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it hurts to see how lost and hurt all of you are in these last days.
i just want to offer encouragement, that you think god wouldn't want someone like you, but you're exactly the type of person he came to suffer, bleed, and die for.
you are never too far gone.
if you want to know the truth of this world, i encourage you to make time;
to go into your room by yourself with the door closed
get on your knees and say an honest prayer out loud.
for me it was something like "if there's a higher power out there, 'the universe', a collective consciousness, a god... if you're real i want to know who you are"
for the next year i would get sign after sign pointing towards the biblical god, and i didn't understand that's what it was until the night he met me in my living room.

guys... that feeling is beyond description.
i remember being overwhelmed by this feeling that if everyone could feel that feeling, they wouldn't doubt god.
they would love him and desire more of him.
it's a peace that surpasses all understanding, euphoric but not sexual, like the adrenaline of excitement of a kid the night before christmas but times 1,000,000

if you want to know, if any part of you hungers for what's truth, i just want to push you to seek it out.
leave what you think you know at the door, and knock.

Matthew 7:7-8
"Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened."

Revelation 3:20
"Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me."

the god that created you and i is a gentleman, he will not force himself upon yuou. he will not make you love him, he will not force you to be in his presence. he's waiting on you to seek his face. taste and see that the lord is good, his only desire for you is life abundantly.