an afterlife. I have to believe there's someth
Azul Luna

Report | 03/12/2009 3:20 pm

Azul Luna

Oh, Linda, I hope you're doing good in heaven. Someone who probably click on your page, is all like "what? this person is dead?!" lol, that made me laugh for some reason. Speaking, of reasons, everytime i visit your page, i feel like i'm in seventh again. Well, that was when I met you. Also, Inuyasha comes to mind too, also since you lent me Inuyasha manga. Did you know, well you probably do but anyway Inuyasha finished! Like, no more chapters! Sango and Miroku ended up together and have kids. Kagome and Inuyasha end up, but really you couldn't tell. All there is this word bubble thingy, that says so. I mean, no kiss? Oh, I'm rambling now. Oh, well, who's going to read this?





Oh, thank you Linda and your gaia page, since you allow me to ramble about mindless things. As Erika stated in the post below me, our old N12, or seven was it is broke up. I can't said I'm not sad about, but what can you do? I wasn't really involved in it, when it first started. But, I ended in the middle of it. Then summer came, and oh man. Well, you're looking down at us, so you know what happened. But hey, even though we all were one big close group, we all had a best friend,who we told everything too. So, we choose the side we want to go, like how I will always be on Steph and Steffi's side. Steph is like my sister I should've, and Steffi knows how to make me laugh until my stomach hurts, or tears are streaming down my cheeks.





Oh, gosh. College letters start coming and man I don't want to think about it. I mean, I know college will be fun and all, but I still want to be a little kid. No worries, well beside drama of course. I guess I have a Peter Pan complex then. Oh, well everyone is a bit crazy, learned that from One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, which I love! Oh, I'm rambling. First, it's about seventh, which makes me cringe and feel embarrassed. I wrote such bad fanfiction, had a infatuation with someone,a totally Narutard, i look back and think "oh, man. I was such a dork" But I was happy, so I guess that makes it ok. Then, I talk about Inuyasha, the group breaking up, and then college.



I sincerely apologized from all the grammer and spelling mistakes. Hee, don't I sound so smart? User Image I'm typing with um..passion I guess, so I may make a mistake or two, or maybe more.. Well, thanks again, for I guess giving me a space or area to write my thoughts and feelings.



~Sam~

R.I.P Linda
Serinax

Report | 02/16/2009 8:36 pm

Serinax

Hey, Linda.



Its me, Erika. You know what's weird. I've been think about you recently...............not really. I'm sorry. That's a lie. I wasn't thinking about you. In fact I've been very selfish lately. Well I'm not sure If I can consider it selfish. Things has been complicated..

Yea, thats the word. Complicated.

You know, the old gang isn't together anymore. I hope they read this too. You know why, so they can all see how stupid they were.

We have someone over-reacting because of an event. Then stubborn people who didn't want to let anything go. So they go and make it worse by continually bothering the same girl.

because she's my friend I don't talk to them. Leaving me with like five friends. I'm trying not to name names. Because I do then they'll all start bitching. But I'm sure they would know who they are.

So we have like everyone split up. you don't realise how mad I get, thinking, that because of an even that I wasn't even apart of.

Damn, you know, sometimes I think you're lucky, not that you were killed but that you don't have to deal with all the drama that happened.

....

You know, me and Ang are thinking of running away. Well I don't want to leave now, but Ang seems like she can't wait. Because Amboy bores her aparently. I know right, she hasn't even been here for 5 years and this place bore her. Not only that, she says her p[arents are bad. I mean people have their moments....

Idk Linda. I'll just tell you this, so far sleeping is the closest way I get away from all of this, and its not far enough.

But don't worry, I'll join you up there to keep you company one day. 'till then my connection to you is through a crappy computer.

RIP and I hope you get remembered more often.

-Erika
mike jones back then

Report | 07/16/2008 12:55 am

mike jones back then

hey what up im i was an a** to i hope you forgive me R.I.P
humanha8tr

Report | 05/04/2008 2:55 pm

humanha8tr

Happy 15th Birthday!
Azul Luna

Report | 03/10/2008 2:25 pm

Azul Luna

Wow, March already. No, that's not why I'm writing. The reason is that well this junior died in a car accident, on the 29th. That accident reminds me of you. But I also felt sad and mad.I felt sad that the boy died. But what made me mad that everyone made a big deal about it. I mean, the testing was postponed. Sure, the boy died, but since he was popular, everyone made a big deal. At his wake, I bet half of the people didn't know him, and I mean really know him. I mean, it's good to pay your respects. But I couldn't help but think, oh when Linda died, no one make a big deal. As I was talking about this with Rin in Bio. She said that if she died, half of the school wouldn't give a damn. She also said that only the N15 would care about her, and a couple of people she talked too. Ok, just need to get that off my chest.

~Samantha~

R.I.P Linda
mike jones back then

Report | 02/10/2008 11:44 am

mike jones back then

bom ba cl
DarkRee

Report | 12/31/2007 4:19 pm

DarkRee

As we slowly approach the new year, we reminisce of the times from the years gone past...



Happy New Years Linda, wish you were here.



-Stephanie
Keely Que Linda

Report | 12/27/2007 6:05 pm

Keely Que Linda

Hey Linda



Long time no see. Christmas has past and we are going on with a new year. I wish you wfere here with us. Things are so differnt without you. We gained new friends and in my oponin we have lost some. Not you though to me you are still with us. I wish you a Happy New Year...May peace be with you

-Anna A.K.A Tsunade

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