About

InTeReStS:
Outside of school, I tend to draw a lot, read daily, and write stories. I really don't do any sports since I stay inside the house most of the time. In addition to that, I listen to a lot of foreign music, bike, enjoy fishing with my family, love to watch the sun set down below the horizon, watch horrors nightly, and collect dolls and stuffed-animals. Designing clothes is also another of my many interests. Also, I am a freestyle-Photographer, a person who takes pictures at random: Lanscapes, Humans, Houses, Animals. Practically, just the natural ways of life and what's in the world. The fact that my brain and thoughts function more accurately when I study about foreign countries is not a mistake. The way I work is odd. I simply find extreme fascination when learning about other parts of the world. However, I have six favorite countries that I research about more: 1. Japan, 2. China, 3. ThaiLand, 4. Philippines, 5. Vietnam, 6. Taiwan. Altogether, I would say that I currently am self-learning Japanese.

DiFfIcUlT sItUaTiOnS:
While recieving an education, I wish to achieve at an excellent standard, yet I do not hope to surpass anyone else or fail. Because, no matter how smart I am, somewhere in the world, there will always be someone better, and someone better than THAT someone. The problem that has bothered me for quite a while now is, however, my social life. At home is a different story, but in school, I don't seem to have any permanent friends. The 'friends' I have are just there to socialize with me when they feel like it. Otherwise, each time I see them, there would always be a group of other kids- a ''gang'' where they will always hang around with. And when I look back at me, I'm by myself. My whole year of 7th grade I have been called an Emo because of the way I think and acted when socializing with someone. This is the main reason, I suppose, that others try to stay away from me as much as possible. They call me Emo, but naturally my personality is mine alone, yet others judge me by only that. No one would ever ask about me, and, once I was told that no one really knows anything about me except my name and that I like weird and creepy things- that I like to observe blood, and many more. Ever since growing up, it has been hard for me to make friends. In 2nd grade, however, I had a best friend, and he was male. But further in the year, rumors would spread that we were dating, and eventually he stopped hanging out around me. Not even a 'Hello' could be said. After that incident I became more self-conscious, and kept my room between guys. At times I wonder to myself, What's so wrong about a girl and guy becoming best of friends? Why can't both genders just get along with each other? My year in 3rd grade, I was constantly being bullied by kids who call themselves my ''friends'', but I was so self-consious that I couldn't even stand up to myself. I don't even eat where a lot of kids are, but usually at the end of the table by myself. Anyhow, I thought the situation would get worse in Middle School, and it did. I didn't talk at all except when answering questions in class during my 6th grade year. I talked a bit more in 7th grade, but mostly only to friends, in which I had a few by then. This year, however, I became my quiet self again, only uttering a word when neccessary. Anyhow, this year I felt more accepted, because kids weren't making fun of me anymore, and they were nicer, even though they were just 'social conversers', not neccessarily my friends or anything. In the end, no matter how hard I try, I never managed to make a friend that I can hold on to and call and tell everything to when I feel fustrated or cooped up. The only person I can do that to-is myself. I guess...I was just born a loner.

FaVoRiTe BoOk:
No book is ever, EVER favored by me. I treat all the books I read the same, no more, no less, because each book gives me a different view of life. However, I do have favorite book genres. Manga of all genres, Horror, Mystery, Non-Fiction, Fiction, Biographies, Poetry, and Physcological.

FaVoRiTe MuSiC:
The music I prefer is anything EXTREMELY sad and would tore a person's heart. But anything I listen to depends on my current mood.

WhY i ChOoSe To StAy AlIvE:
1. Because God created me and I do not wish to destroy my life on freewill, even though I sometimes want to do hazardous things to myself.
2. Because my family needs me in this critical turn in drastic life and I want to fulfill and repay with respect to them in everything they gave me. And to do so, I must live on, for they gave me birth, and nothing -- not even all the money in this world -- can repay that.
3. Because of myself. I want to achieve my dreams. I will admit, I am scared of dying. However, if I have at least done all these things and fate has decided that it is my time to rest, then I will have no regrets, but will happily fall back with a smile and watch over my family and friends in Heaven with God.